I stare at myself displeased in the body mirror.

I'd give anything to be slim and thin.

Instead I had two short legs that were like wooden logs, and a stomach that was not so tiny and flat.

Struggling to find pants for my stubby legs was the reason I hated wearing such restricting jeans, and having shorts that rise up when you run was embarrassing.

I craved to have a tall thin figure.

Like what I see in magazines, and around my stupid stuck up high school.

The girls at school always left comments on my body, and you'd think I'd be used to it by now but it still hurt.

I wanted to switch with someone else, but it's hopeless to wish for that. My life wasn't a movie after all with witches or magic.

I sighed unsatisfied and hid myself in an oversized t-shirt, and black jeggings.

"Koleen! Hurry up, I do not want another tardy slip from you!" My mom yelled annoyed and frustrated from downstairs.

Getting frustrated myself, I quickly snatched my backpack and gym bag, then headed down.

"Honestly Leen," My mom began with the lectures. "I don't see why you take so long to get ready if you don't even dress nice,"

Here we go again.

"All you dress in is leggings-"

"It's Jeggings mom!" I corrected her rolling my eyes.

She rolled her brown eyes, "And oversized t-shirts. You have so many nice clothes, and this is your senior year, why don't you try to dress nice for once?"

"Because I want to dress comfortably to school, and the reason I take so long is because I do my hair." I stroked my soft silky hair, it was one of the things I liked about myself, having long hair. I promised myself to never cut it.

My mom pinned up her black hair with a pin then handed me my keys.

"I don't want you getting into an accident this school year, drive carefully." She tells me.

I smiled down at them.

I finally got my own car during the weekend.

Before, I'd always have to borrow my parents car or get rides from friends, but because I'm going to college soon, "You're gonna need it." They'd say.

My only hope for this year is that it is full of educational, and sports achievements, even though the first weeks of school sucked.

All the girls had a thin, bikini body frame, while I (although I worked my butt off that summer) had the opposite of course.

My school was filled with skinny girls that were at least a size zero.

To me they all looked like they didn't go above a four.

I always felt like an outsider. For years I'd beg my mom to move back to my old school, but she would never allow it.

After freshman year, my self esteem only worsened.

At least back in my old school I'd have friends with problems that related to mine, but entering school sophomore year I only felt worse about myself.

The friends I had now would always try to make me feel better by telling me I have a sexy body, and that I'm hotter, but I know they only say that to cheer me up.

Pulling me from my thoughts, I heard my phone ring.

"Answer call." I say through my phone's Bluetooth connection with the car, hoping it wasn't my mother.

"Hello?" I asked the person on the other end once it answered.

"Koleen!" My bestfriend, Crystal, squealed which made me cringe.

"What are you so excited for? We're going to school."

"Guess what I found out?!" She exclaimed once again.

Oh great, gossip.

"Ummm..I don't know." I said uninterested.

She sighed.

"C'mon Leeny, guess!"

I pretended to guess.

"Um...you got new thigh high boots?"

"No. Guess again."

"I give up."

"Koleen! Ugh you're such a giver upper."

I gasped. "I am not!"

"Leeny listen to me carefully, the hottest guy is gonna come back to our school" She squealed.

"What do you mean by 'he's coming back' since when? And define hot." I say.

She groaned, " I'll tell you his story some other time ,and you'll just have to see for yourself. Plus he's like this 'bad boy' which makes him even hotter, because seriously who doesn't love a bad boy-"

"I don't like bad boys," I interrupted. "They can be so problematic."

She scoffed, " Trust me, you will after seeing him."

I rolled my eyes even though she couldn't see me. He'll probably be a jerk for sure, much like the other guys at our school.

"If he was all hot like you say he is then all the popular girls will just go after him, not to mention Kimberly."

Kimberly was the bitchiest person.

The bitchiest out of my handbook.

She was also the one who'd mostly pick on me.

"Ugh, I totally forgot about her. She's such a whore!" Crystal cursed.

"Aren't we all for good looking guys? May I remind you of Christian." I say.

"Don't ever say his name again." She tells me in a serious tone.

"What's his name ? I'm sure it's some ridiculous name like in all the books we read sophomore year." I change the subject.

The phone stayed silent.

"Are you fucking kidding me?"

"What?" I say confused.

"How can you not know his name Leeny?!" Crystal yelled in the other end.

"I don't know, I've only been here for about 3 years, stop blaming me!"

"Oh yeah, ugh I should just slap you right now."

I chuckled."You're seriously so overreacting."

"You know what? Talk to yah later Leen. You know how I get when someone insults my fangirlism. I'll tell you at school. Crystal, out."

And with that the call died, and I was greeted with comfortable silence.

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"Koleen Pairs?"

"It's pronounced like Paris." I corrected my teacher.

"But it doesn't have an I...?"

I rolled my eyes, this always happens. It's been like what, the second week of school, and teachers still can't pronounce my last name?

My classes weren't all bad as I thought it'd be, no the only bad thing was that I'd see Kimberly Anne most of the time.

