[Diary]

17th March, 2015

Sunday (10:00 PM)

Dear Diary,

Last week on Monday while I was still in the orphanage a num came and told me that someone came to adopt me so I went to see them they were Mr.Joshi Jansha who has a mix of the white and black hair wearing a perfect size suit with glasses on his eyes and his wife Mrs.Palak Jansha has dull silver hair with an oval face and sharp eyes with thin lips and was wearing a red saree (https://imgur.com/a/USxLizH) so you can say that both of them were looking quite good.

Apparently, they wanted to adopt a child close to their daughter's age who is 12 years old and their daughter whose name is Mehak also wanted a sibling. So in the orphanage, as I was 11 years old was the closet so they asked me whether I wanted to go or not but I could tell from the nun's facial expression that she really wanted a problem child like me to go so I told them I would answer tomorrow.

After that, I started thinking about whether I wanted to go or not. So I came to the conclusion that only small things can be done here for fun anymore as nobody talks to me and if I went to Jansha's house then I will have an older sister and a school to go to and imagining all the children in school with whom I can play with I didn't find any reason to refuse so the next morning I told them I wanted to go and Mr. and Mrs. Jansha made a very happy expression and nun made an expression of relief.

On Wednesday morning I went with jansha's to a large building where they registered my name as Mayuri Jansha, when I asked them what it meant they told me that now I officially am a member of Jansha family. After that, they took me to their home which was a large bungalow. It was my first time seeing such a huge house with a large garden outside and 3 cars parked along the entrance door with a fountain in a middle it was like I was in heaven and I still think that but now more strongly because now I know Big Sister Mehak.

I still remember when I first saw her after entering the house that she was just like an angle with little shiny silver hair, black eyes, small nose and a little thick lips and perfectly round face and now that I have seen various faces and have a little more knowlege about comparing faces I thought that she got the most beautiful face I have ever seen.

At first I acted normal becasue when I act like my true self people start hating me and for some reason I didn't want Mehak to do it so I acted like a normal child in front of them and as expected Mr. and Mrs. Jansha immediately took liking to me and started giving me gifts and treated me nicey and kindly, I don't know why but it felt good being treated like that.

As for sis she was like a perfect person, she would always talk to me, play with me, and whenever there was even a slithest problem she would immediatley come to me to solve it. I thought by acting normal they take such good care of me especially bis sis but will they still care for me I started acting like myself, would they start to hate me like everyone else, would they abondem me like everyone else and for some reason I didn't want that to happen I wanted to stay in this house for rest of my life but if that has to happen then I would have to act normal for rest of life and wouldn't that be just runing away from problem and I didn't want that.

I was growing more and more paranoid about how should I act, should I act like a normal and perfect child or not. I just thought about this day and night and whenever I thought about acting like myself and started taking initiative for it I would remember Mr. and Mrs. Jansha and big sis kind and happy faces and saw it switching to faces of disguist, so I would get scared everytime by it and couldn't do anything. Perhaps noticing that something is wrong with me big sis came to my room this wednesday or 3 days ago.

Like always we started playing and talking and like always those thoughts were going in my head when suddenly big sis asked,"Mayuri I know there is something going through your head right now and if you think I can solve it or listen to it then please say it after all aren't we sisters and family".

Those words hit me like a truck and I realized, yes we are a family and a family is supposed to carry all your problems and solve them even though I never saw a glimpse of that till now but maybe just maybe they will not be like everyone else so I decided to take a risk and tell big sis that right now I am acting like a perfect child but would she and would Mr. and Mrs. Jansha hate me if I start acting like how I usually act. I didn't tell her what my usual self is like as I thought that would be a very stupid thing to do as I just wanted conformation that if I started acting some other way they would not hate me.

Big sis made a troubled expression and after thinking for a while said,"hmm I don't know what your usual self is like and I always had a feeling that you were just being way to perfect, so that's why you started acting little strange few days ago". After saying that she held my hand and said the words I would never forget,"Umm t-t-this is a-a little embarasing to say BUT! I promise that no matter how you act I would never hate you and would always be your bis sis no matter what happens". Then her cheeks got little red and she became embarrased by what she just said and told me,"so y-yeah t-that's that a-a-and YES! act normal infront of father and mother and other children because I don't know wheather they would say the same things as I did. But you can ask mother and father and they would probably say the same thing".

At that moment my mid went blank, I mean so much Love and so much kindness I have never experienced before from someone else and being overwhelmed by emotions I started crying and bis sis panicked and hugged me and being in that warm hug I realized that, yes yes yes big sis is the one big sis is the only one who would accept me no matter what and if that's the case I would follow her and never let anyone bring harm to her for rest of my life and would stick by her side every second of time to never miss a single thing about big sis

Mayuri

[Mayuri's POV]

"ah just thinking about that again made me cry" like big sis is the best.

'now let's see what she is doing right now' I closed the diary put in drawer and started walking toward big sis room and opened the door. She is already sleeping, must be tired from all the games we played. I walked towards her and sat on the ground beside her observing her face and calmly listing to her sleeping and breathing sounds.

'hmmmm this is it, this is it, this is what heaven feels like ' and i wonder wheather big sis would be happy seing my face first thing in the morning, hmm let's test it out. So i stayed awake all night thorougly observing big sis face, I mean there was never a moment of boredom in it all the way it was exciting and when she slowly opened her eyes and saw me right next to her face I said,"BIG SIS! GOOD MORNING!" and hugged her tighly, ah yes this is heaven.