I was walking through the crowded halls of the campus with Felix on my side. He was wearing his favorite grey t-shirt and it made me giggle on my own. According to him, that shirt brought him the best luck, and it made me think about myself and how I think the same about my favorite perfume. As we walked through the thick crowds, we encountered Matt on the way. I avoided eye contact, but it was useless, since his hand touched my shoulder and his golden eyes were glimmering like tiny little stars combined. I smiled at him, wishing for him not to bring up the party at his place subject. I noticed Felix stepped aside, giving some time to Matt and I. I nervously smiled at him, thanking him for leaving the two of us alone.

"Hi there stranger." He greeted me and I replied with a friendly smile. People walked past us, bumping into me and it made me feel like our bodies were obstacles on the hall. But I didn't care. I was with him.

"Hi Matt."

"I didn't notice the time you guys left." His eyebrows were furrowed, as his stare was on me.

"We had to go, I'm sorry we didn't say goodbye." I looked down, gulping. My thoughts were saying 'you stupid, say something else' but I couldn't find the words. I thought he needed a more complex reason as to why we enjoyed only ten minutes of his party, but I couldn't, because I really didn't know what else to say. I didn't want to say Alex didn't have her mother's authorization or anything like that, I didn't want to sound lame.

"It's okay," He waved at someone. Then he went back to me. "It's a shame you didn't stay longer."

"You wanted me to stay longer?" I asked, then regret came flooding in. Why in hell did I just ask such a stupid question?

His expression went blank. He blinked his eyes multiple times before speaking. ''Sure, I mean, it was fun.'' He cleared his throat.

''Yeah.'' I nervously gave him a chuckle, trying to find the right words to say, but I found none. Our bodies stood awkwardly in front of each other, my arms crossed on my chest and his hands inside his pocket.

"I have to go, see you later." He said as he placed a kiss on my cheek and then I watched him leave. His body was walking through the thick crowds of lazy students. The kiss felt like sparks and heaven wrapped into one tiny, insignificant little thing. My cheek had the trace of it, and it made my lips turn into a huge grin. Ear to ear, I tell you. Then I went to Felix, whose body was pressed against the wall as he shook his head, giggling at me.

''What?!'' I elbowed him, begging for a response.

''You are so freaking obvious.'' He rubbed his eyes, as a chuckle was coming out of his lips.

''I'm not!'' I replied in defense.

''Whatever you say Lil.'' His arm was around my neck as we walked over to class. He was the closest thing to a best friend, even though rumors were spreading between our friends in common that he was into me. I didn't see it. I was obnoxious, awkward, a nervous wreck and a total emotional mess. I was the worst person when it came down to stability and it sucked, since I couldn't handle events and people like I really wish I would. But I was hoping they were just rumors, because having to know that his heart was crushing over a girl whose heart was crushing over someone else, makes me cringe. Not only cringe, but makes me wish for him to have never met me. It sucks to like someone who likes someone else, tell me about it. Matt was probably still with his girl and I was creating things in my head that he might like me back. Stupid me.

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"I decided to stop talking to Zach."

"I thought you decided that a long time ago." Alex said, sipping on her Coca Cola can.

"I just don't want him to feel bad."

"He is an asshole, he deserves more than that." I rolled my eyes, with my chin tucked in my hands. My elbows were my support, as I stare blankly at the empty table in front of us. People chatting were bugging my senses, the lousy laughs from the table next to us started to creep the hell out of me. These boys always sit next to us. Some were Matt's friends and I used to question how someone like him could ever hang out with people like them. They were so different. These guys were immature as hell. While Matt on the other hand, was the opposite. He was so centered in his world and it really bugged me out how they were friends. But who the hell am I to judge?

"These guys annoy me like hell." I stated the obvious.

"Tell me about it." She glanced at them and then I did too. They were laughing and making some weird sex noises and movements. Like grow the fuck up. I rolled my eyes and turned my sight to the other way, people were making their way into the cafeteria. All of a sudden Alex started singing a One Direction song I don't quite recall, she was so excited.

"Stop singing." I joked.

"Reason number one why I love this radio station." She kept mouthing the lyrics, totally rocking her pink earphones.

"So are we going to the movies after class?" She nodded, taking off her earphones.

"I really want to do something fun," She groaned. "We can get some lemon pie afterwards."

"You got yourself a deal!" I chuckled and then, our conversation was interrupted by Bella, with her face red and her lips pressed together.

"What happened to you?" Alex and I spoke in chorus, wondering why was she this way. She sat down, next to me, her forehead was on her hands, as she tried to calm herself down.

"I fucking hate boys." She said under her breath. The tone in her voice indicated she was mad as hell. And the red on her face made me figure out things had gone wrong right now.

