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"Sometimes, when you are worn down, day after day, relentlessly, with no reprieve for years piled on years, sometimes you lose everything but the ability to cry."

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"Where did you and Yoongi hyung disappeared to after the conference ? I didn't see you both later on."Asked Taehyung as he Jimin walked side by side in the hallway.

"Nowhere special, just went to get some fresh air."

"You know it all can get a little suffocating for me."

The younger hummed in reply.

"That's true."

"I don't like these events a lot, too."

"It all just seems fake to me."

"You know what I mean, right ?"

Taehyung turned to look at him for a moment.

And the elder nodded.

"Yeah, I do."

"I definitely do."

It was a silent for a while but than the younger broke it.

"But,hyung ?"

"Yeah ?"

"What exactly is going on between you and Yoongi hyung ?"

"What do you mean what's going on ? Nothing is going on, Taehyung."Replied Jimin.

"No."The younger shook his head.

"Something is surely going on."

Jimin gave him a look.

"And why do you think something is going on ?"

"Because,hyung--"

Jimin hummed.

"You and hyung disappear a lot at midnight. Don't think I haven't noticed."

"And you both smile at each other."

"You guys smile while looking at each other."

"And that never happened in the past."

"So, definitely something is going on between you two."

Jimin shook his head.

"No, you're wrong. So, please stop with it."

The younger shook his head than with a playful smile on his face.

"I refuse--"

Just than Jin walked past them with hurried steps as he stared at the floor.

Both of them stopped in their way.

Their eyes wide open in shock.

"He was crying."Said Jimin but it was more of a statement rather than a question.

Taehyung bit his lips as worries for his hyung filled him.

"Yes."

They looked at each other for a moment and a silent understanding passed through them as they nodded and started following the elder.

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Jin stormed in his room. His hand covering his mouth to stop the loud sobs to escape from his lips.

He remembered how just a few hours ago he refused to cry.

But now even if he didn't want to cry. He just couldn't resist it.

"At first, I just wanted to prove father that I am very much capable of becoming a CEO."

Namjoon's word repeated in his mind. As he covered his ears,than.

Just to stop the voices.

"But I didn't realise it sooner that for it to happen. I would have to sacrifice our time together."

"Please stop."He whispered.

The door to his room opened as Taehyung and Jimin walked in.

"Hyung,are you okay ?"Said the youngest cautiously and tried to approach him.

But Jin immediately backed away.

"Don't touch me."He said and Taehyung paused on his way.

Jimin stepped up.

"We are worried about you,hyung."

And Jin laughed.

"You guys are worried about me ?"

"Oh really ?"

"That's shocking."

"Hyung ?"Muttered Taehyung.

"What happened ?"

"You are scaring us."

"I am scaring you ?"

"Than why the hell you are still here ?"

"Fucking leave."He shouted.

"But---"

Taehyung tried to move near him but Jimin held him back and shook his head.

They looked at their elder hyung with so much concern.

Jin was agonizing. He looked shaky.

And when the next time they made an eye contact with him.

They had to stop themselves from gasping out loud.

Jin's eyes were all puffy and red.

"What are you still doing here ?"

"Leave."He shouted yet again.

He was distressed and his mind all distorted.

Taehyung was about to say something to him.

But Jimin just pulled him out of the room and shut the door of his room.

The younger's eyes were filled with tears.

"Why ?" He asked Jimin.

And the elder sighed.

"I may not know what Jin hyung is going through fully but I can relate with him a little."

"Trust me."

"It's better to give him some space and time."

"But---"

"But we can't just leave him alone like this ?"

"Didn't you see him ?"

"Hyung looked so broken."

"I know."

"I saw it,too." The elder said in pained voice.

"We can't go inside the room but we can wait for him outside the room,right ?"

And the younger nodded immediately.

"Yes,we can."

"We can."

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"It hurt me everytime to say no to you for every plan you made for us."

"If it hurt than why did you say no to me,Jeon Namjoon ?" Cried Jin as the anger filled him.

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"Joonie, can we go to the beach,today ?"

"I really want to see the sunset and it's been so long that we went there."Said Jin with a big smile.

