| YOONGI

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yoongi was stupid.

stupid being because he thought everything would get better.

but nothing works that way because being happy took time but yoongi was more than ready to give up the entirety of being happy all together.

he wanted to be happy and optimistic all the time just like jimin. he wanted jin's enthusiasm and his wonderful look on the world, they both had bright futures ahead of them. yoongi had absolutely nothing to hold onto.

as soon as college was done the boy had planned to just pack up and go pursue his dreams, but when you have such a horrible outlook on life and your brain is completely occupied by thoughts of how everyone wouldn't look twice if you just suddenly died what was the point of having a dream in the first place.

worn out shoes lay abandoned on the floor accompanied by old, probably mouldy to-go cups of drinks that jimin had bought for him because yoongi couldn't even order them for himself because ordering something on his own was terrifying, so scary that the last time he had attempted to order a cup of coffee, his throat fell dry and he couldn't even muster up the courage to even say one word.

and he felt pathetic, he felt weak and unaccomplished. not only did he have depression that he couldn't do anything about but his social anxiety sat on his back making everything for the boy even worse.

life at the moment was a downward spiral and young didn't know how to get back up.

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are you awake ?

is typing...

what are u doing up so late?

i could ask you the same thing

touché

seriously wyd up so late

thinking about shit

same sigh

i'm also working on a project atm

i'm not bothering you am i ??

if i am pls mute me or smth ohmygod

????????nope????u????could??never???bother???me????..

just!!!!!making!!!!!sure??!!??!?

don't!!!!!!u!!!!!!worry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!love!!u!!!!!!so!!!much!!!!!!!!more!!!than!!!!a!!!project?!

i needed a break from it anyway

besides i would much rather talk to you than complete a project

may or may not be blushing

CUTE

you're a lot more cuter than you come off as

that made no sense so i'm just gonna say thanks

good call

hey hoseok

hey hyung

do you wanna like videocall or smth

!!!!!! really ?????????

yes !!!!!!! it'll be fun ???!!

as fun as two bored teens who are sleep deprived !!!

i wanna see ur cute face

do u just flirt with me 24/7 for fun

smh no

i wanna see if ur a catfish or not

uhhello you're the one with the god like cheekbones not me

STILL

ft ? ;)

u sound like a fuckboy

but i don't own an iphone sooooo

skype ??????!!?!?!

my user is the same as this one

;)

on it

is typing...

i'm back

just to confirm

ur the cutie with the kumamon pfp

????????????????? yes ???

well that's the only person w/ that username so oBVIOUSLY

maybe i just wanted to comment on it

smh

add me before i change my mind

adding u nowww~

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clammy hands rubbed together, sweat collecting on yoongi's brow. he had never ever gotten this close with a person on the internet before and it was beyond terrifying.

especially as hoseok was too perfect to be talking to someone like him and yoongi was utterly convinced that hoseok had to be some sort of sneaky catfish.

sweat collected on his palms and drained to his fingertips as his fingers glided along the keys and opened up the long forgotten application that was 'skype'. the last time the ravenette had skyped someone was way back in high school when an old friend of his needed some help on her biology homework.

jolting up, he padded over to the smallish mirror which was snugly fitted into the corner of his room, the black in his hair looked faded, and the lighting of the room gave the illusion of brownish hair stranded along his forehead.

yoongi laid back on his bed and cracked his joints before nibbling at a loose strand on seokjin's hoodie that he had decided to throw on. the clothing was large on the paler boy and comforting and yoongi decided he would re-home the clothing after seokjin left it at his place a couple of months ago, crashing there after a party that dealt too many drinks than it should've.

[] urhope added you!

deep breaths were taken and yoongi hit the blue phone icon located next to the username.

the familiar dial tone rang and yoongi fixed a few loose pieces of hair before waiting for the younger to pick up.

why was he doing this? what if hoseok didn't like his personality? what if hoseok was going to give up on him? what if hoseo-

"yoongi hello!"

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a/n quick update, sorry for not updating for a while my apologies &also i love being a media student so i can make shit edits for this book it's fun lmao