What happened between you and Smit? X

Who's askin'? X

It's ya boi. Skinny penis. X

That meme is as dead as I wish I was. X

You can't avoid it. Smit mentioned a girl. X

Yeah. Just need to learn to listen out for a response. X

You caught him kissing? X

What did he say to you? X

All he said was 'girls' and when I asked about the plural he admitted that it was more than just you. X

Yeah. I am being petty. I need to get over it. X

So you caught him kissing? X

No. He wasn't kissing. I did see him kiss her so say goodbye after. X

That isn't bad. What's the issue? X

They were doing more than a simple kiss. X

Don't give the nasties but give me a frame by frame. X

He had asked me to bring him a package if anything came for him. Because life. I did that but decided to knock. I never normally do but I felt like I had to. When I walked in it was clear that they had been kissing but the knock got his attention. He had his back to me so I saw nothing but I could see her. They were at it. X

Ah. Much worse than just a kiss. Sry bby. X

Thanks. How's it at your end? X

Single and lonely. X

Same. Maybe we can be lonely together. X

That isn't how it works but you are smooth. X

I know I am. That's how I do it. Flirt to break my heart. You know, I like the way my heart feels when it's broken. X

You still want him? X

Even if I did it's too late and he has moved on. Just tough to see. It was like walking in on Pete all over again. X

That was one messed up relationship. X

One messed up girl. X

I still love you bby. X

I love you more John. I really do. X

Now go and spread your spawn. Find a random pool and jack off. Get 'em pregnant. X

Bye to you too. X

I had barely finished messaging when the computer loaded and I set off. No recording just playing. Sometimes content could do the waiting.

It didn't last for long as my Discord sounded and my heart bounced. I saved my game and answered the call while closing the full game down.

When I turned around Jaren stood in the corner. My door had been closed but magic happened when headphones were put on.

"Sorry, Smii7y. I didn't see you. How can I help you?" He was silent whilst looking at me and then the screen.

"Um. I just thought you might like to watch with Jasmine and me." I shook my head and twitched one side of my nose up to show I didn't.

"Thanks but no. I will continue playing Sims. Sorry." Jaren left and I watched him. Hopes of him not remembering what Matt and I had spoken of wafted but were soon forgotten.

I hung my head and said a glum goodbye to Matt. He seemed unsure as to how best he could deal with it. I understood why. In the past, I just opened up to him. Suddenly, I had stopped.

When I closed it all down I realised that it was Friday. Then I realised why Jaren had asked if I fancied watching with him. We did it every Friday. Even when we had broken up. We watched something but I was on the other side of the sofa. By turning him down, Jaren must have realised that we had no more relationship. That sucked.

I sat on the edge of my bed. Notifications hit my phone and I just turned it off when the notification for an incoming call appeared. I wasn't in the mood to live. Living was not my forte. Surviving was easy but thriving was not at all my cup of tea. Not at that very point.