Chapter 12 – I Finally Understand 2:38 PM Friday, April 28th, 2056 - Kitinara Family Estate

Azuza pulls me by my ear into a side room.

"Ow. Ow. Ow. Ow. Ow." I say in a monotone as she tugs me along. Her grip was like steel and I wasn't sure I could break it even if I wanted to.

We enter a small office room and Azuza slams the door shut. She casts a silence, privacy, and a number of other protective spells on the room then shoves me against the door doing a top-notch kabedon. Her beautiful face looming over me is enchanting and her 9 tails fan out as a golden godly aura radiates from her.

"What the fuck are you doing, Zeneff? How could you get my daughter involved in all this? Why are you no longer suppressing your aura? This makes no fucking sense..."

"Hime...I have no idea what you are talking about." I say honestly.

Her eyes bore into mine, looking for a hint of deception. She ponders my words as well as what I said - or tried to say - earlier.

"You don't expect me to truly believe...you...you can't really have...how is any of this possible!?! You? Amnesia? You are a fucking walking nuke! God, why didn't you come to me sooner!?!" She yells in frustration.

"You seem to know something, care to let the rest of the class know?" I hedge and give her a small smile.

"This isn't funny, Zen! There is a reason you haven't formed your harem despite your age...you confided in me several centuries ago...was...was I the only one?" Her voice trails off and she tilts her head to the side muttering incoherently.

I roll my eyes, stand up straight, scoop her into a princess carry, - ignoring her squeak of protest - and plop her down on one of the two couches in the room. I sit on the other one across from her and say simply. "Explain it to me."

"Okay! Jeez. No touching...I am not sure I can control myself...Gods above Zen, how do you walk around without being mauled?" She sighs in exasperation and then takes a steadying breath before locking eyes with me.

"Zeneff Orvun Bilre Kyvoidu Undrarry Silverscale. I think I know you best out of anyone living in this world...besides the image your mother has taken here."

The hairs on my body stand up and a visible wave of magical energy radiates out of me as she states 6 of my 7 names.

'Oh fuck. That isn't good. She has control over more than half of my power now...'

While I am pondering what to do and still reeling from the shock to my soul after hearing so many of my true names, she continues.

"4th born of the Goddess Tiamat and first through the portal into this reality, you have lived and ruled for longer than humans, as we know them, have existed. Your power is so great that you have had to seal it many times over to prevent yourself from attaining Godhood...As for why...Can you take a guess?" She asks and I am thoroughly befuddled. I don't remember sealing myself...In fact, even though I know her words ring true, the memories are muddled and long forgotten...

***

I am taken away by the threads of memory as images of my past flash before my eyes. Mother creating the portal to let her clutch escape destruction when the old ones returned to Celeborn. The many millennia of oppression and chaos when I indiscriminately slaughtered as if a wild beast. The light of intelligence and the newfound pursuit of knowledge and power. Religions and Cults founded to worship and destroy me. Mass orgies so perverse and vile that thousands are left dead, maimed, or broken. Myself, sick and tired of the wave of raucous chaff that follows in my wake. The realization of my portfolio. The denial of my portfolio.

Eras of civilization flash before my eyes. I see myself searching for answers. Screaming at the creator's injustice. Fighting off more and more powerful foes. The first seal. Peace...only, it is just an illusion. The second seal. The third. The fourth. The twelfth. Nothing works. NOTHING WORKS! I am cursed. I am doomed. Nothing can save me when I ascend. I will be little more than a stallion, caged and forced to breed. I am but a symbol of love's purest insanity. I. Am. Obsession.

***

I wake from my fugue spasming on the floor. The room is destroyed and Azuza tries vainly to fight off the tendrils of my magic and power turned solid. She is beaten and bloody and on her last leg.

I start hyperventilating and my mind moves millions of times faster than it should.

'Fuck! Fuck Fuck Fuck! I am ascending! No...Nonononononono! It can't end like this. It can't!'

