"I wasn't even this nervous when I went to jail." Worth snickered, causing the doctor to glance over him funny as he set up the equipment. Since we were now...at the doctors office to check if...I'm really pregnant.

I feel no different in all honesty.

But...we'll have to see.

"You were in jail?" The doctor ends up asking him, and Worth nods. "Oh..."

"He didn't commit any of the crimes," I clear up any assumptions she could've possibly made, and she frowned, "It really...isn't any of your business. Can we just get this done?"

Worth grabbed that weird gel stuff, and I lifted my shirt as I put my hand out for him to put it into my hand. Only for him to shake his head as he puts it in his own hand. Using his free hand to press me back down onto the bench, he smirked.

"Enjoy this nice little massage." He husks quite seductively as a joke, and he begins to rub it onto my stomach.

Which...were all abs, so I really don't know how anyone could be living inside of there. It's weird to think about...

Someone who could be Worth and I combined? Now that's something to be happy about. I don't want him to ever think that it's not something to be amazed by. Except he looked amazed and fascinated.

"I just know...this baby will have the best life, a life better than one I ever could possibly live! I don't want them to ever feel what I felt as a child. Like there wasn't really someone out there who loved me, who cared about my existence." Worth pulled his hands from my stomach, smiling as he rubs them on a paper towel the doctor gave him.

"I hope for all of that too with you, through and through." I say with the most certainty. I saw his eyes soften upon me until they moved onto the doctor who set this weird stick on my stomach.

She started to move it along it in a concentrated way. My lips tightened together because I felt bad...I don't think anyone will be in-.

"Oh! Won't you look at that." She snickers, and I saw Worth suddenly standing in front of the screen. I couldn't even see it as she looked at him as if he was the cutest thing.

I tried to sit up to see, only for him to push me back onto my back. Looking up at him, I saw one tear going down his cheek. Only to watch as it fell onto my own cheek and I look up at him in shock.

"I love you so much..." He whimpers, and my eyes widened upon him. "The baby must be kind to you since you said you didn't feel anything. They've been letting be at peace...they're so cute Nate."

I saw him move, and I looked to see a small...form on the screen. It was inside of me as I saw it on its back in a fetal position. My eyes moved back onto Worth who was still looking up In mesmerization to it all.

"This...changes everything," He breathes, biting his lip as he points at the screen, "I refuse to let my experiences hold me back from giving this baby my everything! I must finish my GED, and when I do, I shall apply for colleges! Good colleges, so that I can pursue what I've always wanted to pursue!"

"And what is that?"

We look at the doctor, seeing her grin awkwardly as she cleared her throat.

"Sorry, I interjected myself into the conversation."

"It's fine, I want to be a lawyer." Worth tells her proudly, and she smiles. "Because...I want to help people who are abused and used by the system. Too many people go to jail with false evidence...falsely imprisoned, and abused because in those peoples eyes... Inmates are subhumans who don't deserve the natural human rights. I want to help them, they need someone too, even if some of them did mess up."

I was absolutely in shock to this because not once did I perceive him wanting...to do any of this. I've just been looking at him...as a broken individual who needed time to heal.

And maybe he was broken, but I had my mind set like he...couldn't move on from this. Like he wasn't always strong on the first place.

I kind of...infantilized him and was trying to control his own destiny to keep him from being hurt again. When in reality...I could've possibly led him to being hurt more with that kind of thinking!

What's wrong with me...?

"You can't tell if it's a girl or boy yet, huh?" Worth asks her, and she shook her head. "Darn it...when can we find out?"

"I'd say as early as fourteen to sixteen weeks of pregnancy, but usually it's best seen around eighteen to twenty weeks." She tells him, and he glanced over at me. "He's only twelve weeks, so, I'd say give it two more weeks and if you are really looking forward to the gender then you can simply come back."

Worth nodded excitedly, looking over at me as I nod too.

"This is great! Oh! Can we have ultrasound pictures too? I need to have as many as possible so that I can keep them as mementos."

