(back to jack's pov!!!!!!!!!)

Therapy is a pain in the ass. My therapist is so boring. All he does is sit there looking like the dead fuck he is while I explain why I'm so sad. Even then I'm not telling him the whole truth because he wouldn't care! For a therapist, he isn't very good at helping people.

The guys don't trust me to do anything anymore. They take away sharp objects and any pills I take they have to watch me take them. They even keep me from driving! How do they expect me to go places? Oh yeah, with them and their over protective-ness, I forgot.

I mean, yeah I was still sad, but it's not like I would really want to leave everyone I love, especially Alex, even though he's being a douchebag. A douchebag and a bitch are getting married, what a wonderful couple. A match made in heaven as they would say. Going back to Alex, he's been acting extra weird lately. He'll get all giddy around me like he used to when we were dating, but that was only when we were alone. If the other guys were around us or the girlfriends, he would keep his distance from me.

He's a confusing person.

I feel like he's leading me on and I don't think I'll be able to stand the heartbreak. If he loves Lisa so much, why is he acting like a school girl with me when we're alone? He really needs to fix this mess that he's making.

"Hey Jack." Alex said quietly, plopping down next to me on the couch. I looked at him and back away quickly, my heart starting to beat faster with how close we were. I was watching Gossip Girl, not something I was proud of, but it was the only good show on television right now.

"Aw, remember when we used to watch this after we would get drunk and have hot make out sessions? Good times." Alex said laughing. I frowned at him. What the fuck?

"What are you doing?" I asked. He snapped out of his daze and looked at me.

"What was I doing?"

"Hot make out sessions?" He looked baffled.

"What?"

"You started talking about when we had hot make out sessions."

"I did?"

"Um, yeah bud."

"I-er-well, I gotta go. Gotta go hang out with Lisa, have rough sex, yeah." Alex's words stumbled out as he threw himself at the door practically. His flustered self slammed the door shut and I heard him running down the hall.

What the actual fuck?

I haven't told anyone about that yet, and I think Alex is grateful for it. I'm confused about it, and want answers, but I don't want to tell the guys. Not yet, for sure. Not until I figure out what's going on with Alexander.

*

"Jack." Tyler called out to me, running over.

"Yeah?"

"Alex wants you." I sighed. I knew what was gonna happen. He was gonna make some excuse of what had happened. He was gonna beg me not to tell anyone. Typical. Its been like this for three weeks now.

I gathered my composure and followed Tyler back to the bus. I was getting tired of being on the road. I was stuck in the bus all the time with nothing to do, any normal human would start to lose their mind in there. Problem is, I was already losing my mind way before we started touring.

I climbed up into the bus and saw Alex, Rian, and Zack all sitting on the couch. Zack was on his phone, and Rian and Alex were playing paper football.

"What's up?" I spoke, plopping down next to Zack and putting my arm around his shoulders. Rian looked at Alex, and they stopped playing their game.

"Okay, since we know you really love Texas and all that," Alex started slowly, "we're gonna let you play starting with the Austin date. How's that sound?"

I stared at him stunned.

"Are you being serious right now?"

"Yeah."

"Oh my god," I gasped out. A smile stretches across my face. It felt like my heart started beating again after 100 years of it not doing so. I could feel all the happiness coming back to me.

"Don't screw up though, or you're gonna have to get off tour again." Rian added. I rolled my eyes at him.

"Whatever, Mr. Dawson. I'm gonna go practice." I shot out of my seat and ran out the bus, tripping on the way out and landing on my face.

That didn't go at all how I expected it was.

-

"Ready?" Zack asked. I nodded, gripping my guitar tightly. I was so anxious to get on stage. I missed all the playing, sweating, and the exhilaration of it all. God, I love my job.

Alex nodded and we all headed out onto the stage. The fans screams were ear piercing but I didn't care. I was just happy to be back playing.

We started out with Satellite, like we always do, and I could feel the excitement radiating off of the fans. Then we played TIOCOAL before we took a break to speak.

"So, as you all know, this is the first concert that Jack is back playing on the tour!" Alex yelled, and the fans yelled back "It's been a rough couple of weeks, but he's finally back and we missed him playing, and we know you guys did too!"

"I sure did miss the bras being thrown up here." I joked, grabbing one off my mic stand and reading what it said.

We joked for a while longer and then got back to playing. Many bras were throwing up on stage, so was a note that said my favorite member of ATL is the one with an A in his name. Zack was getting some attention from a short girl in the second row in front of him. She kept yelling Zack I love you, and when he finally saw her and said it back, her smile got even bigger which warmed my heart. I also went by the disabled section and saw a skinny girl with her leg in a big cast. I took a picture with her so she would be happy, and she ended up catching Rian's drumstick.

I was heading to the bus, drenched in sweat and drinking my water bottle, when I saw the girl that yelled 'I love you' at Zack hugging Tyler. She seemed even shorter when you got closer to her. She was talking to him as she hugged him, and he smiled and talked back. They separated and she said something, then he whipped out his phone and took a picture with her, and then sent it to her on twitter. That made me really happy to know that he would do that for her.

She looked like she was frustrated after she had to leave him, but she saw the girl with the cast and started smiling again and talking rapidly.

