To learn something new, you need to try new things and not be afraid to be wrong.

That's what you've been telling yourself since your grandmothers passing.

If you want to keep your promise and become a better person, you had to learn new things, experience new things, despite the unfamiliarity.

If you want to keep your promise and become a better person, you need to try new things, despite the fear.

If you want to keep your promise and become a better person, you had to not be afraid of being wrong.

You try to stick with those words as it's the day you were nervous about. It's Christmas Eve.

The day your going to meet jungkooks mother in person for the first time.

You continue to stare out of the window of jungkooks car as he has picked you up from work and you watch light snow fall from the white clouds that are mixed with a soft tone of grey. The blue sky replaced with a comfortable grey sky. Fluffy snow surrounded all over the ground, disappeared green grass that have turned into brown, covered with cold wet snow.

You sigh as you enjoy the scenery, loving the way Busan looks with a grey sky instead of a blue. Your not much of a rainbow colors type of girl, you only like dark colors like black and dark grey, along with white and light grey, the only colors you find comfort in.

Building by building, people by people, the world just continuing to go on with life while your nervously waiting in the car.

"Okay we are almost there." Jungkook says happily. You turn to look at him and smile as his adorable bunny toothy smile is on display for the world to see. His dark brown doey eyes looking straight ahead with a tint of light in them. Happiness.

This is when your worries are pushed away. His smile can just flash on his face for everyone to see and your heart melts at the sight of his smile.

He makes you want to fight for him. He makes you want to put in a effort in trying to do better. He makes you want to live and be stress free.

He makes you feel like your able to breathe again, not having to suffocate again.

Your brought out from your thoughts when jungkook takes a second to gaze at you, making your cheeks feel warm as he has caught you staring at him. You cough and instantly look away.

You feel warm large hand holding your left hand. You look down and smile when jungkook has entwine both of your hands together, him slightly tightening it, not wanting to let go, so you do the same.

Not wanting to let go of him either, and your heart suddenly saddens. Sadden at the thought of losing him. You anxiously gulp and shake the thought.

You aren't going to lose him.

Not him too.

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You stare up at the house as jungkook pulls up his drive way and slowly parks the car, turning off the engine. You breathe in and out before stepping out of the car, along with jungkook following behind you. You feel fresh cold wind, being free in the air but softly hitting your skin, making you slightly shiver but you loved the feeling.

Jungkook locks the car behind him as both you and jungkook walk away from the car and towards the house. Each step you both took, each step left a footprint onto the fluffy wet snow.

You without realizing hold onto jungkooks hand, nervously and gently squeezing it. His thumb caresses the top of your hand and you look at him.

You give him a small smile as he does the same in return before you walk up the small steps and jungkook unlocking it with his house keys.

The minute you step in, you felt relax. The house gave you a safe and warm aura just like jungkooks aura. You slowly let yourself relax more as your body was stiffened the whole time. You and jungkook take off your boats and he hands you some white slides. You put them, him as well.

He leads you towards the living room and that's when your welcomed in open arms, your body is back to being stiffed again. "annyeonghaseyo." ( hello. ) She gently greets you before pulling away. "dangsin-ui deo aleumdaun moseub-eul jigjeob mannaboseyo." ( wow your even more beautiful in person. ) She says with a sweet smile, you nervously chuckle. "gamsahabnida." ( thank you. ) You thank her before bowing. You stare back at her and see she was truly beautiful.

Has brown doe eyes, short straight brown hair. She basically has the same features as jungkooks but no moles on her face nor same smile meaning jungkook got the moles and smile from his father.

Cute.

But you realize that you won't be able to meet his father. Because he has no clue or any idea how he looks, nor who he is.

And you wished you were able to help him find him. Because...

No kid should never have to go through with an absence parent.

You see jimin, krystal, luna, and your brother are here, hoping this doesn't make jungkooks mother uncomfortable as strangers as celebrating Christmas Eve with her.

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"dowa jusyeoseo gamsahabnida. Jimin gwa jungkook eun baega keubnida." ( thank you so much for helping. Jimin and jungkook have big stomachs. ) You and krystal chuckle at jungkook mothers words.

You and krystal decided to help out jungkooks mother as she had to make extra food for the boys, you have told her your brother loves eating as well, making her smile as there was another hungry boy. You and krystal place the food onto the table where the boys were sitting at and talking with laughs and smiles.

"uliga gaibhaedo gwaenchanh-eun geo hwagsilhae?" ( are you sure it was okay for us to join? ) You ask jungkooks mother nervously and worriedly. She sighs with a smile, caressing your head in her hands. "naneun yeobun-ui hoesaleul jeulginda. gedaga geugeos-eun naleul dasi onjeonhago ttatteushage mandeunda." ( I enjoy the extra company. Besides, it makes me feel whole and warm again. ) She genuinely says as she brings you in her embrace.

You think of her words. "It makes me feel whole and warm again." You knew what she meant by that and your proud of her for being strong.

But reality hits you as you were in her arms. You instantly felt safe. You felt secure and warm. You didn't feel lonely. You didn't feel cold and unsafe.

But maybe it was due to the motherly aura she had. Which brings you to think of your mother.

How much you miss her hugs. How much you miss her voice while singing to the guitar. How much you miss her laughter when your father is always clumsy and never fails to make your mother laugh nor bring a smile on her face.

How much you just miss your parents in general.

