"anyway, i thoughts we would all explain about our absence." fitz swallowed harshly and looked to his friends. "we have been gone for a while because we are trying to find closure...

"many nights ago we all threw a party and invited a bunch of people to celebrate toby reaching 700k . fucking mason decided to have strangers invited, which we will never do again... that night turned into a giant game of clue, audrey, care to explain." he was obviously choked up, and i couldn't stand to watch the sight.

"we are sad to tell that toby was shot... we were locked into the misfits manor for three days with the constant feeling of guilt. whilst we tried to escape, jay was also.. killed." everyone had their head down, and i knew i was only bringing the mood down as tears began to swell in my eyes. "but, they lived a grand life, one many can't say they had. so, as i've said many times before, let's celebrate their life."

"right." swagger announced, fixing his posture. "anyway, why don't we talk about audrey!" my head shook as i smirked. "so, what made you so fucked. why are you who you are?"

"huh?" i think for a moment. "well i'm an extremely anxious alcoholic whose attention span doesn't last longer than 2 seconds. and i hang out a with a handful of losers on a daily basis."

"oh god shut the hell up." mason sighed and banged his head on the table. "can we talk about a past memories of audrey!?" mason was practically jumping in his seat.

"like the time when i came to visit and you were totally scuffed."

"what time was that? literally all three years y'all have known me, i was scuffed as fuck."

"true." matt added in with a slight smile. "but i think i remember this."

"anyway, so me and cam came down to visit you and matt. so you were up in your room and when you came down-"

"oh my god!" matt shouted, instantly remembering.

"you were not dressed to say the least, and you didn't see the downside of it! you fucking came out of your room, smoke following behind you as you were fucking naked." everyone began taking their laughter to the next level as my face became a deep red.

"oh my god, shut up!" i hissed as i folded my arms.

-

whilst we walked out of the room we just wrapped up in, everyone went up to their room, not caring what i did. i purses my lips and trailed up the stairs behind everyone, watching as they went their separate ways.

bursting open the door, i watched as matt fell onto his bed and groaned with annoyance. "mason, get the hell out." the american cursed.

"not mason, but okay."

"no, no wait! audrey i'm sorry." i fell onto his bed as well and watched as he played with his recently cut hair. "so, what's up?" his voice was deep but calm from the recent topics we spoke of.

"i miss jay." i mumbled and cover my face with my hands. "i miss you." i felt his weight shift off of the bed, but felt it instantly be replaced on either sides of me. the bed indented as he hovered over me, a serious expression spreading across his face.

"audrey, i've been wanting to hold you for so long. when i heard you moved back to melbourne, my heart flew to your service." he gushed as he brushed the hairs that fell around my face away. "don't think i haven't noticed your stares and your actions. but, i want you to tell me this is what you want before i do it." i didn't know exactly what he meant, i didn't know how far he would take it, but out of instinct, my head nodded.

leaning down, his lips connected to mine, an instant shock wave crashing against my body, yet it wasn't how i imagined it to be all these years later. it was almost fake. his body was being held up from his two arms that sat beside my hips, making it impossible for me to squirm away, which in fact i didn't want to do at this point. "aye, matt you seen audrey?" my eyes shot open, realizing it was cam.

"yeah, she's right here." matt rolled his eyes and turned to cam with an expression i couldn't even mimic. "do you fucking know how to knock?" he just stood there, astonished with the sight he walked in on. "cam, get the hell out!"

"s-sorry, matt." my heart sunk down to my stomach as i was now matt's main focus. oh god, no i couldn't continue with this.

"m-matt, i gotta go." i whispered, sliding out from under him. "i'm sorry." he was obviously irritated with my decision, but knew it was only rational to let me off without an argument.

"it's fine. don't worry about it. but now i have to go take a could shower." he whined, waltzing out of the room to head to the bathroom in a hurry.

rushing down the stairs i noticed cam sat on the couch, watching as swagger continued his anime game i couldn't grasp the name of. this time, a blond girl was sitting in a bubble bath with wine in her hands, but the bubbles were slowly fading away with each match he got on the mini game beside it. "i-i'm heading out." i stuttered, clearly embarrassed from what just happened.

"bye, want me to walk you out?" swagger questioned, pausing his main hobby. "or, cam can." he hummed, staring back at the tv. my eyes looked to cam, but he didn't look back, he just stared emotionless at the screen in front of him.

"no-no, it's fine. i'll be fine." i frowned, yanking open the front door. "bye." nobody responded, but i knew they acknowledged my farewell. dammit, why am i so dumb!? why do i always make those heat of the moment decisions and have them end up coming out wrong? i just wish i could at least make one right decision. but with matt, there is always a down fall.