how the words come Chapter 74
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let me tell you how
i write.
when my grandparents
read my book for the first time,
they called me asking me if i was sad.
i remember a time when i would have said yes.
would have told them that the bloody imagery
and the gaping pit oozing metaphors was a mirror
of how i feel all the time.
but today, i smile.
today, i laugh at such an idea—
me, sad.
me, not over you.
me, broken.
you see, there's a small part of me
that is just that—
sad, broken, not over you (etc.)
but it is barely a chip of my heart.
a lone dust particle floating in clean air.
when i want to write about you
like you still make my lungs feel stapled
to the wall with my rib cage,
like you still have your claws sunk into my stomach,
i visit this place.
it is dark there.
there is no light switch i can flip on when i enter,
though maybe that is for the best.
if it were light i may be forced to see your face.
but when i walk in, i can hear your laughter.
i take a seat on the ground and i can feel your hand brushing away my hair.
i let the nausea flood my throat
and i let the tears flow
and i grab the pen.
i let what now is an ounce of hurt
grow again until it weighs enough to crush me.
like it once did.
when the poem ends,
i stand up and swallow the pain
down,
down,
down,
until i am once again smiling,
once again laughing
at the notion of the monster you were.
i lock the door when i leave.
put the key in my pocket.
i do not know if i will ever be able
to throw it away.
-c.h.
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