you wish you never met me

you wish we hadn't kissed

you wish I hadn't smiled the way I did

you said I was the one

but now you wish that weren't true

My heart still skips a beat when I hear your name

how could it not?

I bet you wished for that to happen too

you wish the thought of me would vanish

you wish my face was just a blur

you wish my touch would leave your body

but it's trapped within you now

the way I put your hair behind your ear

You wish you had stopped me at that moment

but you didn't,

And how could you?

I know your wishes are just air

I know you wish the same as I,

for me to touch your hair again

and make you remember why we fell in love

you wish you'd called in sick

and left me on that day

the day before we met

The day I was sitting staring at the window

Waiting for someone like you to find me

You tell yourself and all your friends

that your heart had a malfunction

you told them it didn't skip a beat,

just the other whores on tinder

and settled with me

and that we were never even that big of a thing

You wish you could believe the words you're pulling out of your mouth

Sharp knives out to get me

The way it got you too

you wish for me to die

you wish for me to stay

you wish for me to never have existed at all so you wouldn't have to ask me to stay

I wish I could ease your pain

But the pain follows me too

you wish I could have told you that

But I wish you could have told me too

you never shared your true deep thoughts

So I really thought you'd want me gone

but then I see you at our spot

Are those happy tears or not?

And if you do wish me dead, why didn't you kill me?

if you do wish me gone, why are you still here?

And why am I?