You're my worst habit and my darkest addiction.

No matter how much you'd harm me,

I'd always come crawling back for more.

I could never try to break free,

From this hold, you had over me.

Never able to see that everything,

Nothing you did was ever meant to help me.

Your actions were only there to make me bleed.

But now I'm older, now I'm bolder.

I'm stronger, much much tougher.

No longer the little boy you used to toy with.

No longer do you hang your power above me.

Now finally I can see, that you've never been good to me.

All you'd ever do was knock me down at every turn.

Even with you gone, those words, they really burn.

Having you around all the time, everything was always a lie.

No truth was ever spoken here,

It's always due to my fear of being broken.

I just kept my thoughts sealed away, it's for the better after all.

But there's really so much one can take,

It wouldn't be long before I would break.

Your words always stung me hard,

So eventually, I threw my cards in your face.

You once were my poison, something I took willfully.

But it's so clear now, all this toxicity.

But now, I'm older, and so much bolder.

Much stronger, much much tougher.

No longer the child you always abused.

No longer do you hold this power above me.

And now finally I can see, that you truly never gave a damn about me.

All you ever do is kick me when I'm already down.

Still even with you gone, your words, still leave their scars.

Even with this pain you've put me through.

Life still goes along, and so do I.

I can tell it pisses you off, cause now you see that I have won.

The world still spins around, now you're the one left in the dust.

How does it feel, to have absolutely nothing at all?

It's simply part of the rules since you started this game.

I thought maybe you'd understand,

That there's always possibility you could lose.

As I move further from you, you still remain in the past.

Unable to ever move on, just go ahead, get on with it.

Once I cried to you, but now you cry to me.

It's so frightening, just how toxic this all could be.

And now it's come to an end,

It's easy to see it's not the one you'd hoped it be.

But now that I'm older, and so much bolder.

I'm stronger now, much much tougher now.

No longer the kid you used to harm, no more the boy you'd always use.

No longer, are you the one with the power to wield.

And finally, I can truly see, how much pain you've always caused me.

You simply always kept me down, on the floor, left for dead.

Still now with you gone, it all still hurts so much.

It still stings, even though you've been gone.

It's been some time, yet you're actions still haunt my mind.

But I'm learning to live, even with this burden I never asked for.

One that simply came crashing through my door.

But even with all the scorn, I'm stronger now, greater than before.

Because now I finally realize, that's okay to live my life.