"Omg, Gwen, get up!" Dani's voice awoke me as I groaned and sat up.

"What?" I asked groggily.

"The boys are going to audition for two weeks at the XFactor! They could be famous!" She screamed as I slowly got out of bed.

"Yay."

"Show some excitement, Gwen!" She playfully scolded me.

"Yay!!!" I mocked excitement and she laughed.

"They're leaving in two hours!"

"Yay!" I said genuinely happy that Harry was leaving so it wouldn't be so damn awkward all the time.

Dani shook her head at me and grabbed my wrist.

"Gwen, you have to talk to him before he leaves. Liam says that Harry's pretty torn up about it-"

"No, Dani, he's torn up about Chris, not me." And with that, I ripped my arm out of her grasp and went into the closet. I shut the door and got dressed for the day.

When I walked out, Dani was gone. I sighed and went into the bathroom. I brushed my hair and teeth, did my make up, fixed my hair, and wasted about twenty minutes staring into my reflection, wishing the old Gwen was back.

I finally left the mirror and went downstairs. I poked my head into the kitchen and saw those beautiful curls and bright green eyes. I bit my cheek to hold back a sob. Just seeing him ripped my heart to shreds. I took a deep breath and walked into the kitchen. I sat down in the chair farthest from him and quickly ate my breakfast. There was quiet chatter amongst everyone but Harry and me. I couldn't take it anymore! I stood up and dumped my dishes in the sink, washed them, then got the hell out of there! I ran up to my room and shut the door. I had began to hyperventilate down there. I took deep breaths until I heard a knock on the door.

"What?" I choked out while trying to hold back the sobs.

"Gwen? Can I talk to you?" And cue the opening of the floodgates! Tears streamed down my face at the sound of Harry's voice.

"I don't want to talk, Harry!" I sobbed.

"Gwen, please?" His voice sounded so sad that I got up off the bed and walked over to the door while wiping away my tears, only to have more fall in their place. I slowly opened the door and looked up to meet Harry's shimmering eyes.

"What?" I got out.

"Gwen, I love you. I want you to know that-"

"No, Harry, you only love Chris. You love the her inside of me."

"Gwen, that's not true-" He began as tears streamed down his face, but I cut him off.

"I know it hurts losing someone you love, Harry. But I'm not Chris. I want someone who loves me for me."

"But Gwen, I do love you-"

"Good luck at the XFactor, Harry."

"Gwen!"

I shut the door and locked it before I threw myself on my bed and sobbed hysterically. I curled into a ball and sobbed, feeling the pains shoot through my chest, knowing that Harry never loved the Gwen in me, but the Chris he saw.

There was another knock at the door.

"Go away, Harry!" I moaned.

"Gwen, can I come in?" It was Niall.

"Why?"

"So we can just talk?"

I sighed and attempted to wipe away the tears, but that was a battle not yet to be won. I unlocked the door and pulled it open. Niall slowly walked in and I shut it behind him. He pulled me into a hug and that's when I lost it. You ever have that one person, who no matter what, you can't be strong in front of? Well, that's how it was for me with Niall. He stroked my hair and gently guided me over to the couch in my room. He sat down beside me and took my hand. He shoved the hair out of my eyes.

"Gwen, I know it's really hard, what you're going through. But Harry's hurt, too."

"Only over Chris."

"Gwen, I can read his emotions. He's crying for you. It hurts him to talk about Christina, sure, but the reason he's upset right now is because of you. He really does love you, Gwen."

"Niall, I just, I just can't anymore. He is upset over me, but that's only because he sees Chris when he looks at me."

"Gwen-" He began, but Liam's voice downstairs interrupted us.

"Niall? Come on! We gotta go!"

"Be strong, Gwen, and please, just think about what I told you?" Niall pulled me into a hug and I nodded.

"You remind me so much of my little sister," Niall whispered."God, I miss her."

"I'm sorry, Niall..."

"I'm sorry for your loss, too, Gwen. See you in two weeks." He kindly smiled and kissed my forehead before I followed him out the door, down the stairs, and all the way to the front door. I watched as he climbed into the car and put an arm around Harry, who had his head buried in his hands. Niall turned and waved to me through the window as the car slowly pulled away. I shut the door and slumped to the ground against it. I buried my head in my hands and felt the tears slip down my face. Is Niall right? Does Harry really love me for me?