we got into the car as i drove back to Diego's. we chilled for a while before everyone decided to leave. Maeve and Sarah left together first and then me and Ty did.

i said goodbye to them all and drove home- grabbing a ladder and putting it against the side of my house before climbing up it. once i got to the top, i pushed the ladder away to put it back how it was before and slid open my window, sneaking back into my room.

i've been doing this since i was a teenager and i still use it now. my parents never know when i sneak out and come back. it was probably around 3am, which isn't the latest i've been but late enough to give my mum a heart attack.

i got into bed and went to sleep, thinking about how i really needed to get laid. the last time i did was a month ago with someone at a party. maybe i should go to the strip club like Diego was saying.

after Billie left a lot of changes came into place. Amber moved in with me and that was really fun because they where always there for me when i needed someone.

they moved into my mums room, we spent a few months cleaning all of her clothes and stuff out (i still kept some of it but gave the majority of it to charity), then we repainted and moved Amber's stuff in.

the only reason they moved in with me is because they finished college and their parent's didn't want them to continue living at home. rent was too expensive for Amber to pay and so i offered to let them live with me because it was easier that way. i didn't have to have an empty room and i could put it to use, the rent would be cheaper if we split and i didn't have to live alone with Baxter.

we also got a new dog called Shira. she's a Dachshund and loves Bax so much. we got her ass a puppy but shes grown long now.

we both quit our jobs and began working in the imperium. it was a full time job but we didn't have much to do other than dance all day. having Amber by my side still made everything easier too.

we made our way to the Imperium and began getting ready. i wore all black; a laced bra with a short crop top, some panties and black platform heels. we only have three different outfits that we change into weekly. so we'll wear them maximum twice a week. Amber wore the same as me as did my other college Erin.

Erin has a short blonde pixie cut and a septum piercing. her eyebrows are pink which is so cool and she has a bellybutton piercing.

"hey guys you're on in five." Cindy announced.

"alright thanks, Cind." i replied as concealed herself by running through to the other side of the curtain.

Cindy was our co manager- she does most of the announcements and stuff and basically tells us what we have to do and when we're gonna be on for show.

she has long black hair, brown eyes and a tongue piercing.

"are you going on another date with Craig?" Amber asked.

Craig was this guy i met at a coffee shop. he payed for my drink and i ended up having coffee with him when i was on break. Amber got left behind because she had to talk to someone about something.

Craig and i talked for a while and exchanged numbers but i haven't texted him back in a while and i don't really know if i'm interested in him enough to. he said his last ex was a stripper and that's why he left her.

i mean sure, dating someone who's a stripper would make sense if you had trust issues which them but he called her a bitch.

"nah. i don't think so." i replied.

"why not?" they asked.

"he said he doesn't like strippers. sorry let me correct myself- hates strippers." i explained.

"ohhh." they said with a 'shit, that makes sense' kinda face.

"yeah and he sprays way too much perfume. it's so strong and bitter." i gag. "it's like i can already feel him fucking me."

"ew." Amber said.

"i don't know. i don't know if i even like guys like that." i explained.

"right. but you still flirted with him?" they asked.

"no! i didn't flirt- i was just being friendly." i replied.

"mhmm." they teased. "you defo wanted to get into his pants."

"ew! what the fuck Amber!" i yelled and walked away.

i fucked around for a while and scrolled through instagram while i got my makeup and hair done.

"you ready?" Cindy asked.

"yeah." i nodded and shoved my phone into my tote bag.

"let's blow their minds." she said as i followed her to stage.

i wasn't usually nervous. the chances of Craig being there where low because he hates strippers so he'd never go to a strip club. i was just embarrassed at the thought of him seeing me in that crowd.

Amber, Erin and i walked onto stage as the other three strippers walked out breathlessly. i hope there wasn't a tough crowd this time because i'm fucking low on energy. the only thing keeping me in focus is when i'm gonna be snatching every bill i get thrown.

crowds and crowds of drunks cheered and shouted as we got onto stage.

it's time.

i gripped the pole with my hands and slowly danced in a seductive manner. Amber and Erin where doing there own thing while i did mine. as my body twined to the beat of the song i smiled and winked at the people enjoying their show. even though i don't know them, i love being in control of what they're thinking and feeling.