He was already excited for the drive and the fun they would have there.

But Namjoon just hummed in a non-chalant manner as he looked up from the laptop.

"I don't think it'll be possible,today. Sorry."

"Why don't we go some other, hyung ? I really have to submit it by this evening." He said and gestured to all the work that covering their coffee table.

Jin face fell at his suggestion but he understood it.

So, instead he gave him a beautiful smile and nodded.

"Ofcourse, we can go some other time. Don't worry."

The younger didn't even look up from his file and nodded.

"Thankyou for understanding,hyung."

Jin stared at him for a moment.

Namjoon did look really serious while working.

Maybe it's something really important. He thought.

Jin sighed and shook his head.

"Do you want coffee,Joonie ?"

"Yes,it would be great. Thankyou, hyung."

Namjoon still didn't look up and Jin frowned a little.

But the elder still got up to get some coffee for his husband.

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"All of this just sound like excuses to me,Jeon Namjoon." He screamed and crashed everything that was on the cabinet near him in anger.

"The guilt and pain was so strong that I started to ignore you just to not say no to you. "

"You are talking about your guilt ?"

"The fucking guilt made you ignore me."

"No."

"It's not because of your guilt."

"It's because you are a coward."He said and kicked the coffee table.

"You are a coward."

"You hear me."

"A coward."

He threw cushions on the ground as he breathed heavily.

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Taehyung flinched when he heard the sound of objects hitting the ground and Jin's scream from outside.

He was standing a little bit away from the door in the hallway.

While Jimin was sitting on the floor in front of the door as he leaned against the wall. His knees pulled up in front of him.

His face all blank compared to the younger,who was on the verge of crying.

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Jungkook and Yoongi walked side by side. But they frowned and stopped when Taehyung and Jimin came up in their view.

They walked upto them all concerned.

"What happened ?"Questioned the eldest.

Jimin just shook his head and pointed his chin out forward to gesture towards the familiar room.

And just than they also heard Jin's shout filled with so much frustration.

Suddenly both of them had an idea on what was going on.

Taehyung silently streched his hand forward for Jungkook to take, who readily moved to his side to give some much needed comfort.

And after a particular loud sound from inside. Jimin ducked his head and covered it with his hands.

And Yoongi moved to sit down beside him.

"It's okay. Everything will be fine."He whispered.

And placed younger's head on his shoulder and rubbed his back to give him some comfort.

Taehyung had already turned into Jungkook arms and was crying silently.

"Will he be fine ?" The younger asked.

And Jungkook shook his head.

"I don't know."

"I have no idea."

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"On the other hand, mother had her own ideas on making you miserable because she thought it was all because of you that I was in that place."

"So, even if I wanted talk to you first. I had to be careful."

"I didn't want her to hurt you."

"You didn't want her to hurt me ?"

"But you do realise that you hurt me so much more."

"So much more than her,Namjoon."

Tears spilled from his eyes as he picked up the glass from the bed side table and threw it on the floor, breaking it into many pieces.

"Bullshit."

"I call it bullshit."

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Taehyung hugged back Jungkook tightly as the other tried to calm him down.

"It'll be fine,soon."

"Don't cry."

And another crash was heard.

Yoongi sighed as he held Jimin's hand in his.

Hoseok carefully walked into the hallway and quietly leaned against the wall near Jin's room door.

His face blank but his eyes shone with so much worry for his hyung.

Yoongi and he made an eye contact and a silent conversation happened between them.

Hoseok blinked his eyes in an assuring way and Yoongi nodded.

It will be fine. They thought.

They desparately hoped for it.

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"You reached out to me countless times and I didn't even reach back to you,once."

"But stupid me didn't realise that I was doing so much worse to you than her."

"The goal and position become so important to me that I forgot how important you were to me."

"I started taking you for granted."

"You did."

"You did take me for granted."

"You took me and my love for granted, Namjoon."

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"What would you like to order ?"

"I would like to--" said Jin and looked up only to frown when he saw Namjoon on the phone.

"Actually we'll order later."

"Sure."The waiter bowed and left.

