Brooke is so excited when I open her door. "Yessss, my girl! Let's go do something together!" She yells. She pulls me into her room and throws her arms around my neck hugging me.

Suddenly a certain flower smell hits me, I have to run into the room and straight to our bathroom. I sink to my knees over the toilet and let out all of my stomach contents. I had a blueberry muffin for breakfast and that thing is coming up as fast as it can. I never used to smell her air freshener like this and now, I just don't feel good.

After puking for a few seconds, I dry heave for a few minutes until nothing is left. Brooke comes in and holds my hair back, that's what sisters do. She rubs my back in her other hand as I feel vomit coming back up. She places my hair into a ball with a rubber band and sets a cold washcloth on my neck.

I can't control it, I had woke up feeling horrible this morning. I've been feeling uneasy the last few weeks and I'm due for my period any day now, I usually get sick before it anyway. I've always had vomit and stomach pain from it so I'm not shocked this is happening.

I didn't let Tanner know though, today's about his last game of the season, and I'm so proud of him. If they do well they win the national championship, he's going to win. He's definitely going to get a NFL offer if he does as good as I know he will.

After coming here I felt perfectly fine but smelling her air freshener did it. I couldn't control the amount of queasiness that hit me, I felt a headache, vomit and stomach pain all at the same time. "Babe, what's going on? Do you think it's the stomach bug?"

I just respond while laying my head on my hands, "I think so, I just felt really sick this morning and your air freshener hit me. I think it's my period."

She nods her head before asking "This morning? We don't have to go do anything if you feel bad" while still holding my hair.

"No, we are going out, we never see each other and I have to be with you before we leave for Christmas!" I demand as her face lights up. I want to spend time together she's my best friend and I'm so happy we met.

"Okay well let's go! I made us appointments at the nail salon!" she says before I stand up and rinse out my mouth and wash my face. I'm glad I skipped the makeup as of now, it would be running and smearing anyway.

We walk out towards her car, and she moves her bags to the backseat before letting me sit in her front seat. She has already packed her bags to leave, tomorrow just like everyone else.

I have mine in my car as well, practically all of my clothes were at Tanner's anyway so I have nothing here but my dorm essentials.

I hope Tan's online exam goes well today. He procrastinated so bad and waited until today, I hope he just passes it. He wasn't happy that Brooke and I had plans but after some 'convincing' he was okay. He gave me a kiss on the head and pat on the butt as I last saw him yesterday. I didn't want to leave him, I almost cried because my emotions are everywhere.

We ride to the salon while gossiping and singing whatever comes on the radio. We walk in and a smell hits me again, I can't control it, I run into the salons bathroom and puke more, this time it's basically stomach acid.

I have nothing left and I know that I'm not going to eat anything the rest of the day, I can't if I want to watch Tanner. I feel horrible and it can't be past 10 in the morning.

"Ellie, something is wrong, this is not normal, this is not a stomach bug or your fucking period!" Brooke says to me while holding my hair again, I love her so much for this.

"I don't know! My period was suppose to come last week and I always get sick before it, maybe I ate something that upset my stomach and that has been making me feeling horrible!" I say.

She looks at me and her eyes pop wide open, "Ellie do you think?" She gestures to my stomach.

What does she mean? "I gained weight?" I ask as she lifts my shirt and puts her hand on my stomach. "No, this" she demands as I put my hand on it and feel a small round shape.

"Pregnant?" she asks as my heart drops. I feel the tears whelp in my eyes as I look down at my stomach, I don't look bigger, it's just rounder. I have the headache, the smelling and the horrible stomach.

But, I haven't gained any weight, if anything I'm losing it. We always use protection and he even asked me to get on birth control the other day so we could be bare together. I remember asking him about his past and he showed me his records saying that he didn't have anything so I believe him, I just haven't made the appointment yet.

I look down and grab my stomach while rubbing my hand across it "There is no way we always use protection except for, oh my god, I let him... I let him. Brooke, he would go in and then pull out before he finished."

