"Finally," I sighed, putting my pencil down. I put my homework in my backpack

I checked the time, it showed 1am. Damn, it's already so late. I stood up from my desk and left my room to get some water.

I went downstairs and grabbed a water bottle, then I went back up to my room.

Rui ❤️

wyd

eating lunch

this new school kinda

sucks ngl

imagine

your so mean 😔

BRO

you know what

nvm

loseerrrr

I smiled and set my phone down. Then, I layed in my bed because I had nothing else to do.

Amaria finally got out of the lunch line and came to sit down. I could hear more whispers once she sat down.

"Soo Rui," she said trying to put her hand on mine. Instead, I pulled my hand away. "Oh, is something the matter?"

"Please stop holding my hand. It makes me uncomfortable. Is that okay?" I answered.

"Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry! It's just an American thing, you know?My mom is Japanese but I've never actually lived in Japan, so I don't know how things work over there. I'm sorry, I won't do it again. Sorry!"

Oh, it's an American thing. No wonder. I'm so stupid. She's not a bitch, it's just a normal thing for her. "No it's okay. You don't have to apologize."

"Thank you!"

I continued eating. I looked to my right to see some guy just giving me the death stare. For what? I don't know. He probably likes Amaria. She is really pretty. She has long wavy brown hair, ocean blue eyes, and she has curves. No wonder he'd like her. If I wasn't gay, I'd probably like her too. Although Tsukasa is better.

Tsukasa...

I really miss him...

"Is something wrong? You look upset." Amaria asked.

"Oh its nothing don't worry," I smiled. "I got to go to the bathroom, uhm I'll be back."

Rui stood up and started walking away. Nows my chance. I grabbed his bag and started looking through it. Not to steal anything, but to see if he's dating someone.

He left his phone in his bag, so I found it. He didn't even have a password on it. When I opened his phone, it was on someone's contact.

'My star'? So he is dating someone.

I scrolled through their messages looking for a picture of his so called 'star'.

Found it!

(Ruis phone) My Star ❤️

Yesterday 8pm

look at the breakfast

I made earlier

(art by yu_yuhi_ on twitter)

SHOOT WRONG PHOTO

it's okay I like that photo 😏

He's pretty cute. Rui's definitely cuter though. (Tsukasa is better imo)

I searched for the guys name.

Tsukasa? Hmm. He seems kinda annoying.

I write down this Tsukasa's number and name on a piece of paper and quickly put ruis phone back in his backpack. I then set his stuff back where it was before I grabbed it and started eating.

I saw Rui walking back to the table after a few minutes.

After actually using the bathroom, I went back to the table with Amaria. She was done eating by the time I sat down. I was already done before I left for the bathroom.

"Lunch is almost over, but if you want we can leave now," Amaria said while puttingsomethingin her bag.

"Uh yea sure. We can go now," I smiled.

We got up and Amaria started showing me around the school again. It was fun. She didn't hold my hand anymore or do anything that bothered me.

My mom picked me up from school later that day at 3. We got home around 3:30.

My Star ❤️

Tsukasaaaaaaaa

are you awakkkeeee

yes why?

wanna go to the SEKAI

with meee

I'm so lonelyyyy

ofc I will

yayyyy

I went into the sekai and saw Rui waiting for me. I ran to him and hugged him. I was happy because I hadn't seen him for like a week because he just kept 'forgetting' and leaving me alone. But I can't blame him. He did just move so it's okay.

"Hi Rui!" I said hugging him. He hugged me back. We sat at bench and talked about our week.

I wish we could've talked more...

Because,

That's the last day I saw him for a while.

Rui ❤️

hey are you free today?

yea

sorry nvm

amaria is taking me to a

Cafe

sorry

it's okay

I'm glad you made a

friend 😊

Rui ❤️

are you busy rn

yea sorry amria is taking

me to the park again

I'll probably be free

tmr

that's what you said yesterday

and the day before

oh and the day before that

but if you say so 😮‍💨

Rui ❤️

wanna go to the sekai today?

sure

wait

I can't anymore amari wants

to go to the mall with me

who's Amari?

amarias nickname

oh-

but you've been hanging

out with her the past month

I haven't seen you bc you've

hanging out with amaria all

the time

are you jealous

don't worry love

I'll ttyl

love you

I love you too

Rui ❤️

Hey wanna hang out

I'm free today

yea!

wait give me a minute

amaris calling me

...

ok

oh shit I forgot

she wanted to go see a

movie today

but

is that okay?

I debated on where I should say no or not. But he has a new friend. I should be happy.

Rui ❤️

yea

that's fine

have fun

I'm so sorry I'll hang

out with you tmr

my schedule is clear I

promise

okay 🙂

Rui ❤️

are you still able to

hang out today

rui?

oh uhm I'm sorry

Amari really wants to

see this one show so

so your gonna take her

that's fine

I love you

have fun

Goodnight

gn

Rui ❤️

hey call me

ok???

"Okay so I can't really hang out this week." Rui sighed.

"Did something happen? Is everything okay?" I asked.

"No everything's alright."

"But you told me to hang out with you this week. You told me you'd call me and you haven't. Now I've called you and you're telling me this?"

"Tsukasa... Listen I'm sorry, it's just-"

"No, no. Let me guess. Your too busy hanging out with Amaria or Amari, whatever the fuck her name is, to even talk to me. I stay up so late because you tell me 'let's hang out'. You barely text me. I have to be the one to text you for you to remember, 'oh I have a boyfriend'."

"Tsukasa, what is your problem? Like Amari hasn't even done anything. She's just being friendly. It's probably an American thing I don't know."

"Can you shut up about Amari? For the past to months it's been 'Amari this' or 'Amari that'. I don't care about Amari."

"Dude calm down. She's just my friend."

"Okay she's 'just a friend'. Well if you so much time to spend with your 'friend'. Then fine. I don't care at this point. If you like her soooo much as a 'friend', then just go date her. I don't care anymore. Bye."

I hung up. Maybe I was too mean. Maybe I am just a jealous person. Maybe I'm clingy. Maybe I should apologize. I should be happy he at least has a friend. I shouldn't be jealousy. I'm such a bad person. Why can't I just be happy for the person I love. I should apologize. But maybe I shouldn't. I don't know. I'll just wait it out and maybe apologize tomorrow when I cool down. Maybe...