I have felt relief ever since I have helped you play your guitar, you have started playing again, often to say. I was glad to encourage you to play because I know how much your mothers guitar meant to you.

How much it meant to you to escape the real world for a little bit.

I see you not overworking yourself as much as you use to anymore due to your guitar which I'm glad because your able to get more rest.

It's now been a month, meaning it's December, Christmas is almost here and I'm excited as in this moment I'm going through store through store to see what to get you for a gift. I wanted to get your something that reminds me of you. I wanted to get you something that resembles you.

But dang, I didn't know it's hard to look for a special gift.

Is it that hard to get a gift to a girl? I think to myself but I think again as you weren't just any girl to me.

You are my girlfriend, my best friend, my family.

Your a special girl and I would probably cross the world to find a special gift just to see the warmth and sparkle in your eyes again. I have missed the look on your face when it lights up in happiness. I chuckle at the thought before walking into a jewelry story.

It's modern, black and white, faded black and white marble floors. I look around to see what I can get you even if I have enough time to plan on what to get you before Christmas as it's the the third of December.

I sigh trying to find something that catches my eyes.

Hoping that I will be able to find a good meaningful gift so that makes you take care of it deeply.

You groan as you tiredly sit up from your bed, you look to your left and see jungkook not by your side. You slightly frown but grab your phone to check the time. You see that it's eleven in the morning.

You stayed the night playing the guitar as ever since jungkook has helped you play it again, you were able to be stress free, well a little bit but it's better than nothing.

You sigh before getting up. You walk out of your room and hear laughter. You frown.

Not that you hate hearing people laugh but really...in the morning?

You walk down the steps and you silently groan. You see jungkook, Jonathan, jimin hanging up christmas decorations. You shaking your head repeatedly. "No no no." You whine, making the three boys look at you. You pout tiredly before flopping onto the couch. "Stop being so grumpy am, it's christmas season!" You whine even more. You hear the three male chuckle.

"Baby, do you hate Christmas?" You hear jungkook say, close to you. You lift your head from the cushion and tiredly look up at him. "Maybe." You only say before digging your face back to the cushion. Jungkook chuckles. "Well too bad because this year is different." You whine again. "I hate it here." You muffled to yourself. "Girl. Get. Your. Ass. Up." You hear krystal sternly say. You look up again and glare at her.

"What's so special about Christmas?" You say before sitting up on the couch. "She's always hated holidays." Jonathan says, trying to make me look like a bad person. You glare at Jonathan, before rolling your eyes, making Jonathan chuckle. Jimin gasp. "Christmas celebrates jesus birthday! Get to eat a lot of food and presents!" You shrug your shoulders. "So?" You reply, making jimin groan. "Where have you been all your life?" Jimin ask weirdly while shaking his head, continuing to decorate the large Christmas tree up with grey, blue, and clear ornaments.

"Working." You mumble to yourself. "Well when Christmas is over, I am not going to help you guys put all this cheesy decorations away, now if you excuse me, I'm going to freshen up." You say before quickly and tiredly walking up the steps and into your room.

You take out some comfy dark blue jeans and a black tan top with a white hoodie. You lay your clothes on the bed, you grab your towel and head into the bathroom.

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You quickly change after your shower at the sudden idea that has popped in your head while showering. When done changing into clothes, you quickly rush down the stairs.

"Yah!" You yell out the minute you enter in the living room, seeing krystal, Luna, jimin, jonathan and lastly jungkook watching something on the tv. They all look at you while their faces are stuffed in your snacks, you frown. "Oh come on, I barley bought those for me." You say. They all rush to hide the snacks and shrug their shoulders. You roll your eyes. "Okay anyways so I have an idea." You say, grabbing their attention, making them stop chewing on the snacks they were eating.

"Why don't we go celebrate christmas with kooks mom?" You nervously say before looking anywhere around your house, avoiding their eyes. As they were silent, you slowly look back at them and see jungkooks eyes have soften with a small smile.

"Yes! Since we didn't celebrate thanksgiving with her." Jimin says excitedly. "Well that's because she was celebrating it with her friends, while she gave jungkook permission to celebrate it with us this year." Jonathan says. You nod, jungkook stands up and walks towards you. You stiffen when he hugs you, surprising you.

You wrap your arms around him, rubbing his back. "Uh...you okay bunny boy?" Jungkook chuckles. You look behind jungkook and everyone else look at each other before going back to eating their snacks. "I'm fine baby, but yes, that's a good ide-" jungkook stops, pulling away from the hug. "Wait, are you sure you want to meet her? I mean we don't have too." You shake your head before ruffling his hair, his soft locks being run through your fingers. "I want to, besides I don't want her alone." Jungkook smiles.

"Just ask your mom if it's okay if we join." You gently say, jungkook nodding before embracing you in his arms again. "Thank you." He softly says, you smile in the embrace.

You felt guilty that jungkook celebrated thanksgiving with you instead of his mother despite she was celebrating it with friends and some family members and as well have jungkook permission.

So this time, even if it will somewhat be the first time meeting her in person, your nervous on giving her a bad impression. You and jungkooks mother have talked on the phone a few times when he would be on the phone with her while being around you so small talks were exchange here and there but in person will be different.

You also want to make an effort in this relationship and keeping your promise that you made with your grandmother. If you want to do better, you need to make an effort to be better.

You need to let go and breathe. Not drowning yourself in the constant fear of something always terrible happening if your happy.

So are you doing the right thing?

By trying and giving it a shot?

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Im sorry if this is boring but hey at least our baby amber is trying to move forward because it's true what bts said. "Life goes on." :')

Okay sorry not, love the BE album. :))

Okay so don't be afraid to tell me your thoughts / opinions about this chapter, I hoped you liked it though and you guys are for in a surprise the next upcoming chapters. 😏

Okay I'm off now and stay safe loves. <3

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