I hang up. There is no point in listening further. The voice I heard seemed to be pretty far in the room, but it was there.

I start crying, and luckily no one hears me. I can't put anyone through this. It is my job to take it in and find a way to fix it.

"You're so stupid! She hung up because of you! Now she thinks I'm cheating on her" I cry

"Sweetie, if things are meant to be, they will happen. If you're meant to be with her you're going to get over this" she says.

"Paul, get your mom out of here! She's getting sentimental again" I yell at the estonian, and he leaves with her.

What am I going to do now?

I try to call her, but she doesn't answer. She doesn't reply to my texts, dms and snaps either. Have I lost her? I can't lose her.

"So, she's available now" Sean interrupts my thoughts

"Get out of here. And if you dare to touch her or even talk to her, you're fucking dead" I say in anger. Honestly, I probably mean it.

It's about 1am and I get a text from Marcus, the only guy I trust with Julia.

i fucked up

is she okay?

i'm going to kill you

what did you do

answer me moron

paul's mom came

in my room while

i was talking to her

and i think she thought

i was cheating on her

which i wasn't.

i can't lose her

i love her too much

please nyck, i need

you now

i'll see what i can do

I put the phone down, and run to her room. She is not going to go through this alone, and I'm ready to be a good brother for her.

When I enter the room, all I can hear is her soft cry. She never cries around any of us, and to hear her cry breaks my heart.

"Juls?" She turns around to see me, and wipes her tears

"Why are you not asleep?" She says in her 'I-just-cried' voice

"I think we need to clear something up about you and Marcus"

"He told you?"

I nod. She gestures to the bed and I take a seat. I give her my phone and make her read the texts Marcus sent me.

What Marcus said calms me down, but also breaks me. I check my notifications, only to see how much I have missed.

julia?

julia please

it was paul's mom

please don't leave

me

what would i do

without you?

i love you

please answer

And same goes with my other social media accounts. I feel bad again, knowing I've hurt him more than he's hurt me.

"What do I do now, Nyck?" I cry desperately. I can't just let it go, I can't.

"Text him back"

im so fucking sorry

i thought-

i get it, it's okay.

i love you, marcus

really. i can't imagine

my life without you im

so sorry

i think we should

get a break.