Arms extended and the duvet fell to my cold waist. I pulled it back up and then held it there as I found a top and threw it on so my thighs were half covered. The white top was a thick one and I held it close as the long ass sleeves met past my fingers. My socks that I had out on met my ankle and were so thick nothing could penetrate them.

My body moved from the room down to the kitchen where I made myself some cereal to tide me over until I could be arsed to make a more substantial meal. I picked at the food and finally I felt adequately full. Just as I was on my way to head upstairs to get dressed a little better, a bra was needed, the doorbell was rung.

I walked up to the door and peeped out. A man stood there and I took a further second to swing the door open. I smiled kindly as this happened and the man who was on the other side looked me over once and looked at him awkwardly. I tried to soothe the situation but I was awkward so it didn't go too far.

"Mr Smith?" I nodded and then realised that it would be odd for me to claim to be a Mr.

"My roommate. My first initial is E." He put it into his device and I signed for it. Clearly, his brother's parcel had arrived and so my next action would be to give it to him. I was on my way upstairs anyway so it made sense.

"Thanks. Have a good day." I closed the door after saying this and looked the box over. It was a large one and it seemed to be very heavy. I shrugged and walked it up the wooden steps. The fluffy socks keeping me silent.

I never knocked before walking in but some part of me was compelled to knock and so I did. Only, I did not wait for a response as the wood was slammed open and my eyes sprang open further. What met me was not a good thing. I moved so quickly that I may have done a little damage but the whiplash would be a hell of a lot better than staying there. All I could do was place the box on the closest surface to me.

I was shaking slightly and never could such an image leave my mind. Without thinking though I jumped into my car and drove. But after ten minutes I realised that I had no idea where I could go. Matt may be busy at work and everyone else would be busy. Not to mention in America.

Pulling over, the car stopped running and my hands hit the wheel over and over. I had lost my cool and that did not happen easily. I could be blamed but that still hurt. Tears mounted on my face and I wiped them all away.

My phone buzzed and it came up in my car. The silence of my tears had been suddenly interrupted by the buzz. Jaren's name was on the screen and I just watched as it left my sight again as the call was automatically sent to voicemail. Only, a second later his name appeared again. Not my day.

After almost an hour of incessant calling and crying it stopped. I sighed and looked at the road again. Hardly anyone was there and I thought about going to see Matt again but he was busy. If he ever had an issue it was about how busy Monday was for him at work.

My phone buzzed again and I freaked for a second. Only the name wasn't 'Milko Bago' it was 'Vaper101'. John was a beautiful man. I loved him. Picking up my phone I scrolled the message down. So that it didn't say I had read it. But I had.

Smit just phoned in a huff. Have you been on the road? Ignoring him? He didn't say what it was but he kept saying that he had messed up bad. X

If you are ignoring me too we aren't going to film together for a week. X

I swear Eleos. I love you but you need to talk to me or Smit. X

Can you tell me what happened? Maybe I can help you. Serve judgement. X

The truth was, we weren't together. Jaren had free agency but so did I and I was not going to let that pass. The car began again as I set off. Not sure where to go. Home was an option. I could have run and moved out. See how long I would last.

But I couldn't. The car made a turn at the next roundabout and I was on my way back to the house. That was when it all came to me again. No anger was felt towards Jaren but I was annoyed at myself. I had told him we were friends and that was all we were but I still missed him. Not like a 'I need to see you' but a 'I need to feel you hug me' sort of way.

I had to pop into a shop for some fruit that should have been fresh and also some milk. By the time I was back home the drive was busy.

As I pulled up into the drive, I saw the same female from before. I was tempted to drive past but I pulled in, just in time for the amazing chance to watch them kiss. It was the first time I had seen them kiss. Tears then threatened and I put on my big girl pants to face it and I turned off the engine.

As soon as Jaren had seen or noticed me at the end of the drive he kept his eyes open, even in the kiss, and basically threw her to the curb. Only I felt that a lot more of that girl was going to be seen.

I climbed out and walked into the house a little relaxed. I had dealt with the worst of it and his face was something I had spent the past months forcing into the friend zone.

"Eleos." I placed the fruit and milk away and by the time that had happened I was in the zone to respond. A smile was placed onto my lips and our eyes met.

"Yes, Jaren." There was no question. I knew he was only speaking to see my reaction and I was calm. "What did your brother get you?" He gave me a look of uncertainty, eyebrows together and eyes wide. Not to mention the perked up lips.

"Food from Australia and Germany. He was on a three-month tour of the two." I gave a nod and wiped the kitchen's cabinets up. Clearly, cleaning a mess the woman had made. Jaren knew to clean up after himself.

"Sorry about that. I wasn't thinking." Only, my cereal was out. He hadn't been the one to make the mess. Jaren hated my cereal so when I waved the box he seemed to bite his tongue.