Confessions Pt II

“You're kidding right?”, I chucked lightly, clearly amused at what he just said, thinking it was one of his funny jokes

“I don't usually joke about things like this, I'm actually deadly serious”, he stated without even flinching

“I'm falling in love with you”, he repeated and I stared at him for like a whole minute, hoping that he could say something else or burst out into laughter, telling me that he was kidding or something, but he didn't

......that's just when my world started crumbling around me, and I'm sure you know what happens after that, right?

I felt my heart stop beating, and I froze in my spot, my stomach twisting and there was suddenly this tightening feeling around my chest causing me to start breathing differently

“Are you okay?”, he asked when I reached for the door handle to get out so that I can get some fresh air, and he followed me out of the car, standing closely behind me

“W....why would y…you even say that?”, I turned to look at him, fighting the tears that were gathering in my eyes, and he sighed heavily, this wasn't the reaction he was expecting to get and it showed

“I'm at the point where I can't bring myself to lie about how I really feel about you anymore”, he answered, and I bit hard on my T-shirt to stop myself from crying. “Ever since that night, I can't seem to get you out of my mind, you're all that I think about”

“Nathan-”,

“I've been spending these past few weeks getting to know you and even so, it's still not enough because I'm left thinking when will I see you again, and so I come up excuses just so that I can get close to you, kiss you and just hold you in my arms as long as I possibly can because when I'm with you, I genuinely feel like there's no place I'd rather be because for once in a very long time, I feel like I'm alive again”

“I don't believe this”, tears were already streaming down my face, maybe a bit overwhelmed by emotions of him confessing his feelings to me, which was something I never had the courage to do my entire life

“It took me a while to finally open my heart up to someone”, he took my hand in his. “I don't know how to explain this to you but I know for a fact that I like you way too more than just a friend or a person I regularly hook up with. I have genuine feelings for your, and I can't bring myself to hide or lie about them anymore”, he cupped my face in his hands, slowly wiping the tears that were streaming down my cheeks.

“Please say something”, he pleaded, and I couldn't bring myself to say something in relation to what he just said, instead I buried my face in my hands and I felt him pull me into a hug, kissing the top of my head as he tightened his arms around me, locking my body in his warm embrace while running his hand up and down my back

“I think I want to go back home”, I said quietly while breaking away from him and I saw the light in his eyes fade in disappointment as he gave a short nod while dropping his head to look on the ground. I walked past him to get back in the passenger seat then saw him through the window running his hands though his face in frustration, kicking a few rocks on his way back to the car.

Closing the door after he got inside, he sighed while leaning back on the driver's seat and I felt his gaze on me the entire time while I looked out of the window

“Aren't we at least going to try and talk about it?”, he asked, his hand brushing against mine, but I withdrew my hand from his, not bothering to look at him or answer his question

-That's really mature, I know

“Okay”, I heard him utter under his breath and he turned the ignition on. When we reached my apartment building, I quickly got out of the car and aimed at the entrance without looking back, then heard the sound of his car driving off.

The weekend of Tristan's surprise party was soon upon us, and it meant I had to face Nathan again after his whole falling for me confession. I honestly wanted to run for the hills and never have to face him again because I was anxious about a lot of things. Mostly because I liked our relationship so much, I felt like a serious-romantic relationship would change things between us and that things would never be the same anymore.

But either way, things had accelerated way past our control. I don't deny it, I also had feelings for him but honestly, the feeling of being in love scared me so much I was looking for reasons not to like him anymore so that I could stop fantasizing about the thought of him and me being in a relationship.

...... not that it helped though cause each time I'm around him, he gave me even more reasons to like him

He was slowly turning into a drug and, I just couldn't help but get addicted to him. The chemistry between us was too strong to ignore.

Then it hit me, I wasn't afraid of the feeling of love, I was just afraid of him leaving me for some reason one day

“So what are you going to do?”, Anna asked when I just told her what happened after coming to terms with the whole reality. We were carpooling to work this week because my car had to be serviced for the weekend trip.

