I woke up happy, even before my alarm rang. There is a first for everything. I showered and did my facial routine. Finally done with putting on sunscreen, I walked to my desk where I left my outfit.

It was something simple but cute and it is long sleeved, so it cover my cuts in my arms. My cuts are slowly healing, which I'm happy for. I honestly never thought that I would come this far without harming myself, and for that I am really proud of myself.

I did a bit of a natural makeup look, which I loved. I made my hair in a high ponytail. So that's that. Happy with the outcome, I picked up my phone a send Nicole a 'good morning message'.

I can't believe I'm excited on a Monday. I made my way downstairs and made my way to my car. I had time to spare so I made my way to my new work place. The bell dinged as I enter. I wave a quick 'hello' on my way to the counter as I saw Emily. A smile light up on her face as she waved back.

"Good morning"

"Good morning to you too. You look really cute today" she smirked as she looked at me up and down.

"Thank you" I thank her as a blush coat my cheeks.

'Damn, I need to stop getting so flustered'

"No, don't stop on my account, I like seeing you get all flustered for me" she softly chuckled.

My face heat more up in embarrassment.

"Stoopppp"

"Fine, what would you like today?" smiling softly at me.

"I would like a ice coffee and a croissant, please" I said.

"Coming right up!" She winked at me before making my order.

I looked away from her and I slowly took in the people around me. There were not a lot of people, thankfully. While looking a spotted a familiar face, Nicole. A smile automatically beam in my face.

I debated whether I should choose up to her and say hello. Doing I quick pep talk to myself, I slowly made my way to her table.

Getting a bit closer, I saw someone with her at the table, a man. From where I can see, he was holding her hand and gently stroking it. My breath hitched as I stopped midway. My eyes dart between them. I could not read Nicole's face expression and I could not see the guys face. I moved slowly backwards and hid by the bathrooms.

I watched from afar as they interacted with each other. She smiled lovingly at him, while stroking his hand back. Confusion, was all I felt. I did not want to jump to conclusions like I did last time. I promised Nicole that I would do better.

But now I was not so sure.

He slowly leaned over the table to kiss her. Everything felt in slow motion. She did not look like she was going to move away from his lips. She was willingly going accept the kiss. I could feel my eyes burning. I looked away before they kissed.

I turning my back to them and slowly took breaths in and out. My breaths came out uneven and short.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck" I cursed

What the hell!!! It can't be possible!

No, no, no!

She wouldn't do that! It can be a friend or..... I don't know.

I turned back around and faced them once again. They gather their things and slowly made their way to the door.

"Eva, your order is ready!" Emily called out from behind the counter.

I watched Nicole stop by the door and turned around, looking around the shop. I saw panic in her eyes. Her eyes dart everywhere. The guy grabbed her hand before saying something. I saw her exhale a breath of relief. She smiled at him before saying something back, she took the guys hand and made her way out.

I scurried into the bathroom, as tears roll down my face. I wiped my tears away with a tissue and slowly got my breath under control.

I felt nothing. I did not know what I'm feeling. I felt no sadness, no heartbreak. I did not know why though. I felt fine now. I smiled at myself in the mirror before I made my way to Emily and collected my order. Waving goodbye to Emily, I made my way to the park.

I sat in the park and eat my breakfast. I crumbled it up and throw it in the trash. I sat for another 10 minutes, before I made my way to my car. I got in my car and drove to school.

The scene still went through my mind. But it seem like my mind did not want to accept what happen. For the first time, I had no breakdown, nothing.

Weird!

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