yo Sky Rose up high in the sky

shut ya bitch ass up

Get yo emo ass up

I'm gonna kill you for calling me emo

why are you such a moody bitch today

ITS MONDAY, DAMMIT

can we please REWIND, I'm not ready

too bad, get up

only if you bring me food

you're expecting the unexpected

you should stop

expect what?

Me bringing you food

I'm not a zookeeper why should I feed you?

I thought you like me

I don't like you

that's not what you were saying in first grade

STOP THAT

I DIDN'T HAVE VERY HIGH STANDARD THEN

do you remember in third grade again?

you're very lucky there's a phone and five miles between us

or what?

you'd kiss me again?

ew why did I said that. That's gross

Your life is gross

your relationship is gross

your lack of relationship is gross

I GET IT BYE ASSHOLE

Bye emo

On my way to the lunch table with Dan and Hayley, I accidentally bump into somebody then I stopped.

"Sorry," I look up and Taylor's face turned a bright red. Awkward much?

"I am so sick of your existence," she raises her voice suddenly which makes me raises an eyebrow.

"I said I was sorry,"

"God, you're such a stalker, why don't you kill yourself like what your brother did that could've been better."

She just said that? I can feel my chest pounding.

"Stop mentioning my brother," I warn her. Alex suddenly comes up and smiles briefly at me. Taylor grabs Alex's hand and pulls him towards the table.

"Bitch alert," Dan rolls his eyes. "Yeah," I mumble.

I set my food down on the table and sit across Dan and Hayley.

Why don't you kill yourself like what your brother did

No. Ashton didn't killed himself.

"Sky, are you alright?" Hayley asks in concerned.

"I guess," I can feel my eyes start to form tears.

Sky, are you alright?

I'm good

you didn't spoke anything after lunch

I'm just tired

bullshit

she's bothering you didn't she?

It hurts when people think my brother killed himself

I know

and why did she said I'm a stalker anyway?

probably some pathetic idea of an insult

maybe

just ignore that stupid ass hoe

I never thought you'd still care

I love you, okay? You're my best friend

even if I feed you with bunch of shits daily

but you've been my friend since forever

not to mention you're my first kiss BAE

and Ashton hated me for that

he didn't hate you, he's just being a protective brother

I don't want to see you're sad, okay?

now cheer up, slut

I love you too asshole.

I miss her, for real I miss Sky. It's been three days. It's ridiculous when I feel like I want to talk to her and back to our daily basis. With lots of stupid topics, make her laugh and tell her I love her or wish her a goodnight sleep.

It kills me. But not as bad as three days ago, but I have periods of ups and downs. I'll miss her more someday and the weekend was a lot harder than today. At least when it schools day I have the chance to see her. I wonder if she felt the same?

The entire lunchtime was spent hearing Taylor complaining about Sky. How Sky's a stalker, a weirdo, a freak and so on. I wanted to walk away so badly, but I couldn't since Taylor already went through my phone and saw Sky's contact. Well, thankfully not the text.

Then I made a stupid lie that Sky got my number and been texting me for some study purpose.

Now, Taylor thinks Sky's a stalker whose interested in me even though it's the exact opposite.

Sky looked so upset in sixth period after Taylor spoke to her at lunch. I wonder what did she told her. If she didn't push me away this shits wouldn't happened.

Moving on wasn't easier than I ever thought. It is much harder than I intended it to be. I thought I could just turn around and pretend like nothing ever happened. But I can't since it's driving me fully insane.

Six nights and seven days. Seven long and depressing days. I never realized how much I relied on this person to entertain me until now. I always thought of him as some kind of distraction. Maybe I was being stupid when I said I needed space. Dan was right, how many space do I need?

But you just said it. I know and now I miss him so much. With his stupid pick up lines and all those random shit. It really entertains me to change his name without him knowing and it was even funnier when he knew.

Sky stop.

Dannnyyyy I'm bored, entertain me please

I'm not your private entertainer

for fuck's sake just TALK TO HIM

don't be rude to your mother, son

you're an idiot

so are you

I think I might have a crush on Alex

noyou're not

why? you're jealous?

wait I remember something in freshmen year

you wrote it in your stupid pink diary that you liked him, in Math class and you didn't realize I was peeking

WHAT THE FUCK?!!

I should be telling you a long time ago, but I always forgot

Dear Diary, Alex was so hot

fuck stop I didn't wrote that

Dear Diary, I wish he could notice me once

OMFG shut up!

I'm pretty sure you were imagining him when I kissed you

SHUT THE FUCK UP DANIEL!

so I'll take it as an approval

ACCEPT IT BITCH THAT IT'S NOT HIS LIPS HAAA :)))))))))))

you're weird pls staph

If you tell anyone about that diary thing, I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL MURDER YOU

NEVER

Dan I'm lonely

do you think I should talk to him?

Well

you're too bad at this friend thing

I just like giving you a ration of shit

I am giving her space and it's been seven days. Seven fucking days since Sky told me she needed space.

So far this moving on thing is going well, I guess.

In fact, I'm trying to ask Taylor out on a date. I think this is the first time we've been on an actual date since Homecoming of last year. Usually we're just hanging out with some friends throwing a party. Maybe it should be nice to hang out with her alone for a bit like the old times back like in the freshmen year.

hey babe

can I take you on a date? (:

Taylor turns around and smiles before looking back down at her phone.

<3: Okay (: where?

movies?

That'll be great

pick you up at six?

okay. I love you

 love you too

For a split of a second I thought I was talking to Sky. Maybe I should be talking to her? It seems as every hour creeps past I think of her less. I think that first and sixth period are the hardest since she's always the first person there. I just sit in the class room watching people coming in and she's never fazed by her surroundings. She's just texting. Who is she texting anyway?

Why would you care, Alex? You're going out with Taylor

I'm not going out with her, it's just some friends hanging out thing, nothing serious. Maybe a movie night with Taylor will be a distraction to get over her. I can spend some time with someone who truly likes me than wasting my time chasing someone who never wants me. Pathetic I know.

Deep down, I have this desire that I should talk to her, because I really hate seeing cliché romance movie.

***********

you looked nice tonight

thank you babe

that movie was cute and sad tho

Haa. No it wasn't and I'm glad you didn't realize I've fallen asleep. That was god awful movie. Two hours of chasing and back-and-forth till the girl finally belongs to someone else. So ironic.

yeah

maybe we can go for a dinner tomorrow?

please not sonic

I promise, I'll be better

okay

night love

night Alex

God, I wish this was Sky. Sky wouldn't like boring romance movie and she'd always stayed up all night watching Netflix. She likes horror and comedy. I'm sure we'd spend good time in cinema watching comedy where she would laugh until she's out of breathe.

I remember that one time in sixth period when I send her jokes and she laughed so hard. It was the cutest thing ever because it was only her and I in the room and her face turned bright red when she realize I was there.

I miss you Sky Rose.