I sit there watch Clarke sleep she looks so peaceful even after being through everything she has told me, she still stays strong and carries on for everyone else.

All of a sudden I hear her talking and she starts thrashing around in her sleep.

'No! No take me why him no! Its not his fault if you kill him we will all die. No please dad no don't go I love you dad don't go!' Clarke says well that's what I could make out suddenly she wakes up and sits upright breathing heavily and she looks scared? Shocked? Frightened? I don't know I can't work it out.

"Its ok Clarke your safe I here now do you want to talk about it?" I ask.

"I... I'm sorr... sorry that you had to watch th... that" Clarke says clearly holding back tears.

"I had a nightmare again of my dad being killed" Clarke says.

"Its ok I have nightmares to, me my mum and dad were captured by the mountain men and used for there blood one day they took to much of my mums blood because she put up a fight and tried to escape, then my dad didn't want to see the same thing happen to me so he helped me escape we jumped down the shoot where they put the dead bodies for the reapers. We got out but my dad got caught by a reaper they killed him as well, so now I have no one left I love, I have no family left only Anya. Anya is my mentor before I was called to lead my people I grew up with her she was my best friend and like a big sister to me." I tell her I don't no why I am telling her this I never tell my story to anyone.

"I'm sorry I didn't know, you said was, what happened to her? If you don't mind me asking? And how do you control your nightmares?" Clarke asks.

"I don't even no what happened to her, a few days ago she left she just walked away and she hasn't come back yet so I can only image what has happened a few of my scouts who patrol the woods say they haven't seen her, and I drag myself out of nightmares I don't let them take the better of me, I don't let them win. Winning fights is useless if your only going to do it again you have to keep doing it to show them who's boss then they will leave you alone sooner of later, and that goes for any type of fight." I say as I look up to see Clarke looking at me with a sad smile.

"Thanks I had no idea you could control your demons." Clarke says.

"You need to get back to you camp but first you said you had no food or water? You have been down here now for a few days I will get some for you if you help me I can get you it but I can't carry it on my own" I say getting up, I don't no why I am helping her or even her peopelu but I still want to.

We walk back to her drop ship because we need a couple of people to help carry some things. I watch as Clarke goes inside and comes back out a few minutes later with two boys.

"Lexa, this is Finn and Bellamy don't worry they don't hurt you." Clarke says as the two boys look at me with a weird look on their faces.

"Who is she? And why have you taken up to her?" The one boy says.

"She won't hurt you Finn, her name is lexa, she is the commander. You know how we got taught about things called grounders? How there might be a chance of people surviving well this is one of them." Clarke says in a hushed voice to the boys but my good hearing I can hear every word.

"Come on follow me you will have food and water soon." I say.

I guide them to a little storage hut its for our extra supplies and give a big barrel of water to the boys to Carey between them and I hand Clarke and bow and a few arrows.

"Clarke you will be hunting with me while they take the water barrel back. Don't worry the water is safe to drink the river you drunk for toxic is released into it from mount weather but there is other rivers that are safe. Co e on Clarke we need to start soon or we will never get anything." I tell her as the boys carry the water back, me and Clarke he'd the other way to start hunting.

"Sshhh, you see that? That is a dear." I say as I shoot it right through the heart. After shooting a few more animals we gather everything up and I help her take it back to her camp but I drop everything right outside as I have made Clarke and the boys to promise not to tell anyone about me. Quickly the same two boys come put and help gather the stuff to take in all in.

"Thank you uh... Commander? it means a lot now we won't stave thanks to you." The one boy says I think his name was Bellamy.

They all walk back in with the stuff and I can hear cheering from outside I walk away a bit and climb a tree high enough to see over but not high enough for anyone to see me.

I see everyone looks so happy. But then I realise they are all kids, all so young usually they send adults down to test the earth but we kill them before they get a chance to tell anyone else but I no we can't kill any of these they are just kids so young not knowing what awaits them if they take the wrong step I just protect them I will protect them. But for tonight I think they will be safe and happy. I think as I climb down and head back to my camp knowing they are all happy and will eat today.