"Please come here more often." My mom says handing me my coat.

"I'll try my best." I hug my mom and she gives me a kiss on the cheek.

"Drive safe,"

"We will."

"Thank you so much for letting us stay." Sapnap says waving before leaving. We get into the car and I start to drive away. Sapnap got the aux cord and started to play his music, we all sang to the songs and jammed out. I drove to Sapnap's house and dropped him off, we said goodbye, grabbed his stuff, and went into his house.

It was just me and George.

Without the music, it was quiet. Too quiet.

"George?" He looks at me, and I grip the steering wheel tighter. "How long have you liked him?"

"Him?"

"Your crush,"

"Him," He huffs, "I've liked him for a while now, I think I've liked him before, but thought it was just me,"

"Really?"

"Yeah, plus I think I know who you like,"

"I'm sure it's pretty obvious."

"Very obvious." He says laughing. His laugh is super contagious, and I love it.

"How long have you liked me?"

I loosen my grip on the steering wheel.

"Honestly, ever since homecoming Freshman year. I've liked you since forever."

"Really? Why?"

"Why are you asking why? You're literally the best thing that's ever happened to me, you are always there for me, you're cute, you're funny. Just everything about you I love." I look over at him and see that he's blushing. "I love you, I love your everything. I've always have and always will."

"Forever and always?"

"Forever and always."

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After I told him I liked him, we became closer. We flirted on occasions and I'm starting to think he likes me. I hope he does.

"Dream can you at least get some wood for me?"

"Why? You're closer to the forest."

"But I'm working on the outside of the flower shop."

"Fine, I'm only doing it for you."

"Thank you." He goes quiet for a second, then giggles. "Chat, he's not a simp."

"Yeah chat, I'm not a simp."

"The chat is spamming Dream is a simp."

"Of course they are,"

"Someone in the chat said Ship." He laughs, I look at his stream and look at his beaming smile. Him laughing over a comment someone said, his smile is making me smile.

"Dream? Hello?"

"Hey, sorry. Patches was climbing all over me,"

"I see, and where's that wood?"

"I have it, lemme just run it over to you." I see his character on my screen and drop the wood I got for him, he thanks me and continues to build. He finishes up the building and added a few signs saying Flower Shop and Flowers For Sale.

"Thank you all for coming to the stream tonight, I love you all and have a good day or night." He smiles, and waves, then the little red dot in the corner goes from red to a light grey.

"We actually finished the flower shop." I say proudly.

"Finally."

"George, I wanna talk about something,"

"What's up?"

"How do you feel about us?"

"What do you mean us?"

"Like us being, you know, together."

"Well," He goes quiet and my heart drops to the floor.

"Well what?"

"I don't think it's a good idea?"

"Why not?"

"Because, I don't think you and I being together is the best thing for us."

"Oh," I could feel a weight setting into my chest. "Then what about the kiss? This whole thing?"

"What about the kiss?"

"The kiss, does it mean nothing to you?"

"That's the thing,"

"What thing?"

"We've kissed before,"

Kissed before?

"No, from my memory I don't think we did-"

"From your memory."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Karaoke night, I missed out a detail."

"Go on," My voice started to become shaky.

"When Sapnap left, I tried to get you home, but you were saying how you loved me and how cute I looked, then you just kissed me."

No fucking way.

"What does the most recent kiss have to do with that?"

"It was like the other kiss,"

"Stupid?"

"No, kinda meaningless."

"Then why did you, not pull away?"

"I don't know, I think I didn't want things between us awkward."

"So everything that happened on Christmas, just means nothing to you?"

He was silent. The silence jabbed into my heart.

"I have to go." I left the discord call and threw off my head phones.

'No, kinda meaningless.'

That kept replaying in my head. The late talks at night, the I love you's, and the kiss. Just meaningless to him? I don't know what hurt more, him saying that this whole thing is meaningless to him or that I felt like I lost him. Lost our whole thing, my worst fear.

I was shaking, I wasn't able to leave my chair. I place my elbows onto the desk and my head into my hands and just cried, the one person that actually made things okay, just seemed to leave my life. It was so effortless yet so painful.

George kept calling me and I didn't pick up, then it moved from George calling me to Sapnap calling me. I didn't want to pick up, why would I anyway, just for my heart to be broken all over again? We'll never know. Sapnap sent me one long paragraph, teary eyed I looked at it.

'George explained everything to me, and it's a huge miscommunication. Trust me. Just pick up the phone Dream and George will explain everything. I know you're heartbroken, I know what it's like and we can get through this together I promise. Please let me know if you're okay, I'm worried about you and so is George. If you want to talk to me, that's fine too. Just please let us know how you are.'