All of this nonsense hurt my head.

Why is all of this happening? Why can't i just live normaly without any problems?

But then again life wouldn't be normal if we didn't have problems.

Life sucks, It twist and turns until you you can't handle it anymore, and i wish we could do something about it but sometimes ignoring it is all we can do.

And sometimes you need a break. You need some time in which you can forget your problems and just have fun with no worries at all.

That something is called getting drunk.

Being an idol i know having this stuff will ruin my reputation if it gets out and i will have to face consequences afterwords but right now i don't even care.

I need a drink to let myself loose and have some fun, something i haven't experienced in a while.

I told my members i was going out with a friend because i knew if told them the real reason they wouldn't approve and force me back home and ask me to talk to them.

Though i had a feeling Jin knew where i was going and i couldn't be more thankful for him to let me be.

Of course going in a club i needed to have a friend and surprisingly his fellow EXO membed needed a break too.

Him and chenyeol were super close though it hardly ever showed on camera.

Both groups were really close and have a great friendship despite the busy scheduels.

"You know, we could go to this club were most idols go in secret. It's totally safe though, i have been there many times. And great drinks let me tell you that. We should go there" Chanyeol said breaking him off from his thoughts as he soon focused on him.

"Thats sounds nice, lets go" he replied simply as his friend started the car and off they went, heading past cars as the street lights shone upon their faces.

We both talked and talked and it felt like both of us couldn't stop. We did have a lot of catching up to do.

"And what do ya know, she's was right there and caught him red handed" said Chanyeol as he told his story of how the maknae was caught by his manager trying to sneak in some carbs.

I smiled slightly at the sillness of the situation as we reached our desired destination.

The talks though didn't end their. All the way from the car to club we both shared stories and both laughed as we did so.

Though Chanyeol didn't mention why he was in the mode of getting on the train of the lost, I knew exactly why.

He was still in daze about his fellow and close member leaving SM and EXO. And of course I felt sorry but didn't want to mention it.

From the looks of it he wanted to forget about it so talking about it right now didn't seem like the best idea.

Soon entering the club, loud music filled our ears as both of us became quite and headed straight for the bar, going through the rough patch of drunk and sweaty idols.

None of is spoke as we sat down on two stools at the bar and ordered some drinks to fill our system with pleasure.

It had been a long time since i had drank or gotten drunk but tonight i was all up for it.

It's now or never.

I held my drink losely in my hands as i took a sip and another and soon the glass was fairly empty and i wanting more of this tasty substance so i asked for a refill and soon that was finsihed as well.

I looked at my left to see Chanyeol already gone, probably heading out to dance or see some other familiar faces.

I saw a few people i knew and observed them

Some were either dancing while others were chatting with friends with of course some sort of drink in their hands.

But surprisingly their was the one person i wanted to forget about.

I wanted her out of my thoughts but somehow she was right there sitting on the stool peacefully drinking to her hearts content.

Why is she here? And what is she doing with him?

My blood boiled as i saw her with another man.

When did they get so close?

I thought as i looked more closely making sure i wasn't just seeing things.

But she was there alright, and who would have thought that these two would come together and have some drinks in a club together.

I wanted to strangle him, though he was my friend but at that moment i didn't care. All i could think about is why these two would be together.

Is this why she was ignoring me? She moved on?

Of course she moved on dick-head. It's been years. Everyone moves on eventually.

But i didn't wanna beleive it. I knew there was no way of us being together but i just wish somehow i could still be her knight in shining armor.

But what surprised me more was whi she was dating.

Who would have thought the innocent Wendy from Red Velvet and the famous Mark from Got7 would be this close?

At least she looks happy though.