“I think I'm going to get a tattoo”, I answered while looking out of the window and I felt her pinch my arm with her eyes focused on the road

“Ow”, I winced while rubbing her nail marks off my skin. “What was that for?”

“You're being really stupid”, she pointed a finger at me. “I'm asking you what are you going to do now that God sent you a kind, stallion in bed, caring and sweet good-looking guy in your direction and you're telling me that you want to get a tattoo?”

“I want to get it, a tattoo”, I protested while folding my arms across my chest. “Can you take me to a tattoo parlor after work?”

“You're changing the topic”, she sighed heavily before glancing my direction for a mere second, and I was grinning at her

“Pwease?”, I pouted my lip, and she seemed hesitant while sighing softly through her lips

“Fine”, she rolled her eyes. “I hope it won't take long though, Rick and I have to go grocery shopping”

“How are things between you two?”

“I mean, they're okay now and every thing, and we're attending couples counseling to try and iron out our differences because this baby will need the both of us to play an active role in its life”

“I'm really happy to hear that”, I entwined our hands together, and she smiled warmly

“He's actually really excited about this baby, more than I expected he would”

“How could he not? He knocked up the most beautiful girl in the city, I'd be fucking excited too”, I said, and she laughed before turning the ignition off, and I realized we were already at the office's parking space.

“Thank you, Liv”

“What for?”

“For being there for me when I needed you the most”, she was so hormonal these days, I'm sure she was always crying for the both of us

“Aww momma no, don't cry”, I comforted while massaging her shoulder and she chuckled lightly while wiping the tears on her face

“I swear it's not my fault”, she looked up while waving air into her eyes to avoid more tears streaming down her face

“I know”, I patted her hand softly. “You know I got you, for as long as you need me to”

“You going to make me cry again”, she half sobbed, half chuckled and before we both got out of the car and looked at our building

“Let's go get that bread”

I was walking towards my car in the basement parking lot and for some weird reason, I felt like I was being followed or something, taking multiple stops to look behind me and saw nothing. I thought maybe I was just being paranoid because I watch a lot of scary movies and shrugged the issue of while unlocking my car at a distance.

The moment I got to my car and reached for the handle, I felt an object being pressed against the back of my head and I froze in my spot when I saw the reflections of two masked men on the window. They were wearing balaclava's and dressed in all black, there was no way I could identify them. I gulped down heavily, already putting my hands up, and I felt the object held against my head being pressed harder before hearing the sound of what I assumed was a gun clocking and my throat went dry.

“Don't fucking move”, the man behind me warned as the other one started searching all my pockets

“Take everything you want just don't hurt me-”, I croaked out, shuddering in fear

“Get the keys, get the car keys”, the one behind me ordered the other one, and he snatched the car keys in my hands after he finished searching all of my belongings in my pocket; my phone, wallet, house keys

“Listen fellas, I'm not looking for any trouble-”, I was interrupted when I felt my weight being forcibly pulled to the back of the car and the other one was already holding the boot open

“I swear I won't tell anyone one about this, not even the police”, I was pleading for my life, but they didn't seem interested in sparing me

“Please, I'm getting married next week”

“Do we look like we give a fuck?”, they both scoffed mockingly as one was trying to force me into the truck

“Get in”, they both demanded, and I shook my head, they exchanged looks at my defiance before putting a fight with the one that wasn't holding a gun, but he proved to be much stronger than I was

“I'll fucking blow your brains out”, the gun was now pointed directly at me and my sank to the bottom of my rib cage. There was no used to fight them because my life was all that mattered in that very second. I voluntarily got into the trunk as the other man tied my hands and feet up with a rope he fished out in a backpack he was carrying.

“Please don't do this-”, a duct tape was patched on my lips before my head was covered with some sort of bag and I heard the sound of the trunk being closed and they both got inside the car, before playing music loudly on my speaker, to silence my muffle screams and struggles as I hit my body against the bonnet, in high hopes that someone can hear me and rescue me from this nightmare

God, please don't let this be the end of me