Your head was still stuck up in the clouds,

While I was already halfway back down.

I guess I didn't notice because I wanted to believe

that we were back to being us now.

In my defense,

You were always a master at hiding things from me.

I didn't know that your heart was on the fence;

But looking back I can't believe I didn't see.

I can't believe you led a separate life without me.

I thought that we would see the end of our lives together.

That's what we said on the day that we combined our lives together.

Now we're living separately

Still holding onto our past.

I think I'm finally back to being me again.

But you're still stuck with regrets and it kills me to see you like that.

I love you but we're not for each other anymore.

You know I'm right,

And that's why it hurts so much to try and move on.

I thought that it would kill me to let us go.

And for a moment I actually wanted to die.

The thought of living without you everyday,

Was a kind of pain that I can't even describe.

Now that you've finally realized that I only ever wanted you to stop fucking up our lives,

You started making changes for the better.

And I swear I'm really proud of you,

But it's been 3 years too long;

And I've seen it before.

You can change just like the weather.

Truth is we're different people now.

3 years apart, following 14 together-

That seems impossible for anyone to get through,

Let alone, come out even better.

I know I said I'll always love you with every piece that's left of my heart,

And I fucking meant that.

But baby, this is way too hard

and I don't know if we really can get it back.

I thought that we could try again

Because my heart aches for our past.

But who the fuck were we kidding?

Nothing between us now can ever be like that.

Not again.

We played the game so hard-

Just for neither one of us to win.

We just can't be the same again.

It's time to admit defeat.

We've been playing a losing game.