My eyes opened slowly. I was no longer in the old warehouse. I was in my room. "Hey Candy Cane." Looking over I saw Gabriel sitting in a car next to my bed. I rolled onto my side facing away from him.

"Cansas...I wish I didn't have to leave you. I wish I could have s-saved your parents." Tears welled up in my eyes again.

"Why did you come back?" I asked hoarsely.

"Why did you come back as Loki and not you?" I heard Gabriel sigh shakily. "I-I...I was scared..."

Tears fell down my cheeks. I looked over my shoulder at him. He had a few tears on his cheeks. He looked like crap.

"I saw that you had your life together. You had the Winchesters. You were happy...I knew if I stepped in...You would hate me. It would be better to be Loki and not me...Just so I could see you happy for at least a short while..."

Gabriel looked to the side. We stayed quiet for a while. I turned back around to face him. "I hate you." Gabriel winced at this. A tear falling down his cheek. I let out a sob and sat up. "L-look a-at m-me."

"Cansas..."

"Look at me." Tears ran down faster. He hesitantly looked over. "I hate you." Gabriel looked down.

"Please-" I cut him off by wrapping my arms around him. I cried into his shoulder as he wrapped his arms around me. "I-I'm not h-happy...I wish y-you would h-have come s-sooner." He buried his head in my neck.

We stayed like that for what felt like hours. I pulled away and stood up. Wiping my eyes I walked towards the door. When I got to the door I looked back at him. "D-don't leave..." He nodded and I walked out of the room.

The bathroom was cold. I flipped the light switch on. Shutting the door behind me I stared at myself in the mirror. Should I let him go easily? It's been so long and I just want to be happy. But then again how can I trust him. He pretended to be someone else to get close to me.

I turned the sink on and rinsed my face off. Not only did Gabriel look like crap, but I did as well. Using the rest of the water in my hands I ran it through my hair.

Around my neck was a fading red mark from where the collar had been. It looked like it had burned me. Hesitantly I lifted my bloody shirt up to see the two new scars I got from the angel. With a heavy sigh I imaged what the collar looked like and in the blink of an eye, the collar sat on the sink. I shakily picked it up. The thin sliver reflected the light.

I zapped it away so it was in my car and not in the house. Before I left the bathroom I changed into new clothes and threw away my bloody ones. I walked out of the bathroom and back to my room.

Opening the door slowly I looked in to find Gabriel still sitting there. "I just meant to not leave the house." Gabriel looked over and stood up. "I know- I just...didn't want to worry you." I nodded and messed with the door handle a bit.

"...I was just going to get something to eat from the kitchen...you want to come?" Gabriel smiled a bit. "Of course." I walked down the hall with Gabriel following behind me. When we made it down the stairs Balthazar stood up from the couch and attacked me in a hug.

"Oh dear god you're alright." I hugged him back.

"Yep...Not a scratch." We pulled apart and he smiled down at me.

"Very good. I shouldn't have let you go in by yourself. I don't know what I was thinking."

"It's fine. Next time we just have to think of a plan before going in guns blazing." Balthazar nodded and looked behind me. His smile fading a bit. "I have to go for a bit." He looked back at me. "Are you going to be alright?"

"I'll be fine. Be careful." He nodded and in the sound of flapping wings, he was gone. I turned to Gabriel.

"Why don't your wings make that sound?"

"...I silenced them." I nodded slowly. "Well...I'm still hungry..." I pointed towards the kitchen as I slowly started to back up. "Of course let's go...get food."

We walked into the kitchen and I started to go through the fridge. I picked up a beer and looked over to Gabriel who sat down at the table. "You want one?"

"No thank you."

"Alright." I then picked up a cake Balthazar had gotten me a few days ago. Shutting the door with my foot I placed my stuff on the table and got a fork. Once I had everything I sat down in my normal spot. Gabriel, on the other hand, did not. He sat two seats down from his normal spot.

Popping open my beer I looked over at him. He stared at the table tapping his thumb. I opened the small cake and took a bite out of it. We stayed in silence for a bit while I ate and drank.

"So...can you at least tell me your real name?" Gabriel looked over at me.

"Gabriel...but something already tells me you know. Who told you?"

"Castiel. When he nearly tried to kill me." I took another sip of beer. Gabriel chuckled a bit. "Yeah...the little bugger was only following orders," Gabriel said running his hands over his face with a tired sigh.

"Do you need to sleep?" I asked looking down at my cake.

"No. Angels don't need to sleep. I'm not in the best of shape right now..."

Then the room went quiet again. I remembered back to when I was younger. He had told me that once before. I was convinced that I could stay up with him as well. It ended with me falling asleep a few minutes later. With a sigh, I got up and moved two seats down so I was sitting in front of him. Gabriel looked at me as I held my fork out for him to take it.

"...what?" I rolled my eyes.

"Eat some," I said pushing the cake forward and wiggling the fork a bit.

"Cansas, I don-"

"I don't really care. Now take a bite of the stupid cake." Gabriel sighed and took the fork from me. He took a bite and then smiled.

"Are you happy now?" He asked with sass.

"Yes. Very."