I saw a side of you I never wanna see again.

I guess I figured it was overdue

but this doesn't make any sense.

Do you remember when I told you

That this wasn't gonna end well for us?

You thought I was exaggerating,

But look at what you've done.

I never wanna feel so lost

And I never expected to fall.

I tried to hold my feelings in and pretend they didn't exist at all.

But honestly,

you made me feel things that I just couldn't understand.

I'll probably never know exactly what you did.

I just wish that I could fucking un-feel it.

I got used to your touch

And the taste of your lips.

Now I'm all alone in this bed

And it fucking hurts that I can't hate you for this.

I thought that I was safe with you.

Because that's what you fucking said.

You swore that you would always love me.

Said you'd never hurt me,

Even when things got ugly.

But you lied to my face, once again.

You keep calling it a mistake

But it was no accident and now I'm not okay.

You're the only one that I can blame.

I wish you would've told me that you were full of shit.

I thought I saw the red flags,

But I guess I made excuses for every single one of them.

I think I needed to believe that you felt something;

Because I was terrified of falling in love, just to get hurt again.

Now it's over for good.

I already gave you too many chances.

You can't come back from this.

I hope you deal with your demons one day.

And I hope you find happiness somewhere along the way.

I told you I was good before you and I'll be good again.

It's just gonna take a little longer to clean up every mess you made.

But I'm strong so I know I can handle it,

I just hope you can say the same.