When MAMA finally rolls around, I'm absolutely terrified. My bump is even harder to hide now than at the AMAs. But somehow the staff are able to design a suit that's loose in all the right areas that actually manages to cover it quite well.

"It just looks like I've gained some weight," I say, examining myself in the mirror.

Namjoon shakes his head in disbelief. "I can't believe how well they've managed to hide it."

"You can blame the weight gain on your 'injury'," Yoongi says with a chuckle.

"Yeah, you're unable to exercise and you need to eat lots of food to recover!" Jimin pipes up.

I roll my eyes at them. After we get our hair and makeup done, it's out onto the red carpet. I feel big and awkward, but I manage to get through all the photos and questions about my injury. During the awards, I find it difficult to get up and down so many times. Jungkook notices and in the second half always helps me stand up.

"Because of your injury," he says quietly. I smile gratefully at him.

The members do a great job performing as I watch from the wings, and we end up winning artist of the year. All in all it turns out being a great night.

~

A number of awards shows and specially altered suits later, it's the 25th of December. I wake up facing Jungkook, who kisses me lightly.

"Merry Christmas, Tae," he says.

"Merry Christmas, Jungkookie."

Then he puts both hands on my belly and kisses it. "Merry Christmas, baby girl."

He gets out of bed and helps me out too. "Come on, let's go. Everyone else is probably already awake."

When we get to the living room, we find everybody already there as Jungkook predicted.

"Merry Christmas!" they all shout.

"Grab your presents." Namjoon gestures to the two presents still sitting under our miniature Christmas tree. Jungkook gets them both and hands the one with my name on it to me.

"Before April left to see her family she was judging us that we're doing Secret Santa instead of buying presents for everyone," Jin says.

"Forty-two presents would take too long to open." Jungkook shrugs.

Hoseok starts applauding at this. "Our Kookie, the maths genius!"

We all join in clapping and Jungkook takes a dramatic bow.

"Okay, okay, let's get started," Namjoon says. "Who's first?"

"I'll go!" Hoseok volunteers and rips into his gift. It's a pouch almost identical to the one he wears around that we tease him for, but in a different colour.

"I got you that," says Jin.

"It's supposed to be anonymous!" Jungkook punches his arm.

"Oh, who cares?" Yoongi says.

Jin gets some colourful kitchen items from Yoongi, who tells him to cook more. He also gets him an acrylic stand of himself that Jin throws across the room. Jimin is very pleased with the Gucci shoes I bought him. As is Yoongi with the noise cancelling headphones Jungkook got for him. Jimin gets Namjoon some nice sunglasses, which he warns him not to break. Jungkook gets some exercise equipment from Hoseok, and the other members tell him off and say if Jungkook gets any stronger he'll beat us all to a pulp.

I'm the last one to open my present, which is from Namjoon.

"It feels soft," I say as I squish the package.

Namjoon grins. "I hope you like it."

"I've seen it, it's really cute," Jin says.

I open up the package and lift what's inside so everyone can see. It's a soft and cuddly Christmas themed baby onesie.

"I got it to fit a seventh month old, so she can wear it on this day next year," Namjoon says proudly.

I can't take my eyes off the onesie, and imagining what it will be like a year from today. Will we all be sitting in this room, doing Secret Santa again, but with a baby wearing this crawling around? I start to well up.

"Oh no, you've made him cry," Yoongi says.

I throw my arms around Namjoon. "Thank you."

He hugs me back. "You're welcome. You have no idea how much fun it was shopping in the baby section."

I break away and wipe my eyes, pulling myself together.

"I guess this is the last Christmas we'll have with just the seven of us, huh?" Jimin wonders aloud.

I smile, and in this moment all negative thoughts subside and everything in my life feels absolutely perfect. "I guess it is."