I made my to school and got out and went to the library. A frown was apparent on my face. The scene went through my head over and over again. It was like a vicious cycle. It disturb me whenever I tried to read a book.

Sighing, I slam the book on the table and lean back in the sofa.

"Fuckkk" I grumbled to myself.

I didn't want to think of anything at the moment. I don't even know how I will act with Nicole. It was starting to piss me off. I could feel a headache forming. Maybe I could say I'm sick and go home.

Deciding to choose that choice, I made my way to the nurse. Walking down the hallway I just kept my head down. I guess I'm still afraid. Walking to the nurses room meant that I have to walk pass Nicole's classroom and honestly I don't know what my reaction will be when I see her, or not.

I quicken my pace. Time felt like it slowed down as I walked past her classroom. Having no control over my movements, my head turn and look in the classroom just in time as she turned to the door.

A smile made a way on her face, I looked away before I could see it farther. I just continue walking.

Suddenly I felt a strong, sharp pain in my chest. Automatically I place my hand on my heart and rubbed the spot. I felt my tears well up.

Fuck!!!

I finally felt.

My heart beating fast.

Tears pooling more and more in my eyes.

My vision blurry.

And finally

My heart breaking....

A soft sob left my mouth. I placed a hand against my mouth. It hurts so bad. I don't like it at all!

I wiped my tears away as I knocked on the nurses door. She opened the door and helped me. She allowed me to go home as she noticed my red eyes. I thanked her and walked once again past Nicole's classroom. This time her door was closed. I felt my heart constricted once again.

I'm so stupid.

I made my way to my car, not before seeing Nicole once again. This time she was talking to a teacher. I saw her look my way but I looked again down before she see my red eyes.

Why do I keep seeing her?

I walked both her and the teacher without looking or greeting them. I felt drained.

"Eva!?" I heard her call out.

I ignored her kept walking. Her voice was always what I wanted to hear every single day, it caused my happiness. But now it hurt my heart to hear her call out to me.

I just needed to be alone.

I finally to my car and drove home. I hurriedly got out of my car and slam the door shut. I could feel frustrations and anger building up.

I opened my home door and ran up the stairs to my room and collapsed face first on the bed.

That is when I let it all out. I screamed in my pillow as tears and tears ran down my face. I cried and cried till I could no more. I gasps for air as the struggle to breathe. It hurt so bad. I just want the pain to go away.

I banged my hands against my heart.

I just wanted someone to love me. I believed that she would be different. I gave her my virginity. Am I just a naive girl?

"Stupid, stupid girl" i sob as I banged my hands against my head.

I need to feel something, pain.

I don't know what happened, next thing I knew I was falling asleep.

Why would she hurt me like this, just why.. we're the thoughts that ran through my head as I fell into a dreamland.

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