Jungkook POV

I could feel his eyes on me as I ate my breakfast and normally that wouldn't bother me in the least, but lately, I've found that I've become so self conscious around him, constantly wondering what he thought about me.

"What?" I asked as I picked the mug up and took a sip of the coffee I knew he had made. I had become so accustomed to drinking his coffee that I couldn't drink anyone else's.

"Nothing. It's just, you look much better than you did yesterday." He said as he scratched the back of his head and leaned back against the sofa.

"I feel better." I replied to which he nodded and watched me.

The room was suddenly silent. That awkward kind of silence where neither of us knew what to say to keep the conversation going and the only sound that could be heard was the sound of my fork clicking against the glass plate.

"Thank you." I said as he got up to take the tray away.

"I didn't really do anything besides make the coffee." He said and chuckled, doing that thing again to my heart.

"No. I meant for taking care of me last night. You didn't have to do that so thank you." I replied and watched as he placed everything on the tray and wheeled it outside for one of the servants to get.

"It's not a problem. It's part of my job" he said as he shrugged and smiled at me.

"Is that why you do what you do. Because it's your job?" I asked as I suddenly found the hem of my shirt interesting.

When I didn't hear his answer, I reluctantly looked up and found him smiling at me. I tried to look everywhere to hide the blush I knew was very evident on my face.

"Why don't you ask me what you really want to know?" He asked as he raised his eyebrow at me and smirked making me actually hold my breath.

"Fine, why did you do it?" I asked.

I had to keep my inner composure and look like I had my shit together when in reality, I was freaking the fuck out inside.

"Because I care about you." He replied with no hesitation making me actually choke on the cough I was trying to suppress.

"Excuse me?" I asked just so I could make sure I was not in fact misunderstanding him.

"I care about you, and not just because you're my boss or because it's my job. I care about you because you're you. I see the way you try your best not to show everyone what you're really feeling. Maybe you think it's because it makes you weak or because people could use it against you." He said as he sat up and leaned in, coming closer to me and placing his hand on top of mine.

"I see the pain you carry around and try to hide. I hear how you cry in the shower when you think no one can hear. I know you're scared Jungkook. You think everyone hates you but that isn't true. I don't hate you." He said and placed his hand beneath my chin, making me look at him.

"It's okay to feel. And it's okay to let others know what you're feeling. It doesn't make you weak and it doesn't make you a coward either. I may not know what you went through to cause you this much pain, but I don't want you to go through it alone. You might have done that all your life, but you don't have to anymore. I'm here. And I'll always be here to share that with you. So let me help you. Let me take that pain away." He said as he looked into my eyes and I had no idea what was happening until I felt the moisture roll down my cheeks.

I had never cried in front of anyone before. But somehow, I felt safe around Taehyung. I felt like I could do things that I had never done before and it would be okay. If he was with me, it would be okay.

I choked on a sob and looked down, unable to look him in the eyes knowing what I was hiding from him.

"It's okay. I'm here. You're safe with me. I'd never hurt you. Jungkook look at me." He whispered and lifted my face up so I could look into his eyes.

"Trust me." He whispered.

"His...his..his name was Jimin" I replied.

"And I loved him so much."

I felt more of my teas roll down my cheeks as I remembered the last time I had spoken to him.

Flashback (six months ago)

"Please. Tell me it isn't true. Tell me they're wrong. Tell me you didn't do it and I'll save you." I said as I gripped his shirt and let the tears roll down my face.

I looked at Jimin as he looked back at me and took my hands off his shirt. He stepped back and looked at me with absolutely no emotion at all.

"It's true. I was the one who poisoned you." He said .

I walked backwards and stumbled a bit, having to hold the wall to keep my balance. I didn't want to believe what I was hearing. I wanted to believe that what we had built together was real and true. That he had loved me the way I loved him. But the truth was staring me in the face.

"Was none of it true. Everything you said? Was it all a lie?" I asked as I held my chest, trying to alleviate some of the ache that I felt.

"I never loved you. You killed my entire family. I swore to avenge them even if it was at the expense of my own death." He said as he looked back at me with so much hatred in his eyes.

"I didn't know! I told you that ! The explosion was an accident!" I yelled at him as the tears flowed out of my eyes.

"They're dead because of you!" He yelled back at me.

"I may not have done anything right when it came to you, but let me do this the right way." I said as I walked towards him and watched him look back at with confusion written all over his face.

I walked till I stood in front of him and placed my hands on the sides of his face. I leaned in and placed my lips against his, savoring the last time I would feel them.

It was a known rule, that betrayal to The Heartless Dragon would be paid by one's life and had to be done with one's very own weapon.

"Give me your gun." I told him and watched him raise his eyebrow at me.

I took his gun and emptied all the bullets into my hand. I placed them in my pocket and handed him his gun back.

"Seokjin is waiting outside for you. He'll explain to you what to do and how to go about the plan. Once it's over, you're free to go wherever you want. You'll have a new identity and a new life." I said as I walked past him about to leave when he grabbed my arm, stopping me.

"Jungkook I don't understand what you're sa-"

"I love you Jimin, and this is the only way I could save you. I might not get to see you ever again but I want you to know that." I said as I left the room and nodded at the guards letting them know they could take him into custody.

Flashback ended.

"I didn't know. I swear I didn't" I said as I choked on my sob and wiped my nose with my sleeve as I looked down.

"I didn't know that he had added the bullets to his gun after I took them out. And when I pressed the trigger, I didn't know it would kill him. We planned it out, taking in every angle." I said as I sniffed.

"He was supposed to wear a vest with fake blood. After that, Seokjin had arranged for him to live a new life, but I didn't know he switched it. I didn't know Taehyung that he wanted to leave me that badly." I said as I choked and cried again.

I felt Taehyung pull me closer to him and wrap his arms around me. I closed my eyes and allowed myself to be engulfed by his warm arms and cried my heart out.

Feelings that I had kept in, so afraid to confront, all came crashing down on me as I poured everything out and it felt good to let everything go. To not hold it back and finally be free of it.

"It's not your fault. You didn't know it would kill him." He whispered against my ear as he ran his hand through my hair and rubbed my back.

I had no idea how or when it happened, but the next thing I knew, I found myself sitting in his lap as I wrapped my arms around his neck as he held me against his chest while I sniffed and hiccuped from all the sobbing.

There wasn't anything sexual about what we doing and yet it felt so much more fulfilling than anything I have ever done before.

"You're going to be okay. I'm going to make sure of that. I promise." He whispered as he placed a gentle kiss against my ear.

"Please don't leave me." I whispered back when I found my voice again and felt him tighten his grip around me.

"I'll never leave you Jungkook."