I am an insecure person, with the feeling of inadequacy and a lack of self-confidence. And, I hate this feeling. My present should have been with a different story. I planned to become a florist and start my business. Then, work until the age of 30, own a home, a pet, and lastly, by the age of 35 husband and my 1st child. But, unfortunately, I have my first child when I was 18.

For 16 years, I held an empty promise by my mother, who left me..... No- abandoned me. The deal was between Carters and Kepners. I was used as an asset in the deal, like I have no emotion, like I am a land that was supposed to grow the Carter seed.

Humans fight for land, but no one fights for the sky. The same way was about me, but no one asked me.

After Amy left, Mother begged me to save her husband and I begged her to save her daughter. I was a few months away from graduation. I was helping her through my part-time jobs, yet she gave up. That day, I learned one thing that Father hid from me... Mother gives up, easily. She is not a fighter. She gave me up without considering that I was ready to help her, ready to be by her side.

This event at the starting of my adulthood traumatized me. I became insecure about my ability. I even planted a lot of purple Hyacinth in the Carter mansion to show my sorrow and regret of not fighting for myself.

Three nights ago, when I noticed that man in front of my gate staring at me shamelessly despite getting caught, I ran to the outhouse to Norma and Daniel and heard the pleasing voice, their laugh. They were so happy that I didn't dare to knock on their door. So, I turned and walked back to my house. And lit all the lights of the boundary walls, and soon he left.

I understood he prefers not to be known. I did a little happy dance since I learned something about my opponent. But this was not enough. I became sceptical. I lit all the lights every night and made sure to check every door and window before going to bed. Not only that, but I have shifted Jamie into my room and Zippy is Jamie's shadow.

Looking at Zippy, Theo suggested two evenings back that I should train Zippy as a guard dog. According to Theo, Zippy has the lineage of a guard dog.

I assessed again. I couldn't understand the breed. Furthermore, I just wanted to be careful with him, in case he is a naturally aggressive breed... I have to know my limits with him. But no, a failed attempt, Again. Zippy is a mystery. So, Trina suggested a DNA test. There is nothing wrong with Zippy, he is perfect. Mama's boy like Jamie. It's just, It would be easier if we know his breed so that I would take care of him.

"Thank you." I thanked Theo and took Zippy from him, who was giving his tattooed arms a good fight.

"He doesn't like me." Theo laughed and touches the ears of the glaring puppy. Wait..... I looked at Zippy and yes, he was glaring at Theo. "Even your son doesn't like me." Theo was looking at Jamie.

I turned and found my son glaring at Theo too. And soon, George joined him.

"Don't mind them... They are jobless now." I let out my nervous laugh.

Having Theo so close is a little uncomfortable. No man has been so close to me. Even when George hugs me, it's more like a brotherly hug. But Theo, he gives me a different look. I am beginning to think that he likes me.

"They are not jobless...." Stopping, "Anna." Theo pronounced my name, slowly.

Taking a few steps away from him, "I will see you soon." I finally walked away from him and joined George, who was here with the results of the DNA test.

"I will make sure to teach Zippy how to bite," George grumbled.

"Bite... Bite......" Jamie copied George.

"Lot of bite," George said in zeal.

"This is inappropriate." I hit George's biceps and covered Zippy's ear.

"Bite... Bite." Jamie chanted again.

"Jamie....." When I called him in my mother voice, he zipped his little mouth and pouted.

"Do you know he was a player of his time?" George said. "He ran from his wedding."

"This is personal. You shouldn't be gossiping about your brother-in-law."

"Because he seems interested in you... And you are married." George ignited the car and dropped me and the kids home.

Today, Trina was not well, so I handled the shop alone. And since, Daniel is out of town with Carter, so George decided to be my driver.

I was checking on my classes when I heard something... Downstairs.

Zippy was sleeping a baby.

Then, again, I heard.

I looked at the time, it was 2:30 a.m.

Then, again.

I searched for my phone, but it was missing.

Checking outside the house, I found all the lights were off. I need to make sure Jamie and Zippy are safe, so I left the room and locked it, closing it with a baby monitor in my hand. I need to reach to Norma and Daniel.

I switched on the light as I walked through the hallway and found nothing. My scepticism is ruining my peace. I need to do something or else I would be ruining the peace of others.

Switching on the lights again, I remembered I didn't switch the lights tonight. I was relieved that no one intruded into my house. I think I should discuss my fear with the old couple.

Without wasting the time, I travelled to the door of the Brown couple, who were not at home. Then again, I remember the couple informed me about their date... I am forgetting things again.

Sighing, I run back to my home. To My heaven. To my babies.

The first thing that I did was to check both the babies, Jamie and Zippy. Both sleeping like nothing happened........ nothing has happened. Maybe I am hallucinating again. I haven't visited Dr Harrington ffor2 months. Facing the mistress of my husband is like a war for me. She ruined my potential happiness. I am not strong enough to face her again. But I need to visit a psychiatrist. I need help. I am imagining things, like I did a few years back, and even after having Jamie.

I was hallucinating James around me, taking care of me and our kids, but in reality, he was never around. He calls me wife.... ...actually mocks me with this title, never fail to remind me what type of wife I am. Only his breeder, meant to give him a son.

But he does love, Cherish. And I am afraid just like Norma that he would take Jamie away from me once he learned about the existence of his male heir.

I hate this absurd obsession of the Carter family. They are obsessed with the idea of a male heir. Kids are kids. Jamie and Cherish deserve better but again, fighting for Cherish can cost me, Jamie. I have to alternate and better way to get my daughter.

I have to take care of myself, first.

Taking my planner out, I intended to visit the mistress of my husband. They discussed not having feelings for each other, but that's inappropriate. He is married, at least for now. I am Mrs Carter. This is my title and tomorrow, I will make sure she knows her place. Her place is in his penthouse, she is his secret..... Heinous. While I am hidden from the world because I am his private matter... His life.

"So Anna, wait until this Anna reminds you, your place," I murmured clenching my teeth and taking out the packed clothes that Norma brought for me.

This is not your job. My consciousness screamed, but I shut her up. I am fed up with people treating me like nothing. I am a human, whose life was ruined because of a few people.

An heir in exchange of heir. Emmeline Carter's voice still haunts me.

My peace in exchange for your peace. I vowed and looked outside the window, and find a car parked in the light. Somebody was undoubtedly inside...

"I am hallucinating again." I giggled. "Tomorrow, last meeting, and I will find another psychiatrist who is not my husband's mistress."

My phone chimed when I covered the window. But I ignored it. Jacobson and Brown could call me if something is important, and the rest of the world doesn't care about me.

"Good night." I kissed Jamie's cheeks.

"Dada." Mumbling in sleep with his baby voice, Jamie unfolded his tiny fist.

"Dada is here." Promising him the love of his Dada, I was determined to be his father. James, I give up on us.

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