Huh, didn't know they were friends.

They hugged and she started to walk away slowly, as though she wanted to soak it all in. I frowned and walked up to her. I wasn't sure if I should have tapped her or grab her arm, so I called out to her.

"Short person!"

She turned around confused, and looked mad that I called her a short person.

"Hey, sorry, I didn't want to touch you." I said, trying to ease her anger. Her face softened and she smiled.

"Hey jack. You guys did great!" She said happily, though she looked tired and she was drenched in sweat. Typical, she was in the second row.

"I saw you yelling at Zack, and I wanted to know if maybe you wanted to go meet him?" I cringed at myself internally. Why are you doing this, you sound like a pedophile.

"Oh I would love that, but my mom is waiting for me downstairs. She has work and I have school." She smiled as she said that, but her smile sort of faded.

"I can go talk to your mom if you would like."

"You would do that?"

"Of course. You seem to really want to meet Zack, and I would do anything for that to happen."

"Thank you, wow. Let's go talk to my mom I guess," She turned around and started down the stairs before turning back around , "but beware, she's a tall Mexican who can be very intimidating."

I laughed.

"I'm sure I can take her."

-

Oh dear.

A frustrated looking woman about 5'10 stood on the sidewalk, tapping her foot rapidly and looking around. When she saw us approaching, her eye widened.

"What did you do Mary?" She asked. She looked back and forth at us.

"Nothing I swear," the girl, apparently Mary, said as she looked at me, "he wanted to know if I could go meet....." She started getting quieter, as if she was scared of her.

"I wanted to know if I could take her to meet Zack. I saw that she had a fondness of him, so I wanted to get her the chance to meet him, if it's no trouble." I said cautiously. I didn't want to get hit by a middle aged woman.

She sighed, looked at her watch, and then back at me.

"Barakat, if you hurt her I swear I'll do worst to you and your band. You have 10 minutes." Her stern voice scared me, but since I was taller I had an advantage, I think......

Mary and I shared smiled before heading to the bus. Fans around us screamed, but I really didn't want to waste Mary's time. I would come back out later. We reached the bus and I turned to her.

"You ready?"

"Yeah, I think so, maybe." She stuttered over herself, running a hand through her short hair.

"He'll love meeting you. Just, stay calm like you were with Tyler." She looked at me shocked.

"You saw that?" She groaned.

"Yeah, I thought it was cute," I smiled, "c'mon lets go." I pulled open the door and led her inside.

"Zack?" I called out. Rian was laying on the couch, and Alex was outside meeting fans. I knew Zack was in here because whenever he goes to meet fans nobody really goes to him, so he just stays inside the bus.

"In the b- Jack we have a stowaway." Rian said, sitting up fast.

"This is Mary, I wanted her to meet Zack."

"Not all of us?" He looked mad.

"I didn't think you or Alex were gonna be in the bus, chill out Rian."

If he was gonna get pissed over something small, he needs to go per a dog or something.

"I don't really have a lot of time....." Mary said quietly. Rian studied her a moment, before heading out the bus to go do God knows what. I put my arm around her shoulders and led her to the bunks.

"Zack, come out." I yelled. Zack's curtain shifted, and he popped his head out.

"Not to alarm you, but there is a small female behind you." He said, smiling. He slid out of the bunk and placed his arms on the sides of them.

"I know," I rolled my eyes, "I brought her here to meet you. You should recognize her."

He studied her for a moment. Then his face lit up.

"You're the girl who said you loved me!" He said, smiling wide.

"Yeah," She said quietly. She looked down at the floor, her cheeks bright red. I backed away so Zack could look at her face to face.

"What's your name?"

"Mary." Quiet, again. She wasn't this shy with Tyler.

"Do you mind if I get a hug?" Zack asked, trying to crack her shell. She looked at him puzzled.

"You want to hug me?" She asked.

"Well yeah I want to hug the girl that loves me." He smiled, his dimples popping up.

"Okay." She laughed. He pulled her into a hug and smiled bigger. I don't think I've ever seen him that happy.

They talked for a few minutes, and Zack took a picture with her and sent it through Twitter like Tyler. Then she hugged him again, and I had to take her back to her mom. When we went to go walk out the door, Alex and Rian walked in and stopped us.

"Jack what the hell man?" Alex yelled.

"What did I do?"

I didn't want Mary to see this.

"You brought a fan into the bus just so she could meet Zack! Do you know how dangerous that is?"

"Yes because a girl who's a foot smaller than me could really hurt me," I stated, "I gotta go take her to her mom, we're on a time limit." I went to grab her arm, but I saw that she had backed away from me. Mary was all the way against the wall, and she had tears going down her face.

"WHAT THE HELL ALEX." I yelled, shoving him into Rian. Zack walked out, yelling,

"What's going on?"

Alex grabbed me by the collar and shoved me into the wall, not caring about my knee. Rian was tryin to pull Alex off of me and Zack was holding Mary.

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU TRYING TO GET ME TO LEAVE LISA FOR YOU? WE'RE OVER JACK, WE'VE BEEN OVER FOR 5 YEARS. WE AREN'T EVER GETTING BACK TOGETHER."

Alex had finally snapped.