Sometimes I still wonder if I made the right decision when I chose to be alone.

I know that if I never would've ended it when I did,

You wouldn't have put down the phone; and we'd end up worse than this.

I thought about it for a year

and I can't believe it took me so long to find the strength.

But then my whole world disappeared

And I had to relearn how to think.

Suddenly my happiness,

Our history,

My past,

Our pain;

Everything about my life just blew away.

My heart was so empty

And my soul just felt cold.

I was sure that I had died inside,

And my notebooks were the only ones I ever told.

Giving up was painful;

But nothing hurt me more than trying to let you go.

I hate you for making me believe that you would never change.

'Cause It's been 3 years since I let you change me.

But I love the times we had when we were making each other laugh for hours.

They were so sweet before they went so sour.

I feel like I'm grieving for both of us while I mourn the loss of you.

Seeing you every weekend makes that impossible to do.

My soul just desperately misses what I had with you.

I don't even want it with anybody else.

But the you that you are now,

is crying out for help.

I wanna be there for you in ways that you couldn't know.

'Cause I will always love you even after all the hell.

But I don't know how to look at you knowing that I can't fix you.

It hurts my heart to realize that we're growing apart.

Why did we have to take it so far?

I don't know how we got so bad.

When I told you to go I never pictured you never coming back.

And ever since you left,

Everyday just feels so fucking sad.

And it still hurts so fucking bad.

I guess I never realized that all we ever wanted was everything we already had!

How do we get that back?

Can we get that back?

I think we killed our love

Yeah, we killed us.

Now we're strangers in each other's presence and it makes me wanna give the fuck up.

Cause I really fucking miss us!