She responds "Look those are not a hundred percent guaranteed and if he doesn't wear it all the time men's precum can hold more sperm than the actual cum".

I didn't think about that, his family does have triplets though, they skip a generation too, and he's in line for them. He might have powerful sperm.

"Be honest how often do you have sex?" she asks as I sigh.

"Everyday, multiple times a day" I admit as she nods.

"Look, I get it, Duke and I have sex a lot too okay? I just, Ellie if he doesn't wear one all the time..." she trails off.

"Oh my god, he always does and he put the tip in a few times without a condom, he always pulled out though, do you think I-I'm pregnant-t?" I rasp out with tears in my eyes.

I can't be, I'm not ready. I can't be a mom when I don't even have one for reference.

She says "Only one way to find out, let's go to the drug store" and grabs my hand leading me to the door. She stops at the desks and tells them we will be back later for our appointment.

She walks me to her car with her arm around my back and keeps telling me "It's gonna be okay, It's gonna be okay".

No it's not. I can not be pregnant, how will I graduate? How will I afford a baby?

I simply nod and we pile in, driving to the local drug store. I hop out and walk directly through the doors to the pregnancy aisle. I can't believe that I might have a baby Tanner in me.

I hope not, I can't be a mom. I'm not ready, Tan's not ready to be a dad either. I know I'll keep it if I am but, I have no idea what to do.

Picking up three different tests types I walk to the register with Brooke's grasp on my hand, she's the only support I have right now. I buy them with my last bit of money and walk to the family bathroom.

She walks in with me closing the door. I have seen her naked plenty of times and she has seen me the same way so I'm not worried about her reaction to watching me pee on different sticks.

I pee on all three before she sets a timer on her phone for five minutes, just like the tests say.

I quickly pull up my pants and walk to the sink washing my hands.

"Brooke I can't look will you please do it?" I ask while a tear escapes my eye.

She responds by walking over to me and hugging me "Of course I will babe, but just know either way I'm here okay. I would love to be aunty Brooke to you and Tanner's baby." I love that she's supporting me, I know that she's always going to be here for me and love me. I found my lifelong girl best friend already an I love her so much.

I smile, "Thank you, I love you" while hugging her and letting the tears fall. She smiles and grips the tests in her hands.

A few minutes later after leaning against the sink, I look up as the timer goes off, my heart sinks. She has all of them in her hands. "Are you ready?" she asks as I nod.

She looks down as her eyes widen and says, "Ellie, you need to call Tanner" my heart sinks again. They must be positive.

Just that second a call on my phone comes in and I pull it out of my pocket. It's Tanner, like perfect timing. I decline his call. I can't speak to him. He can't know about this yet, he playing a huge game tonight and I will not be the cause of him not doing his best.

I cry in my hands as she hands me the tests. All of them are positive, I'm pregnant with his baby. They clearly have two lines and one even says 'Pregnant'.

"You don't think it can be a false positive?" I ask holding on the small hope that this is not really happening, it's so unexpected I feel like someone is pranking me.

She flips the box over, it says in big black letters 'No False Positives', shit it's right.

I cry into Brooke's shoulder as she rubs my back. The tears don't stop, I can't control it, I'm not mad that I'm pregnant, I'm disappointed in myself for letting it happen.

I gave up myself and I gave him me. I have sex with him because I love it and now I have to deal with the consequences. It's not anyone's fault but mine.

She pulls back "El, Tanner loves you, he will be surprised but it will be okay."

I know he would be surprised but we have never talked about having a family. He said he wants to get married and have children but I don't know if that's with me or not.

"What if he doesn't want me anymore?, he's all I've got Brooke." I tell her as my tears fall down my face, who what's a fat and pregnant girl?

"Stop it, he loves you, he wants you, he's also loaded in cash too, he will take care of you and the baby. You will be okay" she tells me.

I don't care about his stupid richness though, I care about the human growing inside of me.

