what If I'm Alex?

Idk what to say

: That'll be weird

bc I like you, I mean, I love you as a friend

why, are you Alex?

no I just made up question since I have nothing to ask anymore

ok, I believe you

you talk about him a lot you know?

you do too

bc he annoys me a lot

I'm just trying to be relatable I guess

seriously this is driving me crazy bc I want to know who you exactly are

we talked a lot of stuff but I don't know you

it makes me feel like I'm talking to a chatbot, I think we should stop a bit

I see you're pushing me away again

: I need time to figure out, everything is just so confusing and stressing me out

how can I possibly like you if I don't know you

I'm sorry

With a frustrated sigh, I shove my phone back in my jacket. I walk past the hall to my first period class and I saw Sky sitting in the front row with her head on the desk. She was in deep thought until she didn't notice I walked past her.

Worse of all I feel like such a huge idiot. I should've told her the truth when I had a chance instead of keep playing this coward games. I should've just told her everything at the party.

I was foolish to think that I could change her mind when I know that she will never, ever feel the same way about me.

It's time to move on. Yes, seriously this should stop. I've tried everything and I'm tired for wasting my time on a girl who doesn't bother to even look at me.

There's only so much you can try to do before feeling like you're just riding a dead-end road.

Plain and simple. Move on. If she really cares, she'll make an attempt this time.

When first period class has ended, I walk past the hallway to get to the toilet but suddenly I saw Taylor in the middle of the hall chatting with some of her friends. I make an attempt to strive towards her.

"Taylor," She ignores me and walked away.

"Taylor wait up," my voice was a little higher this time.

"What do you want Alex?" I can sense the hostility in her voice.

"Can we meet up at Sonic after school?" I have no idea what am I doing. She fakes laughed before responding to my request.

"After you dumped me? No,"

"I didn't dump you, we weren't together before,"

"What is your intention actually, Alex?" She asks.

"I- I just missed you," Nahh.. I'm just moving on from Sky.

"Fine, you're lucky I still love you and I miss you too," Wow, easier than I ever thought.

"I'll see you after school," I said with a small smile and she leans on giving a peck on my left cheek.

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I hate this. I'm really confused right now. I like this guy for real I won't lie. But I literally don't know anything about him. This whole secrecy thing is not easy. Everytime I talk to him it's like I won't stop. I'd rather stayed up all night and day just to talk to him. There is nothing super exciting but I really enjoy his company but I just wish he could tell me who he is.

I'm starting to get sick of this whole back-and-forth game. It doesn't worth it at all he's going to leave this school for no longer and for sure he'll be leaving me behind so all I need is to move on before it's too late. My phone starts buzzing in my pocket I swear if it's him-

ayoo mama, sonic after school?

sure, is Hayley coming?

no, how are you and your sugar daddy?

I told him I need space to figure out

dear lord, you guys are TEXTING, how much more space you need?

seriously shut up, you're not helping at all

MAKE ME

why are you always so annoying?

why are you always so bitchy?

I don't know how Hayley could stand you

I don't know how I could stand you

bye asshole. I hope your phone taken away.

****

"What are you getting hoe,"

"Cheeseburger and regular coke"

"Emo,"

"Dipshit," I retort.

As we take a seat with our food, I check my phone for any text. Wait, why should I expect a text?

I told him I needed space. I get close to him and then I push him away. I'm just so fuck-up. No wonder he keeps his identity away from me.

"Oh, look Alex and his side bitch," I turn my head to the right and I see Alex and Taylor sitting down next to us.

"We should go,"

"Why? Wait I thought she's being dumped and now she's been taken back? What a trash,"

"Hey it's not nice to say that, Daniel," I spoke sarcastically.

"Whatever, that girl treats me like shit, now she's just a piece of trash with a rubbish man," I snorted. Dan starts laughing really loud and I notice Alex jerked his head to our direction. He immediately turned around and shifted his body

I can feel Taylor giving us the stink eye from her seat. It entertains me so much when she's annoyed. Mostly she will take her anger out on Alex and then Alex gets annoyed.

This isn't helping my moving on. She's here with Dan since it's Friday this is her usual spot to hang out with her friends how could I forgot? I wonder what her and Dan are laughing about.

Probably me.

"I'm glad you still wanna hang out with me." She scoots closer. "I miss you so much and all the good old days,"

I rubbed her hand. "Yeah, I miss you too," I said sheepishly.

"Seriously those two losers over there starts to aggravate me,"

"Just ignore them babe," I squeeze her hand briefly.

We're sitting here for almost a few minutes and Taylor won't stop talking about random shit.

Talking about how school has too much work for her to handle. She talked briefly about prom and grad bash and how she wants my opinion on her dress.

I ignore her most of the time with a simple answer while my mind trails on what Sky is talking about with Dan. She seems happy with her life without me bothering her.

I wonder does Dan know what happens or did he even told her it was me?

Of course not because would've said something. Dear lord, I wish Taylor would-

"Shut up,"

"What?" Did I say that outloud?

"Sorry, what did you say?" Taylor seems to absorbed with my lies. She shifts in her seat and huff.

"I was saying about my dress.. What color should I pick?"

Oh my lord. Shut up. Please.

yo

sup'?

: I'm just bored

are you and Taylor back together?

Idk.. I mean we're really not "back together" yet

I thought you liked Sky?

what else should I do when she doesn't

yeah right. Have you tried talking to her yet?

she pushed me away

do you need help? Like should I talk to her?

NO

calm down bruh. Fine I won't

thanks.. for trying to help

: no problem bruh only because Hayley is obsessed over you

so I thought I'll look cool when being your friend

oh..that's fucked up

I'll date her

nahh bruh

stay on your own side with those two chicks you've got there