a celebrity? it all made sense now.

even so it doesn't pay off for the fact that she was so persistent on getting rid of it and she cheated on me with some skinny stick whore. she could've tried to conceal it from the public.

i slid down the door and sobbed into my own arms. i didn't want to leave her so soon. i finally found a home. a place where i belong. a place where i can call my own.

but what can i say? everything comes to an end.

i guess this is goodbye.

ten months had gone by and during that time i managed to go on tour and release 'everything i wanted.' just as i had said, it was a massive hit to the public and they loved it.

i was still living in Grove City because many people didn't know my name there and that was a good thing. although i didn't go out as often as i did when Luna was around and if i did it was only to see Diego and the gang.

i also came up with this fragrance called 'Eilish.' it was a sweet, musky kind of scent and had some soft spice notes and a vanilla tone to it.

i practically wore it everywhere.

i scrapped the song i wrote about Luna and burned it actually. even though out relationship was sweet and cuts in the beginning, the end got a lot more toxic and i only realised that after smoking a shit ton of pot.

i coped by getting high and numbing the pain for a good 6 months before actually coming to my senses about how abusive it was at the end. and thats how i got over it. i just stopped thinking about her everyday and if i did think about it wasn't in a good way.

i went to Diego's cabin because he was throwing a party to being the gang back together. all of my friends know about my fame but they all agreed to keep it on the down low and didn't bring it up very often. which is good because i can easily escape from who i am around them. and i don't have to pretend to be a person who's earning a lot more than them and we're all of equal importance.

when i arrived, Sarah and Maeve had gotten there before me. Sarah's light skinned, has blonde hair and blue eyes, like me, but Maeve's dark skinned, had both brown hair and eyes. Sarah was wearing a black skirt and a red shirt and Maeve was dressed in all black like a goth. her style was to die for.

"hey guys!" i walked in dabbing them l up. "What's up?"

"nothing much, brah. haven't seen you in a while." Diego said.

"hey, Billie! loving the hair!" Sarah said, she had a sweet, kind of high pitched voice.

"thanks, man." i said.

"hey, Bills." Maeve greeted, she had more of a low toned, raspy voice.

it matched her face well to be honest with you. Maeve put her hand on Sarah's thigh and smiled as we walked about shit. i just know that they're dating. they're like complete opposites but they fuck around a lot and that gives it away. but they never admit that they are and say that they're 'just friends.'

"So when you think Ty's gonna get here?" i asked.

"i don't know, man. you know that guy. always late to everything." Diego slurred.

Diego has this thing to him. he was sounded like he was always high. his eyes always said that he was high but I never really knew what was up with that guy.

even though I've been hanging around with these guys for like a good four or five years. I never really know a lot about these guys' families and I think that's the best part. it's just mainly about having a good time that matters to us.

when Ty finally arrived we all began our fun. we drank a shit ton of booze first to get started but none of us had enough to be fully drunk.

"who votes coke first?" Ty said.

all of us except for Diego put his hand up.

"coke it is!" Ty cheered as we all did the same.

Ty was dark skinned and was ripped. he had gigantic muscles on both of his arms. his eyes where brown and his hair blonde.

he and Maeve began crushing it up into a fine powder while i talked to Sarah.

"so how are you? how's things going?" i asked her over the loud chatter of the rest of them.

"i'm all good. i moved out and bought my own apartment." she replied.

"that's really cool. you should invite me over so i can see!" i said.

i was just making chatter then, i didn't really know what to say.

"yeah. i mean, i'm living there with Maeve right now. she pays half the rent!" told me.

of course she fucking does. i would get an apartment with my partner if i could too. how much you want to bet their favourite game is rock, paper, scissors?

"oh yeah?" i smirked, giving her the look.

"yeah it's better than living on your own and having to pay it all. why do thag when you an split with your best friend?" she kicked me forecfully in the shin.

"oh fuck!" i yelled.

"you okay, Eilish?" Maeve asked.

"yeah. yup. i'm okay." i forced out while i groaned clasping my shin.

Sarah got handed the tube and crushed up the coke with a razor before sliding it into a line and snorting it.

"your turn, Eilish." she said, giving me the tube.

i did my turn and handed it to her again while she went for seconds. i didn't want to get too wasted tonight. i was mainly saving it for the molly.

i looked over to see Ty chugging a bottle of beer.

"what the fuck is he up to now?" i chuckled, tapping Sarah to look at him.

"don't you remember? he does this all the time. just wait for it." she replied.

he set the bottle down on the floor and spun it once.

"you know what time it is!" he yelled. "spin the bottle!"

"ah shit i forgot about this." i said to her.

we all sat around the bottle. Diego sat on my left and Ty sat on my right, while Sarah and Maeve sat opposite me.

"youngest goes first." Ty said, passing it to Maeve.

"let's go." she said, spinning the bottle.

we all watched as it spun around, landing on Diego.

"ahhh fuck." he said.

"alright, truth or dare." Maeve asked him.

"truth." he said.

"pussy!" i yelled and everyone laughed.

"when was the last time you had sex and who was it with?" she asked.

"uhh i think it was last Wednesday with some whore from a strip club." he said.

"damn you can have sex with them too?" Ty asked.

"yeah. just book a private room and choose who you want it to be with and boom." Diego replied.

"guys you know Ty's only asking because he wants to lose it." i joked.

"he didn't loose his v card until he was eighteen!" Sarah laughed.

"no! guys! my parents would've killed me!" he explained.

"is not like you where gonna tell them!" Maeve said.

