I lay in bed with thoughts running in my head. Ever since you left on Christmas Eve and I stayed, the words my mother said to me are on replay like a film in my head.

And it's only been seven days when her words stay rent free in my head.

( she's a keeper. )

( do you love her? ) ( if you do love her, then it will be hard if she loves you back. )

( if i lost your father due to the curse, I don't want that for you. But I'm not able to stop it from coming to your heart. Please be careful my love. )

I can't even imagine what my mother went through.

I'm now beginning to think, do you love me? Have you fallen in love with me? Do I love you? Have I fallen in love with you?

I sigh.

I don't want to think.

I don't want this to ruined me now.

I sit up from my bed and grab my phone and check what time it is. It's two in the morning. I inhale and exhale a breathe before dialing your number.

I wait until I hear you pick up in a raspy voice. "Hello?" You gently say. My heart beats fast as I hear your voice. "Want to hang out?" I tell you despite knowing I woke you up from your nap.

Sorry baby. I think to myself.

"It's like...two a.m in the morning you crazy butt." You mumble. I silently chuckle. "Yeaaaa, so can we can we?" I ask you trying to act cute.

Apparently that seemed to piss you off.

"Bitch I got work at eight a.m, I- you know what. Go to sleep doey eyes." You last say before hanging up on me while my mouth was wide open. "Bitch..." I say offendedly.

"She did not just called me a bitch..." I mumble before standing up and getting ready.

Due to jungkook waking you up, you couldn't go back to sleep easily but as you were finally able to sleep. You hear footsteps in your room and heard they stop.

You sat up and groan as you saw who it was. He's wearing grey hoodie and grey joggers.

"Oh my..." You whine. "Wakey wakey bitch, let's go." Jungkook says before taking his leave out of your room. You whine before getting up and getting ready, but all you put on is simple comfortable black jeans and a white shirt.

Your hair wasn't that messing so you comb it out and tie in a low ponytail but taking out two strips of hair on both sides of your face.

You sigh while looking at yourself in the mirror before leaving your room. You go down the stairs and see him leaning on the couch waiting for you. You glare at him before grabbing your black coat and put it on, and your shoes on.

"Hurry up or I'll regret this." You mumble tiredly and walk outside. You hear jungkook chuckle.

You both get in the car and he starts the engine. "I can't believe you called me a bitch." Jungkook says offendedly. You look at him and see his lips are pouted. You softly chuckle despite the tiredness due to jungkooks cuteness.

"That's on you, you know I'll get grumpy when I don't get my sleep." Jungkook chuckles. "I know baby, I just wasn't able to sleep so I'm sorry for disturbing your beauty sleep." You look at him before taking your left hand and entwining yours with his right hand. He takes his doe eyes off the road for a brief moment and looks at you. "Why didn't you say so?" You softly mumble while looking at him.

He looks away and pays attention to the road.

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You watch as jungkook takes you somewhere familiar as you try to recall where it is. You see as jungkooks pulls up to a park. You smile as you recall which memory you both made here.

When you and jungkook danced and ran under the rain. You chuckle. "What to remake the memories pretty boy?" You say with a smirk as jungkooks parks the car and looks at you, smirking as well.

"Nah, we here to make new ones." You smile at him and nod as he turns off the engine.

The park is covered underneath the cold wet snow. Making the scenery beautiful just like it does when it looks in the rain.

Cold breeze of wind is in the air and blows against your tied hair, you smile at the coldness, you look at jungkook to see him already looking at you with a smile. You nervously look away before the both of you walk in the park area.

"Come on tiny, we're going to make some snowman." Jungkook says excitedly, his pure bunny smile in displayed for your eyes only, your heart is warmed up at the sight as his smile and the snow in the same picture is breath taking.

You laugh as he hands you gloves and puts a pair in his hands as well. You and jungkook start gathering snowman and begin to collect as much of snow as much as you can to make them into big scoops.

You slightly pant out of breath as your almost done making the big ball for the bottom of the snow man, you turn to look at jungkook and whine.

"No no no, how are you already on your second batch?" You pout. Jungkook laughs. "Why didn't you ask for help little one?" You glare at him and he rolls his eyes with a smile. He comes up to you, leaving his snow man buddy alone in the dust.

"Alright little one, let's get to work, TOGETHER." He says, you nod before you both do a team work and gather more snow.