Amber began twisting around the pole and doing some punk ass moves so i copied them. i split my legs and gripped the pole as i swung around, making them cheer and whoop in delight.

even though it's not an ideal job to have it works. i get my exercise in and i get paid so i'm not complaining.

we danced around and showed off our tricks for a little while before coming off of the stage. Erin went to go get water as i turned to see Amber sweating.

"you okay?" i asked them.

"no, i just fucking poured my heart out." they panted.

Amber goes full on hardcore.

"why do you do that?" i asked them.

"i don't know. it's funner then you're working hard to please them and they enjoy that." Amber said, wiping the sweat off of their forehead.

"alright." i scoffed.

i drank some water and chilled for a bit before our makeup artists topped up my makeup. it had gotten all messy because of the sweat.

"Clarke you have a private!" Cindy said.

"fuck yeah." i whispered underneath my breath.

if you don't know what a 'private' means, it's basically when a separate attraction. people can pay to have their show in a private room and can pick who they want it to be with.

i love privates so much more because its easier and the other person is blindfolded so you don't have their eyes staring at you all the time. and it's so much better because i can put on a shit show for them and my manager won't even know it unless they rat it out.

"you coming, Lu?" Amber asked as they got back from the bathroom.

"nah i have a private." i replied.

"awww. fine, i'll see you soon then." they said and left to get onto stage.

"when's my priv show?" i asked Cindy.

"now." she nodded. "room 4."

"okay, thanks." i said.

private rooms where a little further back from the main performance stage. they where small, dimly lit rooms and only had a single chain in the middle. all i had to do was touch my client a little, maybe a little lap dance, some whispering and the show was over. so there wasn't much to do on their end apart from hear and feel.

i entered the room to see a blindfolded man sitting down on the chair. he had short brown hair, a stubble and big ass feet.

what the fuck.

i walked in and closed the door, feeling ever ounce of goddess Luna sink in.

"so you've been waiting for me, huh?" i said, walking around him in circles.

"mhm." he nodded, hearing mg high heels clack at every step i took.

"did you miss me?" i asked.

he stayed silent and bit his lip.

"i heard you did." i whispered in his ear.

he shivered at the touch of my breath. i ran my hands along his shoulders and sighed.

"you don't have to worry anymore. i'm here." i spoke.

he remained silent as i continued to work my magic on him. my fingers trailed against his lips as he opened his mouth.

"i know you want me." i teased.

i sat down on his lap, feeling his hands trail over my hips. his touch against my skin caused goosebumps to arise.

"why don't you come and get me?" i whispered into his ear as i slowly grinded on him.

i got off in disgust as i felt his boner poke up from me beneath. i continued to walk around the room and grabbed ahold of his hair to pull his head back.

"why so shy?" i asked.

"it's my first time." he said.

"don't worry. you'll have a good time. just loosen up." i said and massaged his shoulders.

i felt his muscles contracting and relaxing.

"that's good." i said and sat on his lap again.

i pushed his hands away this time.

"let me take control." i whispered.

i danced on his lap a little and wrapped my arms around his neck. i basically continued doing that until i got sick of it and began spewing utter bullshit after a while.

i said goodbye and walked out to see that Amber hadn't returned yet. when they had we chilled for a bit and did our past show before i drove us both home. they cooked some food as i took another shower.

it was around 1am by the time we had eaten and so we watched some tv for a bit. we recently got into 'skins' which is a British drama series but it's really good. Amber got me into it.

"you see? i love Cassie so much." i said. "but Effy is just a different breed."

"Nah, you're sleeping on Michelle." they replied.

"the new season's shit. i wish they kept the characters from volume 1 and 2." i complained. "they where so much better."

"i love Cook though! he's so fine!" Amber exclaimed.

"ew bruh!" i gagged, lighting up a blunt.

Billie's the one that got me into this shit but she's gone now.

so fuck her.

and fuck her shitty life.