A/n: get ready cuz this one's gonna be long, so tell me how you like longer chapters🙂

I love the idea of Gee being a father figure in my life but I don't deserve it.

I don't deserve to be with him at all.

I feel like I'm just an annoying little kid that nobody likes.

I like spending time with him but does he really care?

"Hey, Laysa!" I heard Gee say standing at the doorway to my room.

"Hey, Gee." I said happily.

"So I have news." He said sitting next to me on the bed.

"Yeah?"

"So I only have to do one thing next week and if that goes well then you are out of here."

"Oh my..." I said.

"Oh... And we are going out today."

"Where?" I asked looking at him.

"To eat, but we are not going alone, the guys are coming as well if that's okay with you."

As he said that my stomach dropped, with the guys like THE GUYS?

Am I meeting all my idols today?

"Yes, sure."

I got ready and ran to Gee.

As we were walking to the car I was so nervous.

Gee must have noticed because he wrapped his one arm around me carefully.

I still didn't know where we were going and I was getting too curious.

We turned to a familiar parking lot and I realized that we were at the 'hippie heaven'.

I saw Frank's car and smiled at the memory of Gee and him arguing over SpongeBob.

I was so nervous.

I was meeting Ray and Mikey!

"You okay?" Gee asked.

"Yeah, I'm just a bit nervous."

I love how he always made sure that I was okay and that I was okay with something.

As we entered the place I heard Frank say something from the distance and Gee answered, but I didn't hear it I was focusing on being nervous.

We got to the table and I looked around to sit somewhere.

The guys said hi in a friendly tone at the same time which made me feel a little less stressed.

"You sit next to Frank and I sit next to you, you okay with that?" Gee said as I nodded in response. I didn't trust my voice I would have probably started fangirling.

"What do you want?" Gee asked picking up the menu.

"Pasta." I said looking at my sleeves.

"Same as last time?" He asked with a small giggle.

"Yup."

As we waited for our food the guys were having a conversation except for Ray.

"So you like MCR huh?" Ray asked.

"Yeah"

I tried to look calm.

"You look pretty calm."

"Well inside I have thrown up five times." I said laughing slightly.

"Well to be honest I was so nervous to meet you, I couldn't sleep at all." Ray said smiling warmly at me.

"Really?"

"Yup, and when I had been laying in bed for two hours I decided to wake up my neighborhood with playing guitar." He said with a small laugh.

I started smiling at him.

"You play some instrument?" He asked.

"I learned acoustic guitar for a year but I always wanted to learn electric guitar and start a band." As I said that he smiled.

"You can always learn." Frank joined our conversation out of nowhere.

Ray nodded.

Then our food came and the guys started to eat. I was lost in my nervousness.

"Why aren't you eating?" Gee asked.

"I am," I said as I took a bite. Gee looked at me weirdly.

"So Laysa tell me what you like to do?" Mikey asked.

"Well, I like to read and draw I used to skate as well." I answered.

"You read?" Frank asked with sparkly eyes as his mouth turned to smile.

Others rolled their eyes at us.

"Yeah, I do." I said.

"Wait, you skate?" Ray asked looking at me.

"Used to." I answered.

"Why don't you skate right now?" He asked.

"Well I have no one to skate with and I don't have my skateboard anymore."

We continued to eat.

Mikey turned his head to me and asked.

"Do you play video games?"

"No, not really." I answered as Mikey's eyes went wide.

"No? But you should." He said.

Everyone laughed slightly at Mikey's reaction.

It was so peaceful I don't know why I was so nervous. But the only thing I can do is overthink huh?

As we finished eating and it was time to leave Frank asked.

"What are we going to do now?"

"I was thinking maybe movies at my place but it's up to Laysa." Gee said.

"Yeah, that would be cool." I said being happy to go back to his place.

"Oh Ray has to go with you guys, he's car is still in repair." Mikey said.

"Oh okay, if you have nothing against it?" He said as he looked at me and I shook my head.

As we started to drive I noticed Ray looking at me from the backseat.

"So, how did you like meeting others? Everything good?" Gee asked glancing at me for a second.