"Of course, they're free - I already got some anyway. They just need to be printed." She snickered, and that's when she started as done with looking.

I was able to wipe that slime off of my stomach, but I was concentrated on Worth. The adoration for those printed pictures and what's to come...

I'm just disappointed in myself because I am beginning to realize how little faith I had in him towards his life going forward. I had much faith in us both, it was him...I worried about. I began to become controlling so that he doesn't end up manipulated again.

Yet...I'm manipulating his life just so that he doesn't get hurt, but it's still manipulation.

As we left the hospital, Worth was all talks about what the future would be. What...our future would be. Except, I know in his mind...the thought of what would happen to Micah was still there.

Is it really that simple? Is he really just going to forget it all because of a baby? I mean, I'm not complaining; but I just worry that he's just doing what he did in jail again.

Holding everything in and simply...not being honest with himself.

"I can tell you're worrying about me again."

I flinch, looking as I saw him grinning down at me before we were even in the car. His hand riser up, showing me the picture of our baby...

"I won't ever forget what happened, and I didn't forget about Micah either. Except you have to believe in me. I'm...a lot stronger than you think. Yes, I may be going about things in a way that confuses you; but that's just how I keep going. Don't worry...and you really don't have to worry because this," He nods down at the picture happily, "This here...they start a whole new chapter! Not just for you, but for me too. Just trust me on this one."

My eyes watered on him, gripping his shoulders as I let my hands go up the sides of his neck. Only to cradle his face with each hand as I look at him worriedly still.

"I just...don't want you to hurt again. I want you to talk to me."

"Talk to you about what? I'm fine." Worth chuckles, clasping his hands over mine. "The only time I'm not fine is when you think I'm not. When you think...I'm this weak person who became a statistic to the system. Not at all, my record is clean! They were only memories made...which made me stronger. And which brought you back to me, NBI."

I chuckle breathlessly, leaning forward as a press a deep kiss to his lips. Feeling his arms go around my waist as he pulled me closer, tears going down my cheeks. I pull back from his lips for a moment, mg thumb running over his lips.

I couldn't help but smile as I look into his eyes, seeing his eyes watering.

"Promise?" I whimper, and he chuckles. "Do you promise Malakai?"

Worth flinched, and I see him look down at me with that shocked expression to me saying his actual name. Only for a tear to leave his eyes as he nodded.

"I promise-."

"Promise that you'll talk to me, please."

"I promise, but you have to promise me something too." He says quickly, wiping my tears from my cheeks as he pressed the picture to my chest. "You must...promise me, that you'll give me a chance."

I frowned, grabbing the picture as I look at it. Only for him to grip my chin and to have me look back at him.

"Of course, I've given you plenty...what are you talking about? And besides, you haven't done anything wrong-."

"Not that kind of chance." He shook his head, nodding at the picture again and I look. "Give me a chance to prove myself to you and our child...that I am not weak. I can still be even after all of that trauma and pain. Don't trap me too because you want to protect me from more pain. It's okay... I'm okay, even if I cry. Just means I'm normal too...because before, I never cried. Give me that chance...to be free and help us both. Not just you helping me...I don't want to depend on you anymore. I want you to depend on me too."

I knew I was crying...crying the ugliest I've ever cried as I nodded. Seeing him smile as he hugged me again, my arms wrapping around him tightly as I didn't want to let him go.

He's much more stronger than me, I could...never be as strong as him. I underestimated him time after time. I was only projecting...projecting how I would go about all of this and what I'd feel about stuff that would only truly impact him!

What's wrong with me?

"I'm so sorry Malakai!" I cried out into his chest, clinging onto him. "I didn't think you could get past this and began to control your life...thinking about things in how I'd see them, not how you would. I'm so sorry!"

I could hear him chuckling as he hugged me still. Caressing my back, comforting me now... I didn't deserve the comforting, but here I was...getting it from him.

"I love you Malakai." I cry even more. "My M-N-M."

"My NBI," Worth smiles, pulling back as he cradled my face, "My everything."

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