As you and jungkook finished making the last batch of the snow man, you sigh in victory and instantly fall onto the snow. "Yah baby! Your gonna get sick!" Jungkook says worriedly. He comes to you and lends a hand. An ideas pops in your head and you act like your going to get up when you really pull him down with you.

"When I go down, you go down with me, that's how we cool kook." You say playfully. Jungkook chuckles. "Yes of course, you go down, I go down with you." You both laugh and sigh as you both look up at the dark midnight blue sky.

"You know...you left your snow man buddy alone to help me build up my buddy." Jungkooks giggles. "I'll drop anything for you little one." You turn your head to the right and look at him, he turns to his left and looks at you.

"You feeling better?" You softly ask. Jungkook sighs softly and nods with a soft smile. "Much better, thank you." He gently says with a sincere smile. You smile and nod before looking up at the sky again.

You hear jungkook sigh. "I see you aren't wearing it." Jungkook softly says, you turn to look at him confusedly. "Aren't wearing what?" You ask with confusion.

Jungkook sits up, making you sit up as well. His hands go in one of his pockets and pulls out something.

You look up at him when he takes your hand and makes you open it. You open your hand and look down when he places it in your hand.

It's a black gliztzy rock gemstone and marcasite silver heart locket necklace.

You look up at him and he motions you to open it. You look down at your hand and slowly open it.

What you see insides hurts but warms your heart.

It's a picture when your grandmother got released from the hospital when you and your brother have barley found out about her health, this picture is when Jonathan tried his hardest to make our grandmother laugh which he succeeded. You took this picture to capture the beautiful moment.

"Ho-how?" You hesitantly ask while looking up at him with tears in your eyes. He softly smiles and wipes his thumb under your eyes when a tear falls down. "Jonathan showed me this picture as he helped me find a good and meaningful gift to give you." More tears fall down your eyes before hugging him, making you both collapse onto the wet snowy ground.

"I love it..." You whisper. Jungkook rubs your back, comforting you in every possible way.

"Let's go home?" Jungkook softlh questions as he sits up, you going up with him. He pulls away from your embrace and cups one of your cheeks, you close your eyes in his hand.

Home...

Your place wasn't home.

You needed to feel that feeling that makes you feel like home.

But your home was always following you.

"Let's go home." You softly say with a smile as you look up at him. He pecks your forehead and stands up and helps you as well.

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You smile as you see jungkook is outside waiting for you in his car wearing a light pink and white flannel with a simple while shirt underneath and light blue jeans. You close up the cafe as your shift has ended for the night.

You open the door and sigh when you sit down. "Tired sleepy head?" Jungkook ask before tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear. You hum as you just want to sleep.

But seemed as jungkook has other plans.

"Come on, we are gonna go somewhere, they close at nine so we only have one hour." You pout but chuckle before nodding your head.

"Lead the way kiddo." You playfully say to tease jungkook. "Yah!" He whines. You chuckle and feel jungkook entwine both of your hands together. You smile as you look out the window.

Not knowing how things will turn out for today, for both you and jungkook.

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You and jungkook arrive at an aquarium. Jungkooks parks the car and turns off the engine as you both get out of the car.

"Hmmmm...is this a date kookie?" You say with a grin. Jungkook grins in return. "Maybe?" You chuckle before jungkook takes a hold of your hand and combine both of your hands together. You both walk to the aquarium in hand and hand.

Jungkook gives the person at the entrance both tickets and the man gives let's you both pass in.

"Okay little one, what do you wanna do? Underwater artist zone? Fashion zone? Sea at night? Bingo zone? Aquarium zone? Or watch underwater performances?" Jungkook suggests. You think about what sounds more calming and cool is the aquarium zone and underwater performance.

"Um maybe the aquarium zone and underwater performance?" You say unsure if he was okay with it. Jungkook smiles and nods. "We'll start with the underwater performance." You smile as you let him lead you the way to where the underwater performances are being held at.

"For now, we'll start with shark feeding." Jungkook says and you smile excitedly. Jungkook glances at you. "You aren't scared of sharks?" You shake your head.

"There's no reason to. They are beautiful animals and they help balance ecosystems." Jungkooks eyes widen in surprise and pleased. "How so?" Jungkook ask curiously. You chuckle as you both walk as someone that feeds the animals dive in the large tank where the small and slightly medium sharks are being held at.

