《ɪ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ʏᴏᴜ》XIX
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Out of all people I never thought Jungkook would be the one with whom I feel calm and safe.
After we left from college he buckled me in, and kept driving. He didn't say a word, he just kept quiet with his hand in mine.
I was very thankful he didn't say anything or ask anything yet. I thought he was bringing me home but he brought me to a beach.
Lifting me up to sit on his hood he went inside the car and came back with snacks and chocolates.
I was just sitting there looking at the view in front of me.
The sea is now covered by the hue of orange because of the sun.
Sometimes we dream in the colours borrowed from the sea. I wanted to Dance with the waves, move with the sea. Let the rhythm of the water set my soul free.
But my body was feeling so numb I was so tired from the emotions that were swirling inside me. I wanted to just throw those feelings as this sea Throws. I wanted to wash all this in the waves.
"You are not going to ask me why I am being like this or what made me like this?".
Jungkook didn't answer so I turned to face him as he was already studying me intensely trying to see what I have been hiding. I would have broken the eye contact and hide all the feelings which I am sure present in my eyes. But I didn't I just let him see me, the vulnerable side I rarely show.
Other things his eyes are holding me captivate, it's a trap I can't help but fall in deep. His eyes hold the light and intensity that could blind and burn me, surprisingly the intensity neither blinds me nor burns me. It calms me down, soothing and healing me little by little.
As if they know I am talking about them as they shyly let the curtain fall.
The hair fell on his eyes slightly covering the enticing view. I put my hand forward to move it. As Jungkook just lets me do it while still staring at me.
I broke into a smile, a genuine smile for the first time in the past hour. The darkness didn't have enough power to take me. You can say Jungkook was somewhat guarding me without him knowing. It's actually a fight between me and darkness but the fight which I already gave up a long time ago.
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Still Jungkook stood besides me fighting it, not letting it win this time darkness was not stronger to win against him no one ever was.
He wrapped his palm on my wrist brushing his hair" I am dying to ask. I am so curious it's hurting me not to know, but I am going to wait till you feel you are ready to tell me".
I burst out laughing at him, I might look crazy but he looked so serious which is so cute. It's illegal.
You are wondering just a moment ago I was having a mental breakdown close to having a panic attack and now I am laughing like a madwoman. He doesn't judge me, doesn't even ask why I am laughing, he just lets me.
I told you darkness couldn't take me away from Jungkook. I was feeling so much better now. The serenity Jungkook brought me is so unreal. I couldn't define it,sometimes somethings couldn't be described just like my feelings and what he makes me feels couldn't be.
The effect he has on me is terrifying. I am scared but when I am with him I am not worried about my demons getting me. They remain in the cage rattling the railings to let them out. They remain inside as if fearing him.
I am me with him, the vulnerable me, the real me with the guard down. I don't know why I could let my guard down. I am petrified.
I usually shut people when I even start caring. I never let it grow this much with him. I can't.
"So how about this let's talk about ourselves to get to know each other, I have come to know I don't know much about you".
He suggests I highly doubt he doesn't know because sometimes he knows me better than I even know myself. He knows before I even have to tell him I feel.
"OK so tell me what's your story what made you, You as in fuckboy, so cocky cold distant?".
He smirked at me"You are not going to make this easy for me, aren't you? ".
I just clicked my tongue and grinned.
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" I am so grateful you think so highly of me" He said sarcastically as I just giggled.
"I don't sleep with everyone with a hole between their legs, and please most of them just throw themselves at me".
I gave him a gross look"Do you know how dickish you sound? "
" What it's true they do that all the time it's not my fault".
"Cocky bastard". I muttered under my breath as he just laughed.
"No but seriously even if they do I don't just go around sleeping with them, I agree I might sleep with some but not everyone I also have standards to maintain".
I looked at him with wide eyes"No but what really made you like this cold a distant, you are good with everyone but a little cold and distant you are not like that around Jimin, Hobi, Leah now even Yoongi, why? You are clearly avoiding and diverting the topic by your assholeness".
He rolled his eyes at me" As observant as a goddamn hunting lioness, you are not going to let this go? ".
I shook my head as a no, he sighed and leaned back looking at the sea.
"No one made me who I am now, it's just who I am. It's like a defense mechanism for me being a dick you can say it's what some people actually Boosted. I learned being like how I am makes them respect you know you but I was wrong they will either use you for money or sex or they need something no one stays with us without a reason, high school gave me that reason, they didn't care to know who exactly I am all they cared about my money my looks no one really knew seem to so I stayed a little distant and cold as you put so I was trying to fit in but then I got to know where I exactly fit with whom. Only people close to me knows how actually I am".
I looked at him empathetically, I kind of feel bad for judging him too much at times. The front he put up was that I am spending time with him getting to know me. He is really a soft person with a kind heart. He is just like others but he is still marvelously different.
"It's not your fault, it's how society made us, stereotypical I know because at some point we all try to fit in,you know like Darwin's theory Survival of the fittest." I said, leaning my head on his shoulder.
You don’t need everyone to agree with you or even like you. It’s human nature to want to belong, to be liked, respected and valued, but not at the expense of your integrity and happiness. Other people cannot give you the validation you seek. That has to come from inside.
