[Diary]

12th March, 2015

Tuesday (06:00 AM)

Dear Diary,

So hmmm, oh yes I was going to write about the December incident.

During my course of acting normal, I started observing and realizing somethings. The main thing I observed was that Mana was always following after Aran and would always stick by his side, I thought she was sticking to Aran like I was sticking to Shreya to become normal so I asked Mana about it and apparently, she became shy and her cheeks turned slightly red and I became surprised like what was that reaction and change in personality so I asked Shreya about it and after listening to me her expression became sour and angry again I was surprised that always composed Shreya behaved like that but she still answered my question and said it is a thing called "Love".

I became interested in this thing called "Love" and by asking nuns about it they gave me some storybooks with extremely happy faces and again I was surprised, now I definitely have to see this thing called "Love" which made people make such vivid expressions. After that, I read various books on "Love" and found out various things like romance, kiss, confessions, Love triangles, sweet moments, etc... but the thing that interested me the most was "Jealousy" as this was the thing that made people do some pretty fun stuff and I realized why I pestered my mother about father was because I was apparently "Jealous" of other children having this father thing and was one of the reasons why I apparently "Bullied" them other than getting fun and pleasure out of it and Shreya made that expression because of jealousy. I realized "Jealousy" is the most fun thing in this world.

After that, I observed more and more people and researched various types of expressions they make during various circumstances and it was like I was having the time of my life and as I 'accidentally overheard' many people conversations and talked with many while being normal I realized how good information is and by spreading it in a perfect way you can make people do things they normally don't and make expressions you can only imagine in your wildest imaginations, then doing all this December came.

Till now I only had fun with children who were not close to me so I thought what would it feel like if I did this stuff to my 3 close friends Shreya, Mana, and Aran. My reputation in the orphanage was pretty bad right now as many children realized that the fun spreading rumors around here was me as I didn't do a good job of covering up so if I have to do stuff like that again I would also have to cover-up nicely so I started observing my 3 friends more closely and personally while acting normal.

I observed that those 3 were in a Love triangle with both girls apparently having "romantic feelings" for the boy and the boy having conflicting feelings for both of them. Now while writing this I once again realize how amazing this thing "Love" is making such complicated situations.

So during mid-December, I saw Mana and Aran going to someplace alone while 'observing' them so I called Shreya to come and meet me here and while she was on the way I hid someplace else and observed the three of them so when Shreya saw Mana and Aran being very close to each other she started silently crying and ran away and I got a new feeling of "guilt" out of it but more than that I started getting excited. After that, I researched what this "guilt" is as didn't experience it when I had fun with other children so I guessed this only arises when you have fun with someone close to you so if I realized if there is guilt then there must other new feelings you can get by having fun with friends.

Next week I observed that Mana was going to the back of the orphanage so before that, I called Shreya and Aran there and again hid somewhere near. Shreya told Aran about the thing she saw him doing with Mana and Aran got panicked expression and started explaining that it was all Mana's fault and I thought that reason he lied was that he couldn't choose between the two and even though it was an obvious lie Shreya believed it and I thought, "WOW! how amazing is this thing called "Love". As expected Aran came and saw those two.

During the huge fight between the 2 girls Aran tried to calm them down but both of them even pushed him into it and 3 of them fought and I got more and more pleasure and excitement but it soon ended after nun came stopped it after that 3 of them separated and never talked again and also realized I was the one who initiated it seems like I again failed to cover up nicely.

After our separations, I became a hated existence in the orphanage and I got a very strange feeling of ecstasy from it knowing that now nobody in this orphanage will forget me for the rest of their life and my expression of "Love" and "Jealousy" became even more delightful as it so easily able to destroy people's relationships but I also got new feelings of "Sadness", "Great Guilt", and feeling shitty about myself and now I was at peace because now everyone in orphanage has broken relationships just like my mother and thus I realized my true self is what they call in books a "Demon" and I had great pleasure and fun in being it.

Mayuri

[Mayuri's POV]

"hmmmmm... " just thinking about it again makes me all tingly. Now I better get ready to have breakfast with my new "Family".