Walking through my front door and sighed tiredly, before throwing myself onto the couch. Today has been exhausting both physically and emotionally and it's only seven o'clock at night.

Work has been chaos, I have four different events going on in the next three months, so that's all over the place, lucky enough Amber is happy to help, I swear she will make a great event planner one day, if she ever decided that's what she wanted to do, I would hire her as a planner in a heartbeat.

But the hardest part about today was, seeing Scott for the first time in five years again, that's played with my head more than I care to admit. Seeing him was hard but seeing him like that was harder.

Because when Scott and I were together, he was strong you know, never let anything get to him, never cried in front of me if he could help it. He always kept his emotions to himself, but this morning he just looked broken and I've never really seen him like that before, even in the five years we were together.

It's simply weird not knowing how to feel after I saw him again, I thought if I ever saw Scott Vaughan again, I would feel nothing but hate and despise the man.

Then this morning when I saw him for the first time again, I didn't feel hate or anger, I just felt sad.

I always thought I was doing the right thing, by keeping Scott out of my life and Remi's life, now after today, after seeing him again, I'm not so sure anymore.

"Hey sweetheart, how was your day?" I heard my mother ask me, snapping out of my thoughts and turn to look at her, she was kind enough to watch Remi for me today while I went to work and everything else.

This morning I didn't mention that I was going to see Oliver at the hospital, and I didn't mention that I was going to see Scott either. My mom hates Scott, she didn't when I first introduced him to her, but after he left me for no reason other than to become famous and sleep around, she wanted to literally slap the crap out of him. And this morning I just didn't want the lecture from her, so I didn't tell her.

"Long. How was Remi today?" I asked about my daughter and a smile appears on my face. Mom takes a seat on the couch and smiles.

"A perfect angel as always-;" Mom began talking but cut off and sighed before turning her eyes back to me, with a look in them, that says, she wants to say something that she knows I'm not going to like.

"I heard about Scott on the radio this morning, how do you feel about it?" She added, shaking my head, looking at her with a firm look.

I knew this was coming. It's been on the radio and news all day about Scott, so it was only a matter of time before mom heard about it and she asked about it.

"I don't know mom...... how is one person supposed to feel about their Ex being in a car accident?" I answered, my tone dripping annoyance and sarcasm.

feeling mom's eyes on me as I spoke.

"Scott is just not an Ex Ella, he's also the father of your child," She said, shaking my head and threw her another annoyed look, I don't have the energy for this. I don't have the energy for her.

"I know that mom, but what do you want me to say?" I argued.

She looks at me sadly before replying,

"Just talk to me, Ella"

I've always been able to talk to my mom about anything, I mean for my whole life it was just me and her against everything and everyone. And she's always done the best for me, my whole life she has been an incredible mother.

But she's always had strong opinions on what I should have done and what I shouldn't have done with my life choices.

After how things ended with Scott, she enforced her opinion about him, and about me being a single mother. I just don't want to feel like I did back then when I told her that I was pregnant with Remi.

I admit it she was so supportive, even though I was only nineteen, but I was pregnant for nine months, and okay fair enough she was there for me for those months and the months to follow after Remi was born.

But it also came with remarks about how hard motherhood could be, especially when you're a single mother. Also, how Scott should step up and be a man, those kinds of remarks, it pushed us apart from a little, I don't want that to happen again. So, I've always tried to keep my feelings about Scott from her, at the risk of a fight.

"I went to the hospital today, mostly I went to check on Oliver because I knew Amanda was worried, but when I saw Scott lying there it was a slap to the face mom-;" I broke off confessing and turned to look at my mom.

"You saw Scott, did he talk to you?" Mom asks me, shaking my head.

"No, he was still unconscious" I replied,

"How did seeing him again make you feel?" she asked me again.

"I don't know mom, it made me sad to think that he could have died without knowing the existence of his own daughter. But that said I don't want him a part of her life, so what kind of mother does that make me?" I cried.

"It makes you a good mother for doing what's best for your child" She tried to reassure me, but I can't help but think that I am being petty because he hurt me, and I've always made sure that I had logic behind why I never told Scott about Remi. Why I kept her from him but after today, I just don't know anymore.

"Or maybe it makes me a selfish one, for keeping his daughter away from him. Because I didn't want to co-parent with the guy who broke my heart" I admitted, while wiping the tears from my cheeks.

"Protecting your daughter doesn't make you selfish it makes you strong," mom said.

"What happens when she grows up and she finds out that the reason she never had a father, was because I kept him away from her because I made that choice," I said through my tears.

"Ella five years ago Scott made a choice that was the best for him, and you made the choice that was best for yourself and Remi at the time, you should never feel guilty for that because I don't think Scott ever, has. Remi will understand that one day-;" Mom cut off and took my hands and looked at me with that motherly look.

"That said you are older now, and if you feel like Remi should know Scott then it's your call and nobody else's to can make it for you" She added, nodding her head and sighed sadly.

It is my choice, but I just do not know if I should be making it right now. Because it's a choice that involves many people, and one of those people is my daughter.

So I have to make sure I'm making the right choice for her, regardless of my own feelings in the process.