"nah bro, he just didn't wanna break laws!" i chuckled.

we all laughed for a bit snd joked around about how Ty took an extra three years to loose it before Diego spun the bottle.

"fuck! fuck! fuck! not me!" Sarah said as it slowed down on her.

"nope. it's me." Maeve said when it landed on her. "truth."

we only spin three times when we play. then it makes it more interesting because nobody wants it to be them.

"Alright, payback!" Diego smiled, rubbing his hands together. "when was the last time you had sex and who was it with?"

"oooh he copied it and pasted!" i laughed.

Maeve looked at me all annoyed and swallowed.

"it was this morning with Sarah." she said quickly.

holy fuck she said it.

after 5 years of not admitting shit she said it.

"woohoo!" Ty cheered and high fived me. "finally, the truth comes out."

"are you guys dating?" i asked them and Sarah nodded.

i congratulated them even though they began dating ages ago and me and Ty hugged them both. Diego isn't a hugging person.

"i knew something was up between you two." Diego said.

i rolled my eyes at him, "no shit."

Ty brought up a pride flag on his phone and shook it.

"alright alright! everyone calm down." i said. "spin, Maeve."

karma got to me when i said that because the fucking bottle ended up landing on me.

"alright because i'm not a fucking pussy like you guys are, dare!" i yelled.

"okay, Billie. i dare you to break into someone's house and steal a spoon." she laughed.

"a spoon? why would i steal a fucking spoon!" i asked.

"steal their pet." Diego suggested.

"nah too far, man. i don't wanna do something that bad." i said.

"yeah but Billie, the whole point would be breaking in." Maeve replied.

"that's so easy." i said. "isn't there a better dare?"

"steal a pack of cigarettes from a store." Ty said.

"how is that better?" Maeve complained.

"because the cigarettes are behind the counter with the store person that scans it." Sarah said.

"perfect. let's go." i said.

i borrowed a black hoodie of Diego's and popped it on and then i took Maeve's black shades and put those on too so they wouldn't know who i am.

because i am about to do something illegal, it's better if i cover myself up before i end up on the news and have me arrested if they find out who i am.

Ty drove downtown and picked a small convenience store to go in.

"i'll come with for verification and record it all on camera for you guys." Maeve said, getting down with me.

she hid her phone in a pocket in her jacket so she could still film me discreetly.

"which ones? camel?" i asked.

"Marlboro reds you dumbass." she smacked me across the arm.

"you got it, boss." i rolled my eyes and walked into the store.

i walked around to the back of the store first, asking the man working if he had any ropes. he followed me to the back, he looked like he was in his nearly thirties and had grown a beard. he was also a bit muscular.

luckily he was the only one working at that time of day. he was showing me all kinds of rope and told me to follow him to the back while i ran in the opposite direction. when k made it to the counter i stole two packs of Marlboros and a lighter before he managed to catch up. he pulled out a hand to grab me but i had already slid across the counter.

"come back asshole!" he yelled at me.

Maeve ran with me, panting, "holy shit! i cant believe you just did that!"

"fuck he's coming!" i yelled as we got into the van. "step on the gas!"

"did you get them?" Diego asked.

"fuck yeah!" i replied, showing him the goods. "i'm bagging this one!"

i shoved one box into my pocket while he opened up the other, handing everyone cigarettes and lighting them.

"that was so fucking funny." Maeve giggled, showing everyone the video.

"sliding over the counter was smooth as fuck." Sarah replied.

they all laughed at the footage and the look and that guys face when i conned him.

"nah because the way you got blocked, he was close to trapping you before you slid over." Diego laughed.

we drove back to Diego's and had a little disco before we took some molly and did what we always do.

"do you still have the spray paint graffiti cans from last time?" i asked him.

"yeah they're in that cabinet." Diego replied.

i took out every single one of them- there where probably about eight of them.

"let's go graffiti somewhere!" i said.

"how about we graffiti the shopping mall?" Sarah suggested.

"what? Grove City mall?" Ty asked.

Grove City fucking mall.

"yeah, we could use that wall where it explains a shit ton about Hitler." she said.

"alright." Diego replied.

we all agreed to go and so i drove us all there. within twenty minutes or so, we arrived and got out of the car. Ty started by drawing horns on Hitlers face, before things started to get messier.

when we where all done we looked back and admired the masterpiece.

"woah." Maeve said. "that's pretty fucking cool."

Diego had drawn a hundred penises on Hitler and around Hitler. There where long stroke of writing saying 'go to hell' over and over in red. i wrote 'destroy this shit' and added some spice to his personal looks. Sarah had drawn satanic symbols over him. someone wrote 'nazi whore' and a shit ton of scribbles where everywhere.

"i still think that the one we made before we sat our SATs where better." Ty said before someone started running after us.

it was that damned janitor.

"this guys funny. i see him see the time. he locks up and cleans but he jerks off to the playboys sometimes." i laughed as we ran to the van.

"how the fuck do you know this?" Ty asked.

we got into the car as i drove back to Diego's. we chilled for a while before everyone decided to leave. Maeve and Sarah left together first and then me and Ty did.

i said goodbye to them all and drove home- grabbing a ladder and putting it against the side of my house before climbing up it. once i got to the top, i pushed the ladder away to put it back how it was before and slid open my window, sneaking back into my room.

i've been doing this since i was a teenager and i still use it now. my parents never know when i sneak out and come back. it was probably around 3am, which isn't the latest i've been but late enough to give my mum a heart attack.

i got into bed and went to sleep, thinking about how i really needed to get laid. the last time i did was a month ago with someone at a party. maybe i should go to the strip club like Diego was saying.