Third person pov

Eva groan as she slowly opened her eyes to adjust to the light. Her eyes felt swollen and sting of all the crying she did. She slowly sat up in her bed and laid against the bed rest of her bed. Rubbing the gunk out of her eyes, she adjust to the light. Piece by piece everything that happen came back to her like a strong wave, knocking the air out of you.

She felt like she was going to cry again but she couldn't anymore even if she tried to. She had cried so much, it had dried up. Her mood deflated 10 times more than before. At this point she did not know what to do anymore. Everything was finally falling into place. It felt right. But not now...

Everything was to good to be true.

Eva looked out the window and saw it was dark outside. It was nighttime. She had slept so long without waking up. She reached for her phone and saw notification across the home screen of her phone. About 10 notifications came through and 3 missed calls. She check the time as saw it was already 9 o'clock.

She opened her phone and went to her messages from Nicole. She open the messages and felt her throat tighten up.

N: hey, are you okay?

07:50 am.

N: I'm worried about you.

08:10 am.

N: I'm calling you now please pick up and tell

me if you okay.

11:09 am.

N: Please pick up!!!!

11:20 am.

N: I went to the nurse and she told me you felt

unwell, do you need me to take care of you

after school?

11:59 am.

N: Eva, can you please reply to my messages.

Im calling again!!

12:20 am.

N: You probably sleeping. Im sorry, I didn't

even realise. Silly me😂.

12:30 am

N: Call me when you get up. Bye.

13:00 pm.

N: EVA!!!! Pick me up your phone please I'm

getting really worried now. Its past midday

already. Im kind of freaking out.

18:00 pm.

N: You did not look at me when I called you at

school or greet me back either. Not even

spare me a glance. I hope you not upset

with me or anything like that. But just call

or text me just to say you okay so that I can

just stop worrying a bit.

20:59 pm.

Eva let out a deep breath as she read the messages. The last message was send recently. It sent a a stake through her heart. She debated whether to reply or not. It hurt her to know that the woman did not think she did anything wrong. Eva choked a sob back and swallow harshly. She locked her phone and through it harshly against the bed. She sluggishly got up and made her way downstairs to eat.

She felt tired and drained. Eva opened the cupboards doors and took out cereal to eat. Next she opened the drawer the the spoons and knifes.

The silver knife stood out brightly against the black drawer. It drew her in like a moth to a light. Her breath slowly speed up but she hurriedly grabbed a spoon and closed the drawer shut. She slumped against the cupboards and breath heavily. Her mind ran fast.

God!! She wished the thoughts would stop. She did not want to go through that path again. She did not want to hurt herself again. But she couldn't help it.

The one person that promised not to hurt her, did. The one person she loved so much hurt her as if it was nothing. She couldn't fathom it.

Nicole was her everything. She wanted Nicole. She wanted to be like Nicole. Nicole was her person.

The scene of Nicole and that man stain in her brain. Like food colouring under your finger nails. When she blinked she saw them. The knife indented in her mind.

Eva knew she was fighting a losing battle.

She ate her cereal as tears fell into her bowl. Each mouth full of cereal muffled her screams of hurt and agony. It hurt. It felt as if her heart burned. Everything was not forever. And she realised it for the thousand time.

All she knew is...... that it was time.......

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