Hands touched my sides and my hands had to push them off. My eyes looked away as he stood there. My body loved the sun but I wanted to cover up.

"I told you that I wanted someone who I had no ability to control myself around. A girl I can't watch without me. Someone that loves me and I love." His eyes glanced over me as his hands moved back to my waist. I let his touch stay there for a while longer before a pressure was felt.

Jaren was lowering his head and my head twitched up. Our lips were basically, for all intents and purposes, touching. When my arm got between us and we stopped there. Not a single inch closer or further apart.

"Jaren. I was with Pete. He hurt me so bad but with him, I knew where I stood. I knew that if I woke up in the morning he would hurt me. He didn't hide it, pretend or say what he thought I wanted to hear. He didn't do what you did. And in so many ways, what you did is worse." The tears slipped down but still, I wanted him and I felt no movement.

"I didn't realise what I wanted. I had no clue about you either." His eyes also held large tears. I didn't want to wipe them just in case he moved.

"What would be so bad about going for it again? I mean, I wasn't that bad was I?" All I did was think for a moment. Nothing could pass my lips without it running through my mind a thousand times.

"Jaren. You made me feel cheap. Like some quick kiss. I don't mind a quick kiss. I have had them before but I knew. I was aware of the fact that every time he phoned there was a chance he was ending it. But I didn't mind. Because we made it clear from the get-go. Jaren, I felt like I was worth nothing, one of your stepping stones to the next stage of your life." Finally, his eyes moved down to me. We caught a glimpse of each other's eyes and couldn't let go.

"Please don't cry." He didn't move and with that, I realised what had been happening in his head. The way I had been thinking that I hoped it would never end and we could be like statues, he had been feeling it. His eyes showed how precious he found me.

"I could say the same thing to you." Not for a second did either of us look away. Blinks left us the largest time to miss each other. Even then we seemed to blink at the same time.

A hand lifted to my face and then another as he wiped the tears away with his thumbs. I fell into his hands slightly but had to stop as our lips were so close. With every word, our lips had met and I felt the familiar soft skin of his lips.

The sound of the door opening left us to pull away from each other. Our hands stayed in the warm comfort of the other person's hands until we walked apart. It was Craig.

"Maybe we could still be friends." I gave as a whisper whilst waving Craig out of the house. His phone in hand. Pretending not to see that something had been going on. With a Jaren keeping his back to the door and my red eyes, Craig had to know.

By the time the door closed, I found myself at the front of Jaren. His face still holding onto the tears. My hands moved up and the quick move of my hands removed the salty water.

"Jaren, I love you too." My arms moved up to over his shoulders and at my low height, it was quite a challenge. It was helped by the gradual lowering of Jaren as he gave into my antics.

"You heard that?" I laughed as my arms got comfortable. Only for him to lift me up and hold me close to him. His forearms were beneath my butt and my head was finally above his. His hand lifted and pulled my hair down. It flew down to cover both of our faces.

"Don't touch a girl's hair." It was a joke but I was a little aware of how gross it was. All of his face was covered by my hair, from the light, and I had to flip my hair back to keep it from suffocating him.

"Thicc hair. And booty." My hands wrapped over his upper arms and I tightened my grip to stay where I was with a little more safety and security.

Jaren began to walk into the lounge area and he sat down. I was between his legs but soon I moved to his side. The TV was then turned on and I watched a little. slowly my head fell to his arm and then I picked myself up. Pulled at his arm and nestled into the space between his arm and body. My head fell onto his chest and one of my hands fell to his stomach or waist on the other side of his body.

My eyes felt heavy as I realised that I had fallen into a deep sleep and yet I had stayed as I was. Only, John was there. It was like the first time we kissed. I had to hold back one large smile when I remembered that.

"So have you two sorted things out now? Or, I assume you have." He was near the door but I had closed my eyes and so had no clue but one thing I did know was that Jaren had not been supporting me properly and so I had to adjust my position.

"Yeah." Was all Jaren said though, even I felt the 'but' that he was holding back. In the silence, I slipped down slightly to lay in his lap. My shoulder was on the edge of him as I shuffled back slightly. To prop my head up in a comfortable place. I was still facing out though.

"But?" Finally, John had asked and suddenly I realised that it was wrong to listen in on his words. Only, if I left or woke up we had to separate and that was not acceptable for me. I wanted him.

"We are friends. Eleos was right about it all, friends. The more I think about it the more I agree. Nah, you can see right through me. It is true. I don't want this but she is talking to me and I can talk to her which is better than this morning. I love her and she loves me in a different way. One that leaves me being a single dude." John then sat down on the sofa beside Jaren but it was so obnoxious that I jumped slightly. The grip that Jaren had on me tightened.

"Sorry. Didn't realise I was even tired. I have to stop doing this." I climbed up and moved to the kitchen. I was still wearing nothing or next to and so I decided to dress in a little bit more.

Then I changed my mind. A bikini was put on. It just about covered what it had to and my skin was visibly darker where the sun had hit me the two days before.

I left my room and Kelly wolf-whistled me. I laughed her off and headed outside. Placing a towel on the decking outside before I ran to the sea. The beach was oversized and also hot but when I got into the water I felt cold run up my legs.