I end up falling asleep in Stokeley's arms, soon enough the movie ends and he realizes I'm passed out.

"Bil" he whispers trying to move his arm.

"Hm?" I say half asleep cuddling more into him.

She looks adorable, and I know I shook her off earlier, She grabbed me in a spot where I was once grabbed by my father who abused me, I feel really bad.

end of pov

"Bil, I gotta go home." he says.

I sit up and we lock eyes.

tokeley's

Do I kiss her like, this is perfect timing what do I do, crap I wish Jah was here to help me with this.

I slowly begin to lean in, Bil does too but we both end up stopping ourselves.

end of pov

I stand up, "I'm glad you let me sleep, I know your arm is probably numb, I'm sorry." I laugh softly.

"It's fine, really." he smiles and gets ready to leave. "See you later Bil." he opens the door and heads out.

Once again, I'm left alone with me and my thoughts. 'Do I like him', 'Did we almost kiss?' So many questions.

Did I want to kiss him? Maybe. But That's besides the point. He had to go home. I realize the voice in my head wasn't denying anything.

Maybe my mom is right, what if Stokeley likes me. I’m too afraid to date. My anxiety settles inside my brain.

I start to worry, what if he just wants me for my body and not for me? What if I’m just a dumb game for him to try and play until he gets bored.

This is why i have walls. this exact reason right here...