carla

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"you know being drunk is overrated"

"i said, being drunk is overrated"

"its just that getting drunk and being drunk is messy and pointless...you're not gonna remember that night the next morning"

"oh yesterday i went to a party with my friend cynthia—thia for short— and she got shitfaced. it was so bad"

"i mean it was a big big party so i did nothing and hung around the kitchen."

"and then i had to take care of thia because she couldnt even walk."

"..."

"oh wait what were you saying again?"

"is it because i care about my grades? because that is the blantant nerd stereotype."

"nah thats fine. i dont party party. like im not that, social? but with a small group of good friends i allow myself to have some fun..."

"i wont ever drink or smoke cigarettes or do cocaine or whatever but once in a while ill indulge myself in some pot"

"i hope you dont judge me for it because then we will have a real problem...but it can be kinda fun? moreso relaxing i guess"

"all you can say nowadays is 'oh'?"

"haha very funny. but dude, im not trynna romanticize this shit or make you feel pressured to go out and party"

"yes. but please dont feel pressured!! partying,smoking,drinking, and snorting and god knows whatever else isnt that cool as its portrayed. and it doesnt make you cool."

"to let loose a little. get rid of some of the stress. its not a regular thing that i do and its not something i do when i have major tests or whatever."

"haha no..."

"oh yes. i need you to tutor me!"

"oh no! thats fine! it can be over the phone. im just really bad with precalc. ugh!"

"sure! bye jord"

"oh oops. jordan."

hi guys!! we are so close to 300 read lmao but also bonus because why not [definitely not because i was SUPER productive today]! i planned out the rest of the book, and im sad...its gonna be about 32 chapters and i know theres gonna be one hard part to write. the vision for this book has changed but im ok with that because my characters need that. im so so sad that im almost done writing this book and proud of what has become—cant wait to rewrite though! also didnt mean to make this chapter a psa lol

-lila