I make my way down the stairs and to the locker room door entrance. I stand right beside it because literally every wall is full of families. I hate that Tanner's aren't here to see him, he deserves it, I just hope he's happy I'm here, I can't wait to see him.

Waiting, a young blonde girl walks up and stands directly in front of me on the other side of the door. She looks Tan and I's age but she's the complete opposite of me. "Hi, I'm Gillian" she says while reaching her hand out to shake mine.

She's pretty, and she's obviously with one of the guys, she's to pretty not to be. Her platinum blonde hair is beautiful. She's gorgeous, she has long blonde hair, large boobs and a slim thick figure going for her, I can almost see her boobs though, and that's why she's getting so many looks right now, she has to be a model or something. "I'm Ellie, nice to meet you. Are you here for one of the players?" I ask her trying to learn something about her.

"Yeah, we've been seeing each other recently and I think we are going to be official tonight if everything works out" she says while smiling. I'm happy for her, she seems nice, I don't know her but, she seems to have a good heart.

"Really? Congrats I hope you get what your looking for" I say back while I smile at her.

She smiles up at me and says "Thanks, are you with one of the guys as well?" She seems really genuine, she could be the fake type though, so I'm not getting to friendly.

"Yeah, we have been together for almost eight months, I love him very very much, he's really the best guy ever" I say while blushing. I can't talk about him without doing it, he makes me so happy and confident. I love him so much and I know he has to feel the same way.

She responds back, "That's so sweet, I hope he loves you the same way" and smiles. She basically says what's on my mind.

"So do you go to school here? I haven't seen you around recently and I'm usually here for most of the home games" I ask questionably.

"No, I stayed close to home first semester to see if the whole college thing worked out and I loved it, so I'm transferring here now and I'll start in January like everyone else does for the new semester. Hopefully my boyfriend see's how much he means to me and we can finally start our lives together" she states proudly.

"Oh okay, so I guess we will be seeing a lot of each other then" I say smiling at her. Maybe I can actually have friend to sit with at games now, it's so lonely.

"Yeah, I guess so" she says. I forgot to ask her which one of the players she's with and right when I'm about to the door spring forward.

The door comes flying open and Gillian comes and stands right beside me to let the athletic director and one of the linebackers out of the locker room. The poor guys in a wheelchair and by the looks of his tears, in pain. I hope that they are taking good care of him.

The door does not fully close so I'm left standing beside the door listening to all the yells, screams and laughing by the team. I would be cheering to if I'd just won something so huge.

Gillian moves back to her side "Sorry, I thought they were going to hit me!" she says while laughing.

"It's all good girl" I say as she smiles and pulls out her phone texting someone. I lay my head on the paper thin walls and hear "YEAH MAN" screamed from the guys.

Next Chad starts talking, being Tanner's roommate I immediately recognize his musky voice. He says "Hey guys, shut up! I have and announcement to make!" and he waits until it's dead silent and says "I just want to say that our Captain, the beast Tanner right here is a full time player on an off the field" my heart sinks. What is he talking about?

Gillian looks up from her phone confused, she must have heard it to. She leans forward to eavesdrop on their conversation as well.

He continues while walking over to Tanner and hitting his shoulder saying "This man not only has single-handedly broke all the quarterback records here but, he won us our championship tonight" cheer and yells burst out through the locker room. I can tell that they love him, Gillian next to me smiles and blushes, I wonder what that shits about, maybe Chad?

He says more "I had the privilege of watching one of the greatest events I've ever seen unfold today. One of Tanner's ladies I think her name was Gill, hit me up and to my surprise she comes directly to our room and fucks Tanner before our game!"

My heart literally aches, I feel the blow, he cheated on me with the bitch I just talked to. That's why she's so happy, they were going to tell me and come out. I'm so stupid I thought he actually cared, I thought he loved me. If he did why would he do this?

I finally let my guard down and trusted him for this? Why would he do this to me? For a sick fucking game?

"I watched her take off her clothes and tongue fuck him, so here's to the biggest player I've ever know!" and he finishes. I look up at Gillian to see her eyes wide.

I can't breathe my eyes are fully of tears what shocks me the most is what I hear next. One of the guys asks Tanner "Hey man, what's your secret to fucking all the hot girls?"