The elder cleared his throat to get his husband's attention.

And younger's head immediately perked up.

"Sorry." He apologized and placed the phone down on the table.

"No more phone for today please, Namjoon."

"It's our time."

And the other chuckled awkwardly.

"I'll try,Jin."

The elder stared at him for a moment and nodded.

"Good."

"Do you know how long has it been since we even properly talked to each other ?"

"So,I want this night to be just us."

"Yes,and it will be."

"Now,tell me what did you choose from the menu ? "

Jin crossed his hands and his lips formed into a pout.

"You don't remember what I always choose ? "

And Namjoon shook his head with a smile.

"Okay than your regular and I'll take the same."

The younger raised his hand in air for the waiter.

"Excuse me,we are ready to order."

But just than Namjoon's phone buzzed. And Jin held back a sigh.

The other gave him a look of sorry and took his phone.

He read the message as his eyes widened.

"I'm sorry,Jin. Some important work came up."

"I need to leave for the office."

"What ?"

"Can't anybody else handle it ? Is it necessary for you to go ?"

Namjoon frowned.

"I'm the future CEO of the company,Jin. Ofcourse it's important for me to go."

"I am so sorry that our night got ruined."

"Fine."The elder said tiredly.

And honestly he was so tired of Namjoon's action and behaviours.

It hurt him.

"Come on,I'll drop you home on the way." Said the younger and stood up from his chair, placing his phone in the pocket.

But Jin shook his head.

"No need. I can go myself."

"Are you sure ?"

"I am. Don't worry,just go."

"Thankyou for being so understanding,Jin."

The elder just gave a half-hearted nod.

I don't want to be so understanding. He thought and bit his lips.

Namjoon walked upto his side and kissed him on his forehead.

"I'll plan something else like this for us,yeah ?"

"Yeah." Whispered Jin.

If only Namjoon had paid attention. He could have noticed the pain in Jin's voice.

And when the younger walked away.

He took a deep breathe and stared outside the window.

"That's what you said all the times before."

"But you never do,Namjoon."

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"Yoongi was right, you know."

"The position and power changes you."

"And it did change me slowly but for worse."

"Yes,you changed."

"You are not my Joonie from the past."

"You are not my Joonie." He sobbed.

"Reputation and success started meaning a lot more to me than relationships and family."

"And when I finally made it to my goal. I found myself all alone."

"What else did you expect,huh ?"

"You didn't care about relationships,family."

"You didn't care about me."

"So,what else did you expect ?"

"I couldn't find it in myself to reach to you and you had stopped reaching to me ages ago."

"Do you have any idea on how long I tried to reach you ?"

"How long I told myself that everything will be fine ?"

"How long I waited for you ?"

"How long I waited for my Joonie ? "

"Do you have any fucking idea ?"

"Do you,Jeon Namjoon ?"

"I should have been smart at that time and address our situation. So we could talk it out and be better for each other."

"But no."

"I was a coward. I didn't do anything."

"And continued avoiding you by burying myself in work."

"Yes,you are a coward."

"A coward,who couldn't stand up for himself nor his husband."

"A big fucking coward."

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"And it's all because of me."

"I happened to us,hyung."

"I."

"Only me."

"I am the only reason we are like this." Said Namjoon.

"Yes, it's all because of you."

"Only you."

"Only you are the reason we are like this."

"I am like this."

"I am not the Jin I was before."

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"Don't cry."Whispered Yoongi to Jimin when he heard quiet sniffles from the younger.

"How can I not ?"

"He suffered so much,hyung."

"So fucking much."

Yoongi patted his head and hid younger's face in his nape.

"He did."

"He really did."

But in the middle of it all both of them failed to notice that Namjoon was also there standing at the end hallway as his gaze never left the room Jin was in.

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"Do we even love each other now ?"

Namjoon raised his head and looked at him.

A sigh escaped his lips as he held a tired expression on his face.

"I think we both know the answer to that question,hyung."

Jin fell on his knees as a broken cry escaped his lips.

"Yes."

"Yes."

"We both know the answer to that question, Jeon Namjoon."

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