Oh god it feels so good, I want to capture this moment so badly but for sure it's as permanently stamped in my memory. His shoulder is so comfortable I closed my eyes as the sea breeze kissed my cheeks, the smell relaxing my body as I leaned more in his shoulder. One thing You can't stop waves but you need to learn to dance with it as every wave hits the shore every time it leaves a piece for us to learn. Waves hitting are feet which can't be stopped. It is like life challenging us. We should not stop but learn something new from it.
Not everything we see or think is true, every perspective is different just like looking up at the sky from the down. The possibilities keep on increasing just like the wide sky. It's just there, it's just we who move. So learn and embrace.
I have been living too much in the past and what possibly could happen now I need to just let it go. Embrace what happens, learn not forget. And I am going to do it before it's too late.
I won't let it trap me again. We can't undo the past, we just have to move forward rather than being stuck there.
Even if it's painful we can't rewrite it but we definitely can do things to ease it.
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Lucifer King
His lips broke away from mine leaving me panting like crazy and made their way to my cheek. Leaving a hot trail of kisses from my cheek to my collarbone, brushing the tip of his nose against my skin, his mouth moved up to my ear and I could feel his hot breath prickling my skin."What's your name sweetheart ?" He spoke for the first time and I was shaken to my core, my eyes rolling back from the pleasure that my body and mind were experiencing.His voice is as smooth and soft as silk, and at the same time as rough and cold as a stone. He sounds like an angel and a demon at the same time. How is that even possible?------------------Lust, Pride, Greed, Envy, Wrath, Gluttony, and Sloth. The Seven Deadly Sins, gathered inside a creature so powerful, that he can destroy the world and let all Hell break loose in the span of a minute. He brings death and destruction everywhere he goes, making people succumb to their desires since forever.He is the son of God. The first and only Fallen Angel. The ruler of all sins. He is the King of Hell.The Devil.He is Lucifer King.*!Slow updates!*Warning! Mature and sexual content !!10 in #Satan 03/11/217 in #Devil - 26/12/201 in #Hell - 02/04/21
8 228Bound by Fate
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8 130A Dance With Hades
I move my foot back to try and run away but they notice my subtle movement and stop whispering."I wouldn't do that," the man in the navy suit says while lifting his gun. He doesn't point it at me but he might as well just shoot me already."You run, we'll catch you, then maybe kill you," the man with the big gun says and I quickly nod. "Good girl," he chuckles.He gets back to whispering with his two friends and I stay motionless, not attempting to get myself shot.Why do they even want to take me home? I'm just some random girl that probably walked just walked into a murder scene.Shit.----What happens when the King, a man dubbed as Hades, is in need of a Queen?He possesses her angelic soul with his devilish ways and infects her with his chaotic love, filling her with his poison.She will step onto the dancefloor and he will take her hand, crowning her as his queen, the queen of the underworld.
8 450Covered Edges
"You're just too much fun to mess with," he jokes, his smile transforming into a glowing smirk.My cheeks heat, but this time with anger. My tolerance has worn completely thin."Would you let me go?" I ask spitefully. I feel like a broken record.He pushes off of the desk and takes a step back. Before I even realize what I'm doing, I slap him square across the cheek. Shock is plastered on his face, and I'm sure it is on mine too. I stand there in awe of what I just did. It was so sudden I'm not even sure I decided to do it but rather my indignation controlling me.Steadily, Damon's face morphs from shocked to entertained. I immediately regret my action, but I'm not completely stupid; I race for the door like there's no tomorrow."You'll regret that!" I hear Damon yell as I'm running away.~Sugar, spice, and everything nice~ A story about drama, sarcasm, love, and twists, with a little bad boy guilty pleasure mixed in between.
8 158My Hot Demon✔
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8 91Can't Stand You
I closed my eyes tightly until I heard laughing. No, I could feel the laughing. My eyes sprang open to find Miles on top of me. I was laying flat on my back in the dirt with my glove with the ball inside pressed against his chest. Miles was not at all fat, but he was 6'2 compared to my barely 5'3.I could feel his chest rumbling and shaking with laughter as I lay humiliated on the ground."I didn't know you liked being on the bottom," Miles said loudly.The whole field cracked up with that. I struggled under him and shoved him off of me. All of the guys were howling with laughter as I got up and swiped all the dirt off me. "Pervert," I muttered, before tossing the ball out of my glove to hit him in the thigh. I stalked across the field without another word. The whole team was in hysterics as I shoved all my things in my bag and practically ran off to get away....Gloria is like any other 17 year old girl getting ready for summer break, but this summer is going to be completely different. Gloria has been playing baseball since she could remember and has been invited to a national baseball camp. Being a girl in the world of a male-dominated sport, she couldn't even count how many times people have told her she needed to find something else to do. Her dad kept her playing though, even after he died a few years ago, that didn't stop Gloria from doing what she loved. The only problem is she is the only girl at the camp for three months. Enter the problem of suddenly having to share a room, more specifically, sharing with Miles Harris. Gloria must deal with Miles, a big shot and arrogant jerk, and all the other horny, testosterone driven baseball players, who just might push Gloria off the edge of sanity.Trigger warning: mention and vague description of SA
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