This is his chance to explain before I walk out and leave him, my conditions are no lies and no cheating. He needs to clear this up.

Tanner laughs and slaps Chad on the back of the head. He says "I don't have a secret, she just came to me; but you have to make sure you keep her happy, comfort her and keep her full of dick" as cheers break through the room.

Apparently one of the coach's had enough of their yelling because he yells to them to go get in the showers. Thank god, I don't think I could sink any lower.

I can't function. My stomach aches, my heart feels like it's been crushed in his hands, burned and ran over by a car. I can't breathe, I hold back the sobs as my eyes fill with tears. He actually cheated on me and I never thought he would. I reach up and hold my chest as the pain hits.

I'm the girl, he just said and gave me what I needed to hear so he could get into my pants and I actually thought he loved me and wanted more. He's an amazing actor, he really did good. He told me he wanted to marry me, and that he wanted children together one day, and I thought that was us, but it's not. I'm a piece he used.

He told me he would never do that and here he is, his friend confirming it happened. He actually did it, I can't say I didn't always have this doubt in the back of mind from his past, but I never expected this. I trusted him.

He told me he loved me, and that he cared, but here he is saying that he just 'kept me happy' and 'comforted me'. I can't believe I'm so stupid to have fallen for him and ended up pregnant.

I look up at Gillian who's looking lowly, she looks happy about the whole situation but won't look me in the face. She's the one who he wants, they are even planning on being together.

I do the only thing I can think of, and run. I run straight out of the building through the concrete tunnel and directly to my car. I feel so used and manipulated. All for what? My heart? My virginity? My trust?

He even told me to leave him alone the day that we met, I'm just the stupid girl, from the list of fucks, that fell for his charm. I saw him on the outside and wanted that. Before we even spoke I wanted him.

Reaching my car door, I open it and crank it up and drive directly to his dorm room, I manage to make it through my glassy eyes from the tears. My mascara is flowing down my cheeks as I sob, I have no doubt my sweater is covered.

I know a few of my things are still here and now that we are over and I'm done I want to take all of my stuff away from him, I never want to see him again. It's going to hurt to bad to have to talk to him to take them so I have to get it now.

I run up his building stairs as I pull out his spare keycard he gave me and open his door. I drop his Christmas presents on the floor, it's not like I want the reminders of him anymore. I also drop all of his clothes I have acquired over the past seven, nearly eight months. I break into a sob when I see condoms on the bedside table and throw the package directly into the trash. It's not like it matters to him, we haven't wore protection since I got on birth control, but lucky me was pregnant and didn't even know it. That's why the shit hasn't worked, I was already pregnant.

I look over at the Christmas tree as tears fall, it was supposed to be our Christmas together tonight, he ruined us though.

I remember him telling me about the Nike air Jordan's he loved so much. So out of instinct I worked a few extra shifts to buy him those two hundred dollar expensive shoes. I also bought him a glass frame with all of our pictures together in it.

I placed them all meticulously, I put them all random but two selfies were not beside each other and I even put in the picture of me laying on his bed in nothing but a tee shirt because he said he liked that picture so much. In the bottom of the glass I got it customized to say I LOVE YOU TAN because I do love him. I'm shocked more than anything, and I don't know what to feel anymore.

I make my way to his bed and grab a trash bag, I cut on his fan to throw my thongs off and walk over to his closet to get out all of my stuff. My eyes are so swollen and I can't even see straight. Once all my underwear are flown off I grab up everything until there is nothing but a faint sent of my perfume left in the air.

Looking through the bathroom for my stuff I'm surprised to find the one thing I never expected. Until thirty minutes ago I thought what we had was real, I thought he actually loved me.

A bright blue size D cup bra is flown into his bathroom doorway. I reach down and pick it up while sobbingly crying into my palm. It's Victoria's Secret designer, expensive and way to big for me, it's hers.

Throwing it onto the bed I walk into the bathroom and take all of my stuff away before placing it in the black trash bag.

Finishing up I grab a sheet of paper and sit down at his desk. I don't know what to do, write him a letter explaining? Write him and tell him it was real to me? I don't know so I start with something simple.

Tanner I will always love you. I write as the first like as I cover my tears and wipe them off softly.