"I just don't want him to feel like he has to be with me because I'm pregnant" I rasp while tear flow doesn't stop from my face and onto my sweater.

I haven't even gained weight recently, I didn't even notice my period was late until I threw up in the toilet. I guess I should have suspected it though, I've been getting mood swings and tears for no reason. I've also been so horny and hormonal I just didn't notice it.

She rubs my back and says "Well there is nothing to do now so let's go get our nails done and buy useless shit before we go to the game later!" while trying to cheer me up.

"Okay, let's go take my mind off of it but no money, I can't, I have to feed a baby now" I say while she wipes my tears away.

"Fine let's just do our nails, can you handle the smell now or do you want to do something else? We can do something else I promise" she questions me.

"I should be fine now, I want to do this, I can't puke up anything else" I respond while smiling at her.

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I make it through the entire nail appointment without crying or vomiting, even though I wanted to serval times. How am I going to tell him?

Brooke and I actually had a really good time. I even picked out white dip nail polish because I know Tanner told me that was his favorite a few weeks ago, I need all the brownie points I can get, I might even have to suck him off before telling him he's a dad.

I know I need to schedule an appointment to confirm it but, I feel like I know I'm pregnant.

I wonder how many weeks I am, probably at least three if I'm counting down correctly, it usually takes a while for sperm to implant in a vagina. I just don't know how we got pregnant. We always use condoms, he must have leaked out of it and didn't know it. It may have been him pulling out those times though but it only happened twice. I made him put on a condom before he finished, every time.

We make our way to the car and back to the dorms. I pack all the rest of my bags up because I'm planning on staying with Tanner again tonight, just like every night. My dorm room looks practically unlived in, Tanner's though looks like pigs live there.

We walk to my car in silence. I look up at Brooke, "This is not a goodbye because I'll see you in a month, tops".

I smile at her and respond "Of course not, have the best time in the students section okay? Tell your mom that I miss her", Duke didn't want seasons tickets for his family because they never would come to his games. They didn't support him coming to Alabama, so they never did come, therefore me and Brooke can't sit together. I know that they love him though, Brooke's told me that they really do care for him. I just don't get why they won't come, I think it's because he took Alabama over Clemson, and they wanted him to go there.

I would offer her to sit with me but Tanner asked if I would sit there earlier in the week, and his tickets only come with one plus one and it's me. "I know I'm sorry but I promise we will call and talk!"

"Yes!" She responds while handing me my Christmas gift, I do the same. I hope she loves the sweater, socks, bracelet and blanket I got her.

"You can't open it until later though, we'll FaceTime and open them on Christmas together!" She says.

"Of course, we have to get going though or we will be late" I say and hug her neck.

She smiles and hugs me back "Remember everything's going to work out, okay" she says.

I nod and say "Please don't tell anyone, please" I beg as we pull away, "Never! That's your information, just know I love you, Now go" she says while tapping my butt and pushing my door shut.

I tell her a quick "I love you too!" while getting into my car and driving away.

I drive to the stadium and find Tan's bronco. He is probably putting his uniform on right now. He's so talented, and I'm so proud to be beside him. I can't believe that his baby is inside of me, I wonder if our baby will be talented like him.

I really don't want to talk to him right now about the whole thing, I hear that many people don't make it past the first trimester because your baby's delicate. I just don't want to tell him and find out I miscarry.

I look over at the clock and see it's five o'clock, his game starts in about thirty minutes. I push my mirror down and wipe my face. I reach in my backseat to find my makeup bag and apply it just so I look alive.

I'm so pale it's scary. I haven't been able to eat and I don't want to chance getting sick here so I'm on an all water diet right now.

Quickly applying a bit of lip gloss, I shut my door and walk into the stadium. His parents and siblings couldn't make it tonight because his dad had an important Hall of Fame meeting, that's a huge deal so Tanner understood and I came to support him instead.

