Opening the door just as my eyes land on Oliver and Amanda both with smiles on their faces.

"Hello.... please come on in," I say to them trying to break the ice, they both nodded before making their way into my home, closing the door, and took a breath before turning my eyes back to them.

"Here you are, thank you for having us over," Amanda says to me and hands me a bottle of wine, taking the bottle from her with a smile.

"Thank you, this is very kind of you" I replied polity to her and then moved my eyes back to Oliver. He hasn't said a word since stepping through the door.

Amanda also picks up on this, because she simply takes hold of his hand and smiles softly at him. Oliver's eyes immediately shoot up to hers. I can see the love they share for one another, the comfort they bring to each other.

"Would you like to meet Remi?" I asked out loud, with my eyes directly on him, because I know how tough this must be for him. He's meeting a niece he never knew about for the first time, but the toughest part is that he's meeting her before her own father has.

Oliver looks at me, his hand still firmly holding on tightly to Amanda's.

He nods "I would like that very much" He replies smiling,

Returning his smile and then I made my way to Remi's bedroom, before returning back to the living room with Remi who was holding onto my hand shyly.

As we re-entered the room, both Amanda's and Oliver's eyes were first to scan for Remi. And as soon as they saw her shyly hiding by my side, there was nothing but massive....yet true smiles on their faces, which warms my heart because my daughter's existence is a blessing to them, just like she is to me every day.

"Oliver, Amanda.... this is my daughter Remi-;" I broke off just as my eyes became watery and I moved Remi towards the front gently holding onto her hand, before I looked down to her and smiled,

"And Remi this is your uncle and Auntie" I added to my daughter. Remi stays still for a moment and she keeps her eyes on me for a small second, before she takes a step away from me and towards Oliver and Amanda.

"Hello," She says softly towards them with a cute adorable smile that she has, that she got from her father.

"It's really nice to meet you Remi" Oliver replied to her while bending down to her height and the smile never leaves his face.

And my heart just aches with joy, because Remi deserves to know where she came from, just not from my side but also her dad's side too and maybe Oliver can give her that, because I'm not ready for Scott to be in my life again yet, and I'm definitely certain that Scott shouldn't be in Remi's life yet either.

Dinner was amazing, I mean Oliver and Remi really got along. And there was a spark in Remi's eyes that I haven't seen before, I could tell that she was happy that she got to meet Oliver and Amanda. And even asked when she could see them again as soon as they left our house.

And I could tell how much they are already falling in love with her too, and in a way, I'm glad that Oliver knows about his niece, it's a small weight off my shoulders that at least one Vaughan knows about my daughter, it might not be Remi's dad himself, but opening that door to Scott means opening the door to his mother.

And honestly, I would rather get eaten by sharks than talk to that woman ever again in my life, how Oliver turned out so nice and sweet is a mystery to me, especially with a mother like the one he has, and I feel sorry for Amanda that Valerie is going to be her mother-in-law, or actually, in this case, it will be more like monster-in-law.

I am glad that Oliver knows about Remi, and now it has opened a door for me to tell Scott one day. But just not yet, because it's still hard to see Ollie again, it does bring everything back, and it brings a lot of feelings too, some good, some great, and some that are heartache.

Also, it brings Scott back into my life, they say an Ex is an Ex for a reason and that they should stay in the past, but for me, I can't do that, I can't put Scott in my past because we have a child, and one day she's going to need us both, I just don't know how to handle that day if or when it comes.

Years ago, when Scott left me, and as I was pregnant with Remi. I had to see him everywhere from news articles, to hear about him on the radio news. Because he was this uprising celebrity, he was already in the press for being a player who jumped from woman to woman, and that was before Remi was even born, and that was the hardest part of that time for me.

That every time I picked up a gossip magazine, there was Scott on the front of it. living up life, like it was the time of his life, with beautiful women and I was at home carrying his baby.

And it's like I meant nothing to him, like the last five years of our relationship were nothing but a joke. That hurt so much, but after Remi was born, I promised that tiny beautiful baby girl, that I wouldn't let anything toxic into her life and that I would protect her no matter what.

And four and half years later Scott is still in the gossip magazines for the same stories, so how can I let him into Remi's life when he's nothing but a drunk, man-whore mess still?

He hasn't grown up because he didn't have to, I did because I had a child that needed to be looked after, who needed to be raised, I had to grew-up fast because another human being was dependent on me.

I think the worst part of all this is that I fear that once I do tell him about Remi, about our daughter. Scott won't want anything to do with her, and if that were the case, it would break my heart.

So I just don't know what to do, I honestly thought that I was done with Scott, turns out I was wrong.

Snapping out of my thoughts as I laid in bed, as I hear my phone beep. Reaching over and swiped the message open and read over the words several times just to make sure I was reading it right.

Placing the phone back down and sighed sadly, because I don't know how to feel about that information, do I worry? Should I feel scared? I don't know because Scott hasn't been a part of my life for a really long time.

Even when Scott hurt me, I never wished him any harm and I still don't, when I read that text and I saw that he was hurt, my heart was racing because I still care about him I know that much because he's the father of my child, I can't stop caring about him even if I wanted too, which just makes everything more confusing, this whole thing has been confusing for me.

And something tells me it's only just beginning.