A flash of purple and black light takes over the room. A figure as beautiful as the moon sends a powerful tendril of dripping black magic into my head. The whirling and movement slow as I feel cold seep in its place.

Pain. My world is nothing but pain. I cry out and scream my protest, but it is never-ending. All consuming. Until...it isn't.

"Peace, my love. The Gods will not take you from me and your family. We have only just started this journey, it is much too soon for it to end. We don't have much time. Your seals have come undone. I will assist you in a sealing that will work, but it will be painful... More than anything you have ever felt."

"Do it," I say through clenched teeth...teeth much larger than I should have as a human. Fuck, I am transforming into my true form. I know that once I do, there will be no turning back.

"Then sleep for now. When you wake, it will all be over. You can come back to us. Sleep, my love."

I feel cool lips on mine and a wave of relief. But it is short-lived as in the next moment I feel pseudopods pierce my chest and wrap around my very soul. The pain is beyond mortal comprehension. I let myself drift into the nothing of unconsciousness.

* | * | *

I wake in a quiet room. Soft sheets surround me and a sense of comfort and peace I have never felt before engulfs me. I feel two bodies on either side of me and move my hands up the naked, soft flesh. I smile to myself. When have I ever felt as content as I do now?

I open my eyes...or at least try to. My eyelids protest any such movement or disturbance from this peaceful state. I note their complaints but choose to ignore them completely. I have work to do and I need to deconstruct all that I have learned in the last...day? I hope it has only been a day...

'Urg. Mom and Diana are gonna be pissed...'

Oh well. I will deal with it later. Right now, I need to say thank you to a certain Elder One, Samantha. In my greatest time of need, she showed up and saved me, and she did it without asking for anything in return! The amount of brownie points she has earned from this act is simply staggering. I truly feel happiness, gratefulness, and even some newfound feelings for her. The kiss she gave me when I felt I was dying was like a cool glass of water after 3 days stranded in the desert. She still scares the shit out of me, don't get me wrong, but that is kinda a thrill of its own, ya know?

I feel deep within me and embrace my power. And, can I just say, holy fuck there is a lot of it. Much more than there was before...

'Excuse me? Sorry? Come again? I thought it was supposed to be sealed...Where is my nerf? What can I do with this power? Is it tasty?'

Having thought that...I do feel it is much calmer than it was before...and less...chaotic? Before it was like the sea in the midst of a typhoon and now it was a calm, serene lake. Maybe a better way to say it is I feel like I have full control over my power whereas before I was struggling to keep it from exploding out of me.

This is something that Zen had dealt with for countless millennia, so his body was used to it by the time I entered it. But now both Zen's body and my soul seem to be taking a sigh of relief.

'Ok. Yup. Samantha has earned all of the brownie points. All of them.'

I finally open my eyes and notice that I seem to be in my room at my mom's house.

'That is odd. Wasn't I in the Kitinara Family Estate? And what happened with Hime and Hagi? Are they okay?'

I take a deep breath and push the panicking feelings away. Samantha would have taken care of it, I am sure. Speaking of which, I take this moment to smile and look down at the women laying next to me.

To my left is Diana. She is cuddled up close to me and is drooling a little onto my chest. She looks adorable like this. I can't help but smile as her curly blonde hair cascades down my chest and covers most of her torso. It is a bit mussed, but the ringlets of the haughty dragon are still there. I lean down and kiss the top of her head. She snuggles even closer to my chest and smiles in her sleep.

'Cuuuuuute~!'

*Ahem* Now, on to the amazing tentacle-clad woman to my right. I look over. smiling at her...and freeze. Blood drains from my face and my heart skips a beat as I make direct eye contact with...my mother. Naked and laying next to me. My brain ceases to function as she smiles up at me coyly.

"Good morning, Zeneff~. Don't worry, we have not done anything. Yet~. I need you in top condition before we go at it. With your new power...I suspect a fortnight will be adequate." She finishes with a purr.

'Samantha you God damned traitor!'

"M-mom?" I stammer as I try to regain my brain functions.