"What happened?" I said, furrowing my eyebrows. My hand was stroking her back, trying to make her mood change.

"Peter is an asshole, he has a girlfriend, he lied to me," She gulped. I could easily see the anger in her eyes. "You know how wrong is this? She could probably think I was the slut that planned to-"

"Calm down." I side hugged her, interrupting her words.

"I hate him," A sigh flew out of her lips. "I feel disgusted."

"Boys are dumb, they don't know how to keep a good girl," I placed my hand on her shoulder. "They just want to play games and you are too wise for that shit." She responded with a warm smile, I always tried my best to keep her sane, because sometimes shit comes our way and knees are to weak to keep still with every wave of emotion. That day I learned one thing, sometimes you find out things and it's never guaranteed they are positive. But one thing's for sure, every little thing helps us unravel the mystery that is life and I can assure you that every rock thrown at us, is a lesson shaping us into a better us. I wanted to believe that and I wanted my best friends to believe that too. In a world where hearts get broken and feelings get shattered and hopes are set up high for nothing, you need your friends the most. The rest is background.

''You're right, I just wished things would've been different this time,'' She sighed. ''With him.'' She stated, a bit of hope in her voice.

''I know, but I really think fate is waiting to give you something really special.'' I was trying to find words to comfort her. Not only to use nice words, but words with truth in them. Words that could really help her figure out that she didn't need that boy in her life, because she was so much more than that. She was more than the games he played, than the lies he used to get her by, than the smile on her face due to his presence. She was more than him and this whole situation.

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I was lying in my bed, with my journal on the side. The 1975's 'Chocolate' was soothing my thoughts, that lately were all about Matt and that gorgeous smile of his. I started to wonder a lot of things. I started to imagine life with him as a boy friend and life in his circle of friends and life with him in general. I was dying to talk to him and just have a comfortable and long conversation. I wanted to ask him about his day and how many home works were left on his 'To Do List' and what his thoughts about the universe and how things are perfectly placed in your life to teach you a lesson. I wanted to ask so many things, just because I wanted him to get to know me and vice versa. I wanted to know his deepest thoughts, even the darkest ones. Because we all carry demons with us, and I know how hard is to fight them alone some times. I sat on the bed, my feet dancing without touching the ground. I glanced at my phone that was perfectly resting on the night stand. It's white color made me think about risks and it was telling me to text him. I followed my instinct.

Hi!

Three simple characters were more than enough for my heart to race. He had just texted me. My straight face turned into a smile, all my teeth showing. I squealed like a little girl. The phone was against my chest as I was lying on the bed, trying to process what was going on.

Hey Matt! How's everything going?

I put the phone on my side. My elbows were supported on my thighs, as I waited for his reply. Five minutes went by and I started to panic. Probably regret invaded his thoughts and the idea of having a conversation with me, bored him. It was completely understandable.

I'm okay, I just wanted to recomend you a movie I just saw.

Sounds interesting!! :)

It didn't took me long to reply, but it was okay. I wasn't in the plan of making my self seemed tough or anything of the sort, because I was really into talking to him.

It is! It's called Definitely, Maybe. I thought of you when I was watching it. I was like, ''I know Lily will enjoy this one!'' :)

Apparently, I was in his thoughts more than once. The text message made my lips curl into a smile and it made my heart beat a thousand times faster. It felt like it wanted to get out and run away. I couldn't stop reading the text, over and over again my eyes danced to the words being displayed.

You thought about me! That's cool! Haha. I'll watch it right now and I'll let you know my thoughts.

I'll be waiting.

I didn't reply this time. Instead, I grabbed my laptop and searched for a good movie online site. I googled the movie title and clicked the first option on my sight.

The movie was over. 12:00 my clock read. I yawned. But I picked up my phone and searched for his conversation. WhatsApp lets you know when did people last checked their conversations, his was 11:40. Damn it. He was probably sleeping, but I took the risk and sent him a message.

Hi, so you are probably sleeping now...but guess what?! I just finished the movie and you were completely right. I enjoyed it more than I thought I would. Thanks for the suggestion.

I put the cell phone back on the night stand. I tried to close my eyes and sleep, but then my phone vibrated. The loud sound was loud enough to alert me. I jumped scared and held it in my hands. The bright screen was bugging my eyes, and his name was displayed on it. I opened the conversation and read the text.

I'm still awake and I KNEW IT!!! You loved it. What was your favorite part? Definitely the ending was mine.

I know! Mine was too. You seemed to have a good taste in romantic comedies, Mr. Galdieri.

I sent, with an emoji at the end. The one with the black shades, seemed to fit with the mood just fine. I could feel my eyelids shutting down. 'I'll be awake when he replies' I thought to myself, so I let them close. Cell phone in hand and Matt Galdieri in my mind.