She kept shooting daggers at me, and glaring at me throughout the whole first period.

That is why I chose the back, but she'd always turn around her seat, and look at me with a disgusted face.

Why?

I do not know. She has a problem.

As soon as the bell rang, I sprinted out to my locker to switch supplies.

Then hearing laughter coming my way, in which I dreaded.

please don't let them notice me

please don't let them notice me

"Hey Leen," Sean says smirking.

Oh great, the devil himself came to hit on me.

Sean has deep blue eyes, and jet black hair that he styles in a quiff. He was buff, in that 'protective boyfriend' kind of way, but we all know players don't do girlfriends.

He was really attractive, and I would definitely hit on him back if he wasn't such an ass, it made him look ugly. .

"Don't call me that. Only my friends call me Leen, and unfortunately for you, you're not my friend nor do I like you to be one." I snapped at him.

His friends ooh'd and laughed, which made Sean's structured jaw clench. He didn't like being insulted in front of his friends.

"Then should I call you Fatass? Cause that's what you have, a Fat Ass." He says grabbing my butt, but before he can get a grip on it, I pulled away and slapped him.

"Don't you ever disrespect me like that again, you asshole!" I yelled at him.

His friends then bursted out laughing as I walked away angrily.

"You're a freak Koleen!" He yelled at the whole school.

I simply flicked him off, and turned around only to crash into a wall.

A hard, but fleshy wall.

Wait, what?

Before I could respond, my thoughts were interrupted by a cold, but sexy deep voice.

"Watch where you're going midget!" He snarled. I looked up, only to be blessed and horrified at the same time.

This dudes jawline seemed to be sculpted like a masterpiece,and his dark brown hair looked pretty soft looking to me.He was mighty fine, but his eyes looked cold, like he was pissed. At me, most likely, it was then that I knew that he was just like any other boy.

" You're the one who needs to open their eyes!" I barked at him. He looked down at me, his eyes dangerously piercing mine, and his face was painfully just inches from me, his hot breath on my face.

"What'd you fucking say?" He snarled again, this time with little drops of spits spritzing on my face.

Hell no.

This boy was dangerously way too close to me, has he not heard of personal space?

I gulped intimidated ,but kept my eyes on him, got on my tippy toes and said, "You heard me." My voice barely a whisper.

His jaw was clenched with his hands in fists.

He couldn't possibly punch me can he?

"You better fucking watch your mouth, because I can make your life a living hell!"

I didn't doubt him.

His eyes were still deadly on mine, and although he was intimidatingly hot, he still scared me.

I got down from my tippy toes to my normal size,and I immediately felt super small compared to him, but nonetheless I kept my brave act.

He smirked, his eyes going from dark to meltingly chocolaty brown.

"You're too short for even me to argue with, people will think I'm arguing with a little kid." He chuckled to himself.

I glared at him as he checked me out, his eyes searching my whole body which made me feel self conscious right in the spot.

I rolled my eyes, and walked away before he can make fun of me.

This boy was dangerous and who knows what hurtful stuff he can say to me.

'Just ignore him Koleen' the voice in my head says, but how can I ignore him?

He's all I can think about right now, the way he was so close to me.

His whole body almost against mine.

Shit, I'd like to feel those lips on me too.

Shut up!

I've got to get a life than to be daydreaming about hot, jerky boys.

Even if I make fun of Crystal for always fangirling, sometimes I couldn't help but to also do it too.

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It was so hot in the afternoon, my whole body was drenched in sweat and I wasn't even working out.

My mom sent me to the grocery store to buy some fish, and I was so not happy.

Right now I'd rather be in my cool, conditioned room, catching up to my work, not out buying fish.

I sighed and was greeted with cool, fresh, air.

I was dressed in red and orange Nike shorts that rose up my thighs. Since it was too hot for my normal huge t-shirts, I put on a white tank, along with my running shoes, and my hair tied in a loose bun.

I headed to the dairy section where some of the freezer stuff were, thinking about heading to the gym, I came to a stop, right in front of me was the same dude I bumped into in school.

"Oh fuck!" I whispered.

I avoided him by heading the other direction.

Once I was sure he wasn't there anymore I walked back there.

"How should I know what fish to get?" I murmured to myself looking through the sections.

"Who do we got here?" I hear his annoying voice.

I clenched my teeth and faced him with a glare, while his eyes raked my whole body. Again.

I couldn't help but pity myself.

Surely he's never seen legs like mine, with his sex crimes he's probably used to seeing long, thin, sexy legs, while mine are short, strong, but stubby.

"What do you want?" I snarled.

His eyes came back to mine, and he smirked."Chill ThunderThighs."

I gave him a mean look, is he seriously insulting me right now ?

I gave him a deathly glare, but it didn't affect him.

"I was just gonna buy somethin." He finished.

I rolled my eyes, sure he was.

I grabbed whatever my hands found, and walked away eager to leave.

Hearing a whistle behind me. I clenched my fists, but kept walking. He will not provoke me. But my fists were ready to meet his face if he tried anything.

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