I couldn't say no, he was going to make me come anyway. He would have "dragged my sexy ass here" as he says, if I would have come on my own.

I walk through the door and people are everywhere. This is the most important game of the year so I understand why. The tickets probably cost a small fortune, thank god mine are free or I couldn't be here to support him.

I'm finally at the point where I feel comfortable doing this. I walk through security and make my way to his section. This game is about to be lonely without someone to talk to.

Finally making it to the front row seat I see the tunnel fog start appearing, I made it just in time. The whole crowd stands up and starts signing the signature song as I do the same.

I glance around and I am shocked. The entire stadium's full, people are even standing in the walkways above. There is probably over 130,000 people here. I hope Tanner's calm enough to play his best. He always gets nervous but he never shows it.

He runs out the tunnel with his teammates right then. I smile just looking at him. I can't help but smile as I look at the guy I love, he's so handsome and treats me like I'm perfect for him even though I know I can be crazy. He's my baby daddy, literally.

He is wearing a grey and crimson uniform with white cleats and damn his ass looks fine. My mouth waters thinking about him. I involuntary clinch my legs together and sit down further into my seat.

He starts warming up with the guys as I see Duke and Chad walk over to him talking. He smiles at them, flashing his pearly white teeth, he's so freaking sexy.

He looks up at the people and I know he's freaking out right now. He could go to the NFL next year if this turns out good for him.

We talked a few weeks ago and he told me that if they offered him a position, he would take it in a heartbeat. Of course I want him to play but that was before I found out I was pregnant, if he gets hurt I don't think I could take it.

I want him to play in the NFL but I would have to transfer to a school near him, and raise a child, and that would be so freaking difficult. I see Brooke from the students section far away. She looks like she having so much fun with the girls in her crop top, she looks a little bloated though, funny. Maybe it's just she ate a lot, I never really noticed her stomach until now.

Bringing me out of my thoughts Tanner runs up to me and hops over the bushes and brick wall. He sits on top of it leaning forward and kissing me and says "I tried calling you today, I have something we have to talk about" while looking upset.

I nod and say "Yeah Brooke and I were getting our nails done and they weren't dry when my phone started ringing, I didn't want to mess them up, they're your favorite. I was gonna call you back but I knew you were here. I should have though, I didn't think about it. I was so busy getting my stuff-" and he cuts me off from my nervous rant.

"Ellie, stop. It's okay" he whispers holding my hand.

"I'm sorry" I tell him honestly as he shakes his head. I am sorry though, for not calling, for getting pregnant, all of it.

"You need to calm down, do you see me freaking out?" he asks as I shake my head no. He's not pregnant though. He probably has already had someone from the NFL talk to him, he always tells me about it.

He grips my hand smiling at the polish and says "It's good, I just wanted to make sure you were okay. I love them by the way." he motions to my hand. I have to tell him, it's killing me and I have to.

"Tanner we have to talk, I have to tell you something like right now" I demand as I move closer to him and he kisses my lips softly.

"I'm pr-" and the coach cuts me off yelling for Tanner to start warming up.

"Tell me later, I have to go but I love you and I'll play this game for you." he says while leaning forward and kissing me again. I'll tell him right after this, I have to.

I smile at him, "I know you're nervous, I would be too, I hope you play awesome babe you deserve it, and I'm sorry that your families not here but me" and I stop myself from saying the baby "I-I am here and I-love you too".

He smiles at me before leaning forward and kissing me, he pulls away and runs off towards the field, God I love him.

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The first quarter goes by fast and they are up currently 14-7. Tanner's on fire though, he's so good it's terrible, he makes all the other guys look confused, I just wish his team would pull it together so he stops getting tackled. That part hurts, every time I see him get hit I worry and my stomach feels sick.

The second quarter has my butt cheeks clenching together for dear life. The boys end up down 21-14 at the end of it. I see Tanner walk towards the locker room for half time looking defeated while gripping his helmet in his hands. I hate that but, I can't talk to him to calm him down.