"I'm okay and it was cool." I said.

"That's what I thought." He said giggling.

"Well, you don't really meet your idols every day." I said as Gerard slightly laughed.

"Well your not that nervous around me, am I, not your idol anymore?" Gee asked jokingly.

"What?!? No of course you're not my idol."

I said keeping straight face.

"Ouch." Gee said.

"You're my hero." I whispered really quietly but I think Gee heard it because he smiled at me really warmly.

As we got to his place and went inside I couldn't help but smile.

Ray sat on the couch with me and we began picking a movie as Gee made popcorn.

Soon enough others were here as well.

We started the movie and I couldn't believe that I was here watching a movie with my idols.

Gee looked at me and shook my knee slightly a couple of times turing the movie to make sure I was okay.

I felt so loved and I felt like I belong here but at the same time I felt like I don't deserve to be here.

As the movie ended and guys started to go home Gee turned to me.

"You have to go back now but is it okay if Ray comes with us?"

I nodded after I looked at Ray smiling at me.

We sat in the car and Gee rolled the windows down right as he started the engine. Letting the strong smell of coffee mixed with air freshener out and replacing it with fresh hair coming outside.

He turned up the volume as I stared at the sun that was going down already.

"Gee, what time is it?" I asked.

"It's 9.40 pm." He said.

It was late and usually, I would be drawing in my room right now but I still would choose to spend time with Gee and the guys over sitting in my small room.

"So how did you like today?" Gee asked with a warm quiet tone.

"I loved it!" I said quietly looking at the sun fall with every minute.

His question made me think about today and how perfect it was.

Having lunch with the guys and watching a movie with them. And now the sunset and windows open letting in a small wind, and Green Day playing in the background quietly. It was perfect. I didn't want to go back I felt free. I felt safe and loved. I wanted it to last longer but I already saw the Center with the corner of my eye which brought me back to reality.

Yeah, today was fun but now I have to go back to that place.

Plus tomorrow I had to go to therapy even tho it was the last time I had to go because 'I have made progress' and my meds are over.

That doesn't matter I am gonna get new meds tomorrow. And they will probably make me feel even more numb at first.

"Bye kiddo!" Ray said as me and Gee stepped out of the car.

"Bye!" I said to him closing my car door.

"Okay, bye and I will visit you tomorrow after your therapy appointment." Gee said hugging me.

"Yeah, bye."

I looked at him stepping out of the door feeling really tired of today.

I went and draw a little until it was past my bedtime but I didn't care.

Usually, when I would draw I would draw my dark mind but since today to my surprise my bad thoughts were silent I drew me and the guys as anime characters.

I changed and put away my sketchbook

Going under the blanket and closing my eyes.

I drove Ray home and smiled at the memories of today.

She looked so happy.

Today went really good and I was happy to see that Laysa was getting along with the guys.

As soon as I got home I took a shower.

I cleaned up the mess we made a little before hopping to bed.

I can't believe that I only have to make one thing and then I can write down to THE paper.

If anything goes well which I'm pretty positive about Laysa will come live here with me. We will be a family. A small family with two people but in my mind, it's still a family. I hope she will be happy here. I know she never had a safe place that she could call home but I want to give her that safe place and I would do everything for her to be safe and loved.

But I have no idea how to be a dad. But one thing I know is that I will try to give my best.

I was actually looking a little forward to parent things like helping her with something and more stuff that parents do.

I am ready to give her the unlimited love that she deserves.

We would watch movies and draw.

I am ready to do everything I usually do alone, with her like grocery shopping.

One exciting thing is that in a couple of days she has to sleepover. It's because they want to know how would she act being around me longer and if she likes it.

Which I think she will. We have had a 'sleepover' for a week before when her biological parents were away. And everything went fine. She didn't want me to leave and I didn't want to leave.

That week and that I went to work there changed my life. Because now I will have her as my family member. Even though she is already my family member in my heart.

Guys are so supportive as well and I know that they would be the coolest uncles since

they all are like brothers to me.

Soon enough I fell asleep and went to dreamland.