"Yes, sweetheart, I am here. I know it must have been hard...but mommy is going to make it all better now~~." She says and slowly runs her hand down my chest towards my...

'Nah. Nope. Hard Pass. Not dealing with this right now.'

I panic and teleport away...or at least I try to.

"Uh Uh Uh, Zeneff," Tiamat says, waggling a finger at me. "There will be no escape from me. Don't worry though, I am more interested in a trist than anything permanent. I will not ask to join your new harem. You know how much I love Xerith."

"*Gulp* If you love him...then maybe...ya know, we could not?"

She laughs a musical chime and stares back at me. Her hand not on my chest moves up to cup my cheek lovingly. "Oh, Zeneff. I am afraid it is much too late for that. I don't want your love, I just want some carnal fucking. Nothing wrong with that, is there? You have turned into a fine dragon and I think hundreds of thousands of years and multiple dimensions is long and far enough for something like this to happen."

"I...I am not sure I am ready for that..."

Her eyes turn sharp. "You will do it, Zeneff. Your Goddess commands it of you." She loses her edge and yawns, stretching and showing off her slender arms, taught stomach, and enormous beasts. "But...not now. The chase and teasings are far too much fun. Besides, it is not like this body is that of your true mother. I am just an image she has on this plane of existence. It is not like I am calling you to the astral plane for a booty call. We will both enjoy it, so I don't want to hear any more arguments, understood?"

I say nothing more and simply nod.

'This. This is the reason Zeneff didn't want to ascend. Goddesses many multitudes more powerful than him capturing him, caging him, putting him on a shelf, and using him for self-satisfaction. To become a Goddesse's dildo. This is why he fought, struggled, and did anything necessary to further his goals. It makes sense. I would do the same...as much fun as it might sound on paper, being a sex slave was no way to spend all of eternity.'

"May I leave now? I need to take care of some things." I ask, hoping beyond hope to get out of this situation as soon as possible.

"You may not. Your soul is not yet fully healed. You must rest for at least another day...Also, where did you find and woo...That? I must say, you are impressing me more and more. She refused to worship me but offered to form an alliance with me and my faction. You have made mommy very proud, Zeneff." Tiamat says and leans up to kiss my forehead. I would feel much better from the affection if her tits weren't smothering me while she did it. God, she has nice...

'Shut your fucking mouth Zen. Nope. Absolutely not.'

So, there I lay. Painfully aware of my mother's naked body next to mine and unable to do anything about it.

'Alright. Since I am stuck here, I might as well come up with a new gameplan for the coming week.'

Leave this nightmare. Thank Samatha...though she has lost more than a few brownie points. Meet with Hagiwara and Hime, pay for damages, and explain the situation. Understand more about my past and what Samatha did. I now know that my godly portfolio was that of obsessive love. It must have been leaking out of me due to the seals failing and causing so many...problems. Find out if the women of my harem actually like me or were just affected by my power. I will need to fully explain the situation and what happened. Honesty is the most important aspect of my relationship with them. (Except for my transmigration and the amnesia cover. That is my secret forever.) Free the women from my harem who were affected with large gifts to, hopefully, ease the damage. Question the sanity of the women who choose to stay. Explore my new powers and try to learn to control them. Probably gonna go to an abandoned island or something in case I destroy it... Live my life as normally as I can from now on. Godly powers under control? - Check Avoid more Yanderes? - Check (Probably) Relax and enjoy all that I have - Next Goal

I nod to myself. This is a good start. I should probably reevaluate the setting of this anime world as well...things seem much more complex than they first seemed. But let's be real, that is not because of the dumbass author, that is just the world filling in his numerous plotholes and dumb writing choices. I refuse to believe the author who wrote this was any good.

Speaking of the plot, I have two more of the original harem member's families to save. After that, I am done and will move on with my life forgetting the plot and all its troubles. The next one up should be the magical girl...School is reopening next week so I should be able to find out more about her then.

Yup. Perfectly normal life, here I come!