"Sharks help preserve the balance of the ecosystem by keeping other animals in check, meaning keeping the underwater oceans healthy. They somewhat eat the sick and weak of their preys so healthy populations can thrive. They help to protect sea grass and coral reefs." Jungkook nods his head as his doey eyes lighten.

"And how do you know all this? I thought you dropped out of school to help out at the hotel." You nervously look down. "I may or may not do research after watching a shark movie." Jungkook laughs, making you laugh along with him.

You both pay attention as the diver feeds sharks here and there for ten to fifteen minutes. The performance finishes, making you and jungkook laugh.

"I wanna dive in and feed them, they're so cool." Jungkook shakes his head. "What if the shark bites your hand off because your so pretty?" Jungkook dramatically says. You snort. "You must be blind kiddo." Jungkook pouts. "But...your beautiful." You feel your cheeks get heated.

You both watch other performances like otter feeding and penguin eating. As you both completed both task, you both head to the aquarium zone.

Your eyes widen in aw as you walk through a tunnel that his filled with animals, fishes and other sea life swimming freely in the blue clear water.

You look at jungkook and his eyes are on the sea life. His eyes are sparkled with happiness and amusement.

You hope you get to his eyes lighten more in the future.

But that's not how it was planned for you.

You both finish walking through the tunnel and walk into a big room where your only surrounded by see through glass as you watch more sea life swim.

You and jungkook decide to sit down and watch the fishes and other species move freely with no worries.

"It's beautiful." You softly say. "Agree." Jungkook replies softly.

You both have a good time as you enjoy the scenery.

Able to to enjoy the scenery with your favorite person.

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"Where are we going dumb head?" You say as jungkook took you to a tall abandoned building when you guys have left the aquarium an hour ago and went to eat food as you both were craving for ramen noodles.

"My favorite place." He says excitedly as you both walk in the building that looks are torn up as you both step on some small broken glass and any other idea.

You both walk up the stairs and he leads you to a room to which it looks like a master bedroom with a huge balcony. Your eyes lighten as the moment you step outside, your able to see the city lights.

You watch jungkook go ahead of you and widen his arms as wind breezes against him, making his air slightly fly in the air freely.

Making him look like he's able to breathe.

"This is my favorite place to go to when I feel suffocated by my thoughts and want to get away from everyone around me, just wanting to be alone and free." Jungkook softly says, noticing the calm tone in his voice.

"This is like a home for me." He says as he brings his arms down before turning around to look at me.

He gives me a soft smile.

"And now it seems as I have found my second home." He gently mumbles. You look at him and smile, your heart beating fast against your chest, loud and clear.

Maybe that even he can hear it.

"Come on and join me." He says before turning around and lifting his arms in the air again. So you go next to him, by his side before lifting your arms in the air and breathe deep.

You feel the wind breeze against you, making you feel like your able to breathe comfortably and you close your eyes.

You see yourself.

No longer enchanted by the past due to jungkooks help.

In this moment, you felt you wounded heart, your mental and invisible scars disappear. You breathe deep enough to feel something. You breathe deep enough to believe.

That for once, Your able to breathe with no worries and get lost in the fresh wind.

Get lost with jungkook by your side.

"Is a home for you a place or feeling?" Jungkook ask. You with your eyes still closed, you answer him. "A feeling...but that feeling comes from a person so a person is my home. No place can ever compete with that." You gently say.

"Do you believe that humans need other humans to get through life?" He asks another question. "No." You mumble before opening your eyes and look at the scenery under the midnight blue sky.

"Humans shouldn't have to depend on others as people aren't always going to be there for you, that's why you learn to handle things on your own." You say before putting your arms down as you look down at the waters below you and that were below the city.

"Is it that what makes you feel like you need to be alone?" He ask, you turn to the side and look at him and see he's already looking at you.

But you noticed the saddens in his voice and his eyes.

Is he okay? You mentally ask yourself. "Okay kook what's with the question?" You ask gently as your worried. He chuckles. "It's nothing, these are just questions I wanted to ask as I tend to think about them a lot." He says before opening his arms.

He invites you in his embrace so you walk up to him and let him secure you in his arms.

You both go down on the ground and stay in each other's arms.

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