Once my phone went of signaling I should get up I go downstairs. I put my book down and rub my eyes. Gosh, I'm tired. I go downstairs and peek out the door. Charlie is already gone. I grab a piece of fruit because, apparently, I should eat. I put it back. I go out to my truck getting sad again. I miss him driving me to school. I miss all of them and the things they do. I drive very slowly in my truck to school, blaring my music. I decided I'd keep the stupid radio. It's loud. It drowns out my pain. When I get to school I race up to my first class. Calculus with Mr. Bailey.

I sit at my desk and pull out Wuthering Heights, the book I started, again, last night. Well, technically, this morning. I need to go to the bookstore. This time, I really do have to go alone. I don't have anyone else. Even Jake is always busy now. I start at page 100, where I left off, and by the time class starts I'm halfway through the book. At least I had a distraction from reality for awhile. When the teacher starts talking I put my focus on his lecture. I need school. School, Charlie and Jacob. Only things keeping me alive.

By the time I got to lunch,I needed a break from learning. Honestly? I need a break from existing but, I don't think I can get that. I went and got a tray of food and sat in the space the smallest of the Cullen's use to always sit. I got My book back out and almost finished it as I listened to everyone around me. The rest of my day went just like the beginning. Off to Jacobs.

"Hey,Jake." I said as I walked up to hug him. "Hey, Bells. Sam and I are running today. You'll be alright at the Beach, right?" I sighed a quiet yeah. I walked down to the beach and my eye catches the cliff. My brain goes back to that day Jacob told me about cliff diving. I hike over to the cliff. The top. "Don't, you promised him you'd stay safe." her voice twinkled. 'I'm still doing it,Alice' I thought "He'll be so upset. Please, you're better than this" 'Don't be dramatic' I thought 'He doesn't care, and I'll be fine.'. I jumped. I screamed all the way down and when I hit the water It was so rough. I tried, I tried so hard. Eventually, I couldn't make myself swim anymore. I'm dead. Maybe that's what I wanted. Bye, world.

"Bella!' I hear. What? shouldn't I be dead. I hurt. "Bella!" I hear another voice say "Jacob, she'll be okay." I tried to say Jacobs name but I couldn't. "Don't try to talk, love. I'll get you home soon." She told me. Stupid huluinaction. I'm only supposed to hear you when I'm in danger.