Tanner I will always love you but I'm so hurt. You promised me that this would never happen. And you broke that promise tonight. I hope you love her the way I'll always love you, even if I can't trust you anymore. I really wish you nothing but joy in life.

Ellie

Once I finish it I'm in full blown tears. I'm sobbing my eyes out as I hiccup tears and try to calm myself down as I wipe my face. I look over at the picture of us on his desk as I pick it up and turn it over so I don't have to see it. I've never been through something this hard and I'm making it worse for myself. I know I'll need something to sleep at night, so I grab his tee and stuff it into my purse as a last resort of weakness.

I cry and place the letter on the bed right next to the bra. I take his Christmas presents and sit them next to it along with his clothes. I look around the room for the last time making sure that's everything. When I see it's all done I grab my bag and walk towards the door.

He will probably throw it away or may not even read it but, I had to do it for me and my sanity. I know we are done now.

Just then my phone starts ringing and scares the crap out of me, and out of instinct my hand goes to my neck. I feel it, my necklace is still there. Looking down I see it's Tanner. I decline his call, and cry harder when it rings over and over again as I don't answer it.

I grab my hair and move my necklace out of the way before taking it off and placing it on the note. He said he wanted me to wear it forever but, that was just another one of his many lies.

I grab my bag and walk out the door without turning back. I'm done though, the tears keep flowing like they have for the last fifteen minutes. I make my way to my car as I walk softly and quietly only to hear the celebration from the stadium still happening. I'm so proud of him, I really am. I hope his NFL offer goes through and he's living his dream. I just hate that this is how it turned out between us.

I take one last look at his parking spot in the front of the building before opening the trunk of my car and packing my stuff up. I don't know what I'm going to do, but Alabama is the last place I need to be right now. I finish packing my bag as I hear a small voice behind me, "You're her?" I hear behind me as I turn and see a blonde girl, Anna.

"Her?" I ask wiping my face as she steps into the light and I see her bulging belly. That's going to be me in the next few months.

"Tanner's girlfriend?" She asks rubbing her stomach as she holds Chad's truck keys in her hands.

"No, I'm not." I demand closing my trunk as she looks at me softly. "I know you're in love with him, and I know I made a huge mistake by hooking up with him while still loving Chad. But you look upset, are you okay?" She asks as I nod and fake smile.

"Of course. It was nice to meet you, you can have Tanner or Chad, your pick." I whisper out at the end with tears in my eyes as I cover them up enough the let the words out.

"Are you sure you're okay?" She asks as I nod instantly.

"Never better. Thank you for checking on me." I tell her as she nods and takes the keys and gets into Chad's truck driving off towards the stadium. I grab my keys and fiddle with them before opening my car door. Then I hear the tires of Tanner's truck roaring behind me as I look back and see him storming into the parking lot.

He locks eyes with me as I shake my head no and get into my car. I lock the doors as he gets out of his truck leaving it running while I'm his Alabama gear.

"Ellie open the door." He tells me tapping on my window as I crank up my car, only for it not to work. I do it again as it shuts off, and then cranks up for me. I put on my seatbelt without looking at the window as he moves to the front of my car and pops the hood. I don't know what he does to it, but my car stops as he slams the front down watching me.

"Baby listen" he tells me as I try to crank my car up and it won't move. He comes over to the window and I can't make myself look at him.

"Fix it Tanner" I demand through the window as he shakes his head no. He gets eye level with the side of my head and I make the mistake of looking at his beautiful face and I can't handle it. I break down again.

"Ellie stop please open the door. Nothing happened." He whispers to me tapping on the window as I sit still. I don't move as I look down.

"You cheated on me, I'm pregnant with your baby" I whisper at the end as he doesn't hear me and I look straight ahead. I grab my keys and shift my car into neutral as it rolls down the hill making him move out the way. Once I get to the bottom of the hill he's running towards me. I have just enough time to get out of my car and adjust the radiator cap making it crank up before he's five feet away from me. I sprint back to the drivers side door and hall ass out of the parking lot as he runs back to his truck to follow me. Only I speed onto the freeway and lose him time I get the chance.

I can't believe I was stupid enough to fall for Tanner Kingston, the best player in Alabama.

I drive for about an hour and a half before making it to my dad's apartment and going up the steps. He greets me at the door and for the first time in over a year I get to hug him, undoubtedly he's the best part of my day.