" what like it's hard?" I repeated with Elle wood her line in Legally blonde as I sat in the couch between Emmett and Rosie

" yes tell him " Emmett was so involved in Elle's success I'm afraid he'll go hunt that asshole down

Rosalie usually looks uninterested in my choice of movies but this movie kinda rubbed her the right way

" Just because she's blonde and beautiful doesn't mean she can't have a brain " she commented.

" Yepp.. but she gonna show him, " I said eating a handful of popcorn.

It's been a week since I knew that the Cullens are vampires and we fell into a nice peaceful routine to talk about vampirism and they answer my weird questions.

They also like to spend time with me .. cuddle me as I sleep which is the sweetest thing!

And also try to ease me in this situation.

But they still didn't talk about our relationship dynamics.

Like what are the rules and what is going to happen.

What do they like?

When will they RAIL me?

You know the usuals.

but also the sort of have unspoken rules? like the other day, Rosalie stopped me from eating too many sweets and helped me get ready to bed when I'm too lazy to do my skin routine.

Emmett helps me with my homework since he has a funny way of explaining lessons that keeps me interested unlike in the classroom.

All and all, I think they just go with their instincts.

that until I go bratty on them and they can do nothing about it because we have no rules. I smirked evilly. Rules suck!

but I had a gut feeling that they soon will impose rules. When my mind is clear enough to deeply think about their motives for postponing the talk... I think that they are doing so to make me a bit comfortable, to get used to them being vampires and my mates first. It is very considerate of them to do so since my smol brain would have been fried if they tried to speak of everything all at once.

" Lily, are you listening?" Emmett repeated

"huh" it seems like I was too deep in my headspace to hear him speak to me

" Edward is formally introducing Bella to our Family... would you like to come too?" he asked as Rosie looked at my face, reading my reaction without speaking.

" sure! heh Bells will be so nervous" I giggled, "I think me being there will ease up her nerves" Emmett nodded smiling but Rosalie turned her gaze to the tv screen without a word but I can feel the tension in every muscle in her body, she withdrew her arm from holding my waist making me feel the abandonment

"Rosie? have I said something wrong?" I looked at her with puppy dog eyes as I slipped into little space

" no, you did nothing wrong baby bear" Emmett replied faster, getting my body closer to his.

Rosalie looked at my face swiftly, her tense face fell as she saw my eyes welling up with tears already ' damn it! I can't control my emotions!' I cursed myself

"No lily you did nothing wrong...It just..it annoys me how dangerous all of this is. "

" I hate that we are so selfish to take your humanity one day just because you are our mate and we will perish without you " she looked down, her beautiful face contouring with emotions

" well, what about me then? haven't you thought about what will happen to me if you didn't allow me to be in your lives?"I said, done with her self blaming and obsession with humanity

" I won't feel human...only a shell that breaths...only a brat that hates her luxurious life. ungrateful and just angry at the world" I snapped out of little space due to my anger

" I won't survive without you..." I stopped myself from saying something I'll regret

Rosalie looked at me, her gaze was deep and intense that I have to look at the TV showing Elle Woods in a bunny costume.

Emmett and Rosalie stood silent after that as I busied myself by watching the movie and stopping the lump in my throat.

A/N: hello beautiful readers! finally, I came back after decades of disappearance haha. hope you like this small chap love ya