You didn't realize jungkooks mother pulls away and gets worried. "o jagi, gwaenchanh-a?" ( oh sweetie, are you okay? ) She ask worriedly. You look at her with confusion and realize what she was talking about as jungkook has instantly got up and pulls you in his embrace. "Baby, are you okay?" Jungkook gently ask with worried in his voice.

You sniffle in his arms and look behind him with confusion, moving your eyes left to right as everyone looks at you worriedly as well. You pull away and wipe your cheek where it was stained with your tears. "I-I'm okay." You whisper.

Ever since your grandmothers passing, you became really sensitive, which in results that whatever you think, you cry easily now instead of being able to hold them.

You hated it because you weren't use to it. You hated it because you don't want to look weak. But jungkook was always there to comfort you with his reassuring words.

Giving you strength to keep on going.

You avoid jungkooks gaze and look up at his mother before bowing. "jeongmal mian haeyo." ( I'm so sorry. ) You apologize for crying before looking down. Her eyes soften sadly and she lifts your chin up, making you look up at her. "uneun geos-eul dulyeowohaji masibsio. uneun geos-e daehae sagwahaji masibsio. dangsin-i yaghae boijineun anhseubnida." ( never be afraid to cry. never apologize for crying. It doesn't make you look weak sweetie. ) You flash her a small sad smile.

You look away and look at jungkook as he gives you a soft smile before giving you a thumbs up. You softly chuckle. "Um sorry to say but um...I'm hungry." Jimin says out loud, making everyone laugh.

You mentally thank jimin for that as he broke off the small silence that filled up the room. Jungkooks mother smiles and motions you and jungkook to join them.

And you and everyone have a good time, making you proud that you came up with this idea to celebrate with jungkooks mother, she's kind and funny and makes you and the others laugh as she embarrasses jungkook along while bickering back and forth, as well as jimin too.

After helping jungkooks mother cleaning up, you and everyone go in the living room and one by one open gifts. It was normally a blur for you as have zoned out basically the entire thing and realizing you didn't get any gifts from jungkook. Not that it mattered because you actually hated getting gifts but you know, this year is different.

Shut up. You say to yourself.

You have gave jungkook his gift when it was his turn and he smiles at you, hugging you happily. You got him a gold circled shaped locket necklace that has gold stars carved on it while in the inside it has a picture of jungkook and mother with smiles on their faces.

Jungkook shows it to his mother and his mother eyes get teary. She stands up and goes in front of you before hugging you while rubbing your back as she sniffles. "geuege seonmul-eul jusyeoseo gamsahabnida. manh-eun uimiga issseubnida." ( thank you for getting that gift for him, it means a lot. ) You smile in her embrace.

The reason it means a lot is because in the locket, it was a picture of them when jungkooks mother finally started to love jungkook. And for the stars, you pick the star design is because it reminds you when jungkook sang lost stars for you for the first and when it was your parents anniversary.

The necklace will remind you when jungkook took your to juju island, just to distract you.

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You and everyone else leave as you all spend time talking more and seeing jungkook and jimin play fight with jungkooks mother as they were gonna fight ka fung.

It was night when everyone decided to leave. You give jungkooks mother a goodbye hug. You give jungkook one as well as he wants to stay back and spend time with his mother.

You turn around and walk away but look back one more time and give jungkook a smile. You look ahead of yourself and walk to jimin's car where jimin and krystal are getting in.

You look down at your feet leaving footprints onto the fluffy wet snow and think about today's Christmas Eve.

You were about to open the door to jimins car when you hear jungkook call out your name. You turn around and look at him. He comes up to you and smiles. "I know you think I didn't get your any gifts but yours is at home." You playfully glare at him. "And why is that?" You say with a sarcastic smile. Jungkook chuckles. "It was too big to wrap." You roll your eyes. "Mhm okay we'll see about that." You lastly say before pecking his lips. His eyes widen and nervously smiles.

You quickly open the door and get in jimins car. "Me likey." Jimin says with a smirk. You and krystal snort, making jimin laugh.

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You finally arrive back to your place. You open the door and get out of the car. Before closing it, jimin and krystal speak. "You sure you don't want us to stay the night?" Krystal says. "Yea we don't mind." Jimin says with a smile. You shake your head with a smile.

"I'm good kiddos, now go away or else." You say sternly but playful. Both of them chuckle before waving goodbye. You wave a goodbye and walk to your place. You take your keys out and open the door before entering, locking it behind you.

You tiredly sigh as you take off your shoes and coat before walking up to your room. You filled with sleepiness as your eyes are giving up on you, you open the door and instantly your eyes widen in surprise.

There was a huge white cute bunny sitting on your bed. You squeal in happiness before hearing a ping.

You take out your phone and see a message from jungkook.

Like?🥺👉🏼👈🏼 I know you didn't want anything but think of this bunny as if i was the bunny.. well because you call me bunny boy like rude- but it's okay. :)

You chuckle as you go up towards your bed and sit nexts to the bunny. You touch it and it's soft through your fingertips.

I-

I don't like it...

You don't like it.?🥺😞

I don't like it because I....

I L O V E I T!

Yah! You made me sad! 😭

Sorry.😎

._. *sighs* my girl is so rude man...

Never that :) but thank you. <333333

You text lastly before turning off your phone. You sigh before laying down and hug the bunny. You felt your eyes give up and you instantly fall asleep.

Without realizing there was two important things was wrapped around the neck.

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Sorry if this chapter is all over the place....👀 